it's my life ; so juz get outta my life ; leave me alone

`away

2009-06-04T12:00:00.002+08:00

AWAY.

5th-16th

(europe)

LOVES <3

P.S. i love you/

`cheer up

2009-05-30T22:20:00.001+08:00

`thank you

2009-04-25T19:27:00.009+08:00

thank you batch'09! (: thank you RGGE! thank you to all who asked if i was okk.Trio in A minor and Mozart never felt so sad before.lol.~~i was gonna cry already~~ i guess some of you saw.thats why youre asked if i was ok! (: haha.but first time i actually felt so attached to the music.i was trying to hold it all back.but ite it all still flowed out.haha.dont know why everytime hug zhenling.ever since sec1.no matter how hard i try to hold back.also cannot de loh.its like instant.lol.thanks girl (: thank you all who comforted me! sorry for the sudden breakdown. just couldnt tahan anymore. so much stuff has happened/going to happen.esp today. all the stress built up.and still building.thank you batch'09 - zhenling; cheryl; wenyan; anna; liting; priscilla for giving me a hug each! not forgetting maria too!hahaha.damn cute luh you all.suddenly all surround me and gave me lots of hugs of love & encouragement! ill be jiayouing. so you all must too kk! (: thank you! we can do it together! :D

ALL THE WAY RGGE'09! GOLD WITH HONOURS! <3

the one thing that ive always believed in;

it's strange right now it all seems so unclear/

`goodbye

2008-11-13T19:02:00.003+08:00

`away

2008-11-13T18:41:00.011+08:00

AWAY.

14th-20th

(beijing)

LOVES <3

`basketball

2008-11-05T15:50:00.002+08:00

`GETAWAY

you're the one in a million (:

(this post is requested by CHERYL! :D) hahaha.oh well.its her ~~farewell~~ post before she leaves for penang! okok.lets start on our last outing yesterday! :D

bused to cine.changed.was damn hot luhh.haha.i changed to my pink+white tank tops & shorts.she to her black shirt & shorts.went to buy her favourite sweets! whereby we just plonked our heavy bags onto the floor and started stuffing our stuff in.LOL.went to the arcade! coz there was really very very few people.we played para para! hahaha.my first game ever can.okk.she kinda got dragged into it.thanks pok! :DD yayy! loved it mann.but the up arrow wasnt working luhh.so like missed all of the up arrows.lol.since she played para para with me.i played drums with her! :DD damn pro luhh she.go go pokk! :DD then we realised we havent bought our movie tickets!

so she went to buy movie tickets for butterfly lovers! :DD (we have practically watched every nice movie there is) hahaha.she lost her ez-link then havent got a new one.so only i have.then can only buy 1 student ticket.so i took out all the cards i had! my ez-link.my ic.brians + my pri ez-link card.at first can lehh! till she say the names i think :/ aiyo.so ite yeahh.cannot.went to play two games of bball! okk luh.warm up warm up.230! big improvement from our 147.LOL.there was this lady in pink dress who stood beside me throughout the whole game.kept asking me questions luhh.i was so freaked out can.coz she was leaning so close.then l8ter i scared i whack her face.lol.so ite we pretend to walk off then go back and play again.scaryyy.after that.went to tabao subway cookies while cheryl went to get cinema food.chionged to the cinema.loll.

didnt expect there to be other people in the cinema.since its quite an outdated movie liao.still have luhh! but very few.loll.the shows quite nice luhh.cheryl was like.oh mann! why the cute cute uncle die.hahaha.then we kept trying to guess what would happen next.ite they got buried alive.aiyo.sad ending luhh ): towards the end.suddenly baby called me! LOL.cutee luhh he :DD then we kinda took a long time to walk out of the cinema.haha.went to the sushi restaurant that cheryl wanted to eat! ite we found out we didnt have enough money!or rather we only had enough to play arcade.so we malued ourselves and walked out.LOL.so maluating luhh.omgg.went back to play arcade! played drums again! saw cheryls classmates playing para para.funny funnyy.

went to play bball! dont know how many games we played luhh.we got the hang of it le lohh! after playing one game.must rest.then shooting that time.must one after another.slight turn the ball back then can go in! hahaha.so while resting we were commenting on how the others play :X like if the father dont play.the son sure score better de.then there was this other pro guy who totally dumped his gf for that bball game.he totally ignored her luhh.walk also walk far far infrnt.then she carrying his bag.tagging behind.aiyo.then there was this other guy who kept staring at the pro pro guy.coz he was proer than him.then there was this girl who was better than her bf.ite they tied our score! LOLL.funny ppl.ite our high score was 343! we aimed to get 350 lohh.but missed by abit luhh.our high score was 247 the other time lohh.hahaha.next outing must be 400++ XD after that saw the white sling bag that i wanted! haha.then went to look at couple stuff.keychains & shirts etc.saw one that i like! had to go home le lohh.camped at mrt again and started drawing on her planner :DD after that.home sweet home! (:

thanks pok pok!thank you for peiing me the whole afternoon! :D and of course not forgetting.THANK YOU FOR YOUR VERY SWEET LOVE LETTER & PICKS! :DD ill bring the letter to beijing to read everyday kk! you must bring your letter too horr! && dont lose the key! hahaha.i wont lose my lock! :DD you must take care kk! wont be able to see you before i go.but we may be able to go out before you go to beijing! so sickening right.we both go beijing and malaysia.just that at different timings :/ aiyo.ill be rotting at guitar luhh! lucky you dont have to do that ): loll.i refuse to mention bun bun.hahaha.but yeah.bring it along to keep you company kk! its cute! but its second to us :DD keep smiling! what i want to say is all in the letter le! (: ill miss youu lotss! sucker sucker! <3

thank you baby (: i was really touched after i read your sms.hehe.ill start improving too kk! thank you for all the calls & smses today! :DD we will get through it together right! as long as we believe in ourselves (: sorry for being such a crybaby these days ): ill bring ring ring + love letter + red jackie to beijing & try not to cry so much kk! (: promise promise! hehe.you must take care too when im away ahh! if you can.go out & play & enjoy yourself! :D ill miss you lots in beijing! hehe.cant wait to see you tomorrow! (: my heart is where ever you are ~ <33

with every step together;

we just keep on getting better (:

# shine #

`i love u

2008-10-30T21:35:00.011+08:00

CHERYL! :D hahaha.its here kk! must be happy now ahhh :DD dont know why we keep ending up watching weird/old people movies luhh! next time must choose properly kk XD i want bowling + arcade + sentosa outings! loll.you know horr.your that 'GRACE LOVES CHERYL' thingy still on me leg lehh! it was so visible when i was walking lohh.hahaha.shall draw yours lower next time! :DD have fun in beijing kk! although ill be like rotting during guitar :/ hmphh.haha.oh well.take care! <3

BABY! :D these few days have been really hard on you ): im sorry for being so stubborn & unreasonable at times kk!thanks for being so understanding all the time! (: haha.you must stay strong! we will get through it together! just ren a little longer kk! :D remember ring ring && smiley boy boy! (: when youre sad just go press smiley boy boy! but dont squish him ahhh.i know you have a tendency to do so XD hehe.thanks for your red jackie! :D it really keeps me warm! XD must take care of yourself ahh! esp your headd! your smile keeps me up for a day ~ <33

`camwhore

2008-10-30T20:42:00.018+08:00

CAMWHORING SESSION <3 :D

- certain unglam shots have been removed -

finally a pic with zhenling after so long! :DD hahaha.i had to like 'beg' her to take with me okk.busy busy girl :D

i dont like this one.haha.we come in peace! XD

at the last minute.siti shouted 'lets do funny faces!' then when the pic was taken.we all burst out laughing at my ridiculous face!!

ohhh.we were sianning alreadyy.

stone-ded.

hear no evil.speak no evil.see no evil!

first shot of the day! :D

spastic shot sia :D

glow in the dark puffer fishes! :DD

aditi clicked the timer at the wrong time!

O:

can barely see anything sia :/

my specs always have this cool cool effect! :D

another cool specs effect! i love my specs :DD

aditi - siti - grace (:

my fav pic! :D hahaha.sweetiepie siti! :D

yayy! so fun camwhoring in school man.spent the climate survey time having fun! :D lol.havent camwhored in ages.neoprints outing tmr! :DD ~~im broke.~~ ohh well.shall make the best out of it! :D <33

`emo

2008-10-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

`thank you

2008-10-16T21:16:00.007+08:00

THANK YOU :D

CHERYL POK! (: me blogging coz of you okk! so you must give me a BIG BIG SMILE :DD yayy! take care kk! you must jiayou jiayou! thanks for always staying by me! listening to all my rants (: for always lending me a shoulder to cry on (that includes hearing me cry on the phone) hahaha.im just a call away okk! loveya pok! cheer up kk! :D <33

BABY! :D this is for you too okk! :D aiyo.you ahh.hehe.thanks for your really sweet love letters! :D & your big big red jacket! hahaha.i shant return it to you XD thanks lots & lots for today! (: it really cheered me up! i havent laughed so much in ages. thank you! :D your smile just makes everything worthwhile ~ <33

2008-09-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

SmileyBoiBoi!

`faith

2008-09-21T20:03:00.022+08:00

`FAITH

in times like this;
we can only have faith (:

everybody jiayou jiayou for eyas! :D

all the best!

we can all do it together! (:

God bless!

its just a few more days!

hang in there & stay strong! (:

shopping dates after exams! :D

LOVES! (:

i pray Lord that you will carry me through (: brian rox!

one step at a time;

# rainbow #

`me & you

2008-09-21T18:35:00.003+08:00

`im sorry

2008-09-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

im sorry

for being so moody; emo; dao; stone; upset; pissed and anything you all thought that i was feeling today.im really sorry if i offended or hurt you all in any way.i really didnt mean it at all.today was just not one of the right days (:

thank YOU

all for being so concerned when i looked really wrong today.thanks for asking how i was.especially my girlfriends (: thanks lots.im sorry i caused you all to worry.im just feeling abit stressed and getting really sick as most of you can already tell from my face.haha.'are you okk? you look really sick.take care!' lol.thanks for all that girls (: thanks for crashcoursing me and giving me loads of encouragements before my tests (: thanks for being there for me and giving me pats on the shoulders; smiles; hugs.they really did help (: thank you all for everything! LOVES (:

when the world comes crashing down;

`hot

2008-08-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

`BABY

i can make you feel;
hot hot hot hot! :D

this is gonna be a long post! haha.half of it was supposed to be posted yesterday.but thanks to my parents.it wasnt posted -.-

hahaha.gay shit luhh yesterday.yess.yesterday was HOT :DD LOL.decided to wear my HOT SEXYY red skinnies! haha.coupled with my black halter and black & white tank top :DD yayy! went for tuition.amazingly i woke up early.math was okk luhh.haha.getting the hang of coordinate geometry! :DD after that.dated my LIBRARY GIRL HUIYING out for lunch! XD bused to far east! haha.met yiyang there.we ate chicken rice.nice nicee.damn funny luhh.shopp shopp.saw necklaces that i like.but no need for them luhh.so didnt buy (: she finally persuaded me to get my bus-stop shirt! :D hahaha.yeahh.its that white off shoulder one.yayy! LOVE IT LOADS! the necklace is really nicee.so i wore it together with my HOT outfit :D lol.went to lucky plaza to get my chocolate rainbow mcflurry and her strawberry sundae! yummy yummy.the guy was super nice luhh.gave me loads of chocolate and rainbow toppings :DD but the ice cream melted super duper fast.bused back to tuition :DD

was damn early.so we crapped around in the room.HOMO BF spammed me like shit.like wthhh! hahaha.i open my hp.14 new msgs.all one word somemore.omggg.LOL.went for chem tuition.titration ahh.sian diao luhh.was really tired liao.tried my best not to fall asleep.haha.after tuition.met LIBRARY GIRL again! walked together all the way back to far east! not bad rightt.from newton all the way to far east lehh! hahaha.laughed like shit along the way.XIANG SI DOU huhhh :DD LOL.it was damn damn freaking hot luhhh.huiying was like 'i look at your skinnies i feel damn hot liao' hahaha.i was totally sweating like a pig cann.anyway.she bused home.while i trained home.haha.realised i lost the pick that homo bf gave me! was uber sadd luhh.then i told her! guess what she did.SHE WENT TO BUY A WHOLE PACK FOR MEEEE! i just found out today.I LOVE YOU POKK!! so sweet luhh you.haha.

went home.sorry yongrong! i really didnt mean it when i said that luhh.aiyo.SORRY! bathedd.changed to my white gown dress thingy with black leggings.haha.love that outfit luhh :D put on my make up and all.SILVER EYESHADOWS ARE LOVE :DD hahaha.chionged to sheraton towers for my baby cousins birthday.everybody looked so pretty and shuai.haha.the dinner was niceee.but it was DAMN COLD.hahaha.wthhh luhhh.i havent had such a LAME dinner in my entire life.MY BOTH LEGS WERE BROKEN CANNN.LOL.everybody was laming aroundd.omggg.then korkor luhh! forever come disturb me de. the stupid touch shoulder thingy right.then see where you turn.he did it on me 4 times! and yeahh.stupid me fell for it 4 times straight.arghhh.haha.then we all became really stone.lol.like really very very stone and sian.afterthat went toilet! THE TOILET IS SO NICEEEEE.hahaha.after that became high again! but needed to go home liao.oh well.NEXT MEETING IN 2 WEEKS TIME! :D

went home.wanted to blog.chat on msn.parents came down and shut the whole thing down.was pissed to the max lahh.hahaha.THANKFULLY.HOMO BF CAME TO THE RESCUE! LOL.she pei wo all the way until 1230! that was like 1 1/2 hrs.lol.she knew i was sadd.then i ask her play seize the day solo for me! sing seize the day for me! SHE DID LEHHH.hahaha.poor her had to sit by the window to do all that :DD haha.coz her house no reception de.only by the window.so she sat there just to talk to mee.omggg.HOMO BF YOU'RE THE LOVE OKK!! :DDDD was laming like shit luhhh.haha.she gave me a goodnight kisss! hahaha.gssss.she say my singing very cute okkk! :DD hahaha.we took like 1/2hr just to say buhbye.WE'VE GOT THE YOU HANG UP NO YOU HANG UP KINDA LOVE! :DD LOL.oh well.THANK YOU POKKK!! :DDD

today was HOT but sian :DD LOL.kena woken up by my mummy.scolded me like shit again.got damn pissed.wore my red skinnies again! this time coupled with my black and white two piece tank tops.haha.with that nice nice necklace! LOL.just realised i was the exact same colour as yesterday.lol.went for church.it was okk luhh (: just that i was really tired and all.so wasnt really concentrating.haha.hannah was here today! haha.at first only me.jaslin and waner lohh.then she came! lol.after that tirzah came too! but lesson ended liao.she actually said she came coz she misses me.awwww.haha.loveya girl! :D

chionged home.had lunch in the car.lol.went home and talked to juowi kor who abandoned me for months! hahaha.actually just one month luhh :DD outing during hols! :DD thought i was damn late luhh.daddy dropped me off at bishan mrt.then cheryl pokk called.haha.she was gonna be late cann! so i walked around in j8 lohhh.i saw a big big coca cola lollipop in minitoons! XD loll.cheryl called after that.was talking to her when i met my uncle and auntie again! hahaha.that time go there also saw them.after that went to bishan mrt lohhh.we both agreed to meet at the HEAD of the mrt.LOL.finally went in.couldnt see her luhh! i thought i was at the wrong end.she was sitting downn.lol.pretty her had a new hairstyle! BUTTT THAT MADE HER NOT LOOK LIKE MY BF ANYMORE!!! hahaha.gsss.i like her bullets for my valentine shirt! LOL.ALL THESE THINGS I HATE REVOLVE AROUND YOU! XD

trained to cine! we were both damn stone luhh.went to buy her necklace.then she refused to tell me where we were going! ite.she brought me to HAPPY ROOM! :DD hahaha.im the first one that went there! yayyy! loll.BUTTTT DAMNN SAO XING LUHHH.we couldnt study there coz it was being used for some weird function :/ arghhh.we went all the way back down! to subway.lol.bought cookies and barbercue lays :DD damn siann luhh.she called up the two unknown ppl in my hp but they didnt pick up! hahaha.then we started gaying around.fed each other chips.so gsss.LOL.didnt study at all luhh.

guess what we decided to do! WE DECIDED TO GET COUPLE Ts AND TAKE NEOS TGT! :DDDD hahahaha.damn gay luhhh.walked aroundd.here there here there.cannot find lehhh! omggg.we wanted to change into our couple ts then tak neos then cannot find suitable ones lehh! aiyo.but i saw many slogan ts that i likeee! XD hahaha.shall go get them when i have the $$ luhh :DD then cheryl pok pok wanted to get COUPLE RINGS.omggg.noooo!! hahaha.then it was like couple shoes? couple necklaces? couple caps? LOLL.damnn gayy.ite all cannot find! aiyo.WE DECIDED TO SHOP FOR COUPLE THINGS DURING THE HOLS! :DD hahaha.gsss.

headed for the arcade! haha.bball! lol.dont know why.after one game.i felt like dropping dead.hahaha.damn tired luhhh.its like piackkk.on the floor.LOL.played two games.and our arms felt like dropping off.cannot play liao.must take a breakk.haha.sat on the chair.rest restt.lol.then go top up the card.went to play time crisis! hahaha.i totally suck at that one.i cant shoot for nuts.after that played two more bball games.we were actually perspiring luhh.its was damn hottt.hahaha.cheryl pokk thinks my skinnies are hot too! XD oh well.she had to go liaoo.

walked her down! haha.then she cabbed to TLL! LOLL.SHE GAVE ME A FLYING GOODBYE KISS WHEN SHE WAS IN THE TAXI! hahaha.i was like O: TOTALLY STUNNED.LOLL.damn cute luhh youu! hahaha.aw mann.next week cannot like that liao ): coz the next day got three tests.gsss.oh yaa.when we arrived at somerset mrt just now.i realised i left my ez link card at home.lol.but at bishan.when i tapped my 'card' (which i thought was in my hp/ipod pouch).the door opened! so i just walk right through thinking i had my card with me.but when we reached somerset mrt! the door didnt open! hahaha.but the people let me through luhh.so bought a standard ticket then daddy picked me up from bishan (:

came home.kena scolded like shit again.DAMN PISSED LUHHH.i purposely wear my red skinnies damn low.then mummy bu shang.scold like shit.threatened to cut up my skinnies -.- i got damn damn pissed.i refused to eat dinner.went to sleep instead.LOL.gsss.arghhh.so irritating.damn tired now luhhh.i shall just finish my eng wks and edit my compo abit go sleep liao :DD

I CANT WAIT FOR THE SEPT HOLS! :DD hahaha.2 more weeks.MUST MUST GO OUTT MANN! :DDD DATES DATES DATES & MORE DATES :DDDD hmmm.my shopping list! :DD

++ slogan ts :D

++ miniature bag! :D (you need this when you go out with homo bf coz you do nothing but slack to the max! XD)

++ sexy skinnies! :D

++ bus-stop ts! :D

++ dresses! :D

++ accessories! :D

++ movies + arcade! :DD

hahaha.homo bf & library girl think its cool that i can organise my thoughts so logically! hahaha.that chim chim paragraph :DD LOL.no luhh.there isnt anything going onn.haha.they are just some thoughts of mine (: shall write more chim chim paragraphs next time! LOL.LOVEYA BOTH LOADSS! :DDD

there is a limit to everything.i want to rewind back to the past.back to when we were little.back to when everything was normal.

where'd you go;

i miss you so-

# too late #

`friday

2008-08-15T23:11:00.006+08:00

`GOODBYE

whatever past is gone;
the best is yet to come (:

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY :D hahaha.was like counting down to school end (: school sucks can :X oh well.i have 7 more weeks to go! :D

social studies.stoned with srruthi like shit.hahaha.wahlao.kena scolded by her luhh.i purposely dont want listen to you.what can you do huhh -.- english was okk luh.kinda slack.lol.assembly was okk also.i didnt sleep leh! haha.zhenling says i look jap/korean now.haha.most people told me that too.huying thinks i look more FEMININE.lol :D oh well.people say my hair looks longer and nicer like that.so shall maintain this current hairstyle ba! until i come up with a new one again :D chinese was funny.was quarrelling with pristine.hahaha.damn funny.was drawing all over her paper XD mathematics was high yet sian.haha.as in was getting abit high for the first part coz its like the day is ending.then last few minutes damn tired and sian.lol (:

ponned physics ces :X went with huiying to macs.our favourite emo hangout :D haha.found a really romantic spot! ate mcnugget student meal (: wanted to eat rainbow mcflurry and drink hot chocolate too.but no space in my stomach liao.LOL.thanks girl for peiing me :D haha.damn funny luhh you.GANGSTER GIRL & LIBRARY GIRL! :D jiayou jiayou girl! we can do it together! 7 more weeks to go :D

this world is so complicated.people have a thousand and one faces.ignorance is bliss.yet not knowing makes you insensitive.being naive.being stupid.being indifferent.being ignorant.why cant people just be normal? why must they complicate themselves? simplicity is beauty.words you cant say.actions you cant do.expressions you cant show.everything gets so bottled inside.but is that the best solution.but once you blurt it all out.would you really feel better.or would it just make situations worse.people change.feelings change.everything changes.can we control it? we know our mistakes.we learn from them.but how often do we not repeat them? how often do we find ourselves not falling into that bottomless pit again? letting go is best for everyone.easier said than done.can we really believe everything that people say to us.which are the truths and which are the lies? how do we distinguish one from another? how would we know what is true and what is not? is what is real fake? is what is fake real?

God, give me the grace and serenity

to accept things that cannot be changed.

the courage to change the things

that can be changed.

and the wisdom to distinguish

one from the other.

that staircase;
that corner;
its been so long;
why do i still feel the pain;
the tears;
they dont seem to stop-

# angels wings #

`gynae

2008-08-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

`FAREWELL

my love (:

JUST CAME BACK FROM THE ----- :D LOL.okok.abit about today.damn damn tired.shant blog that much today :DD

haha.i was LATE for school today! loll.no luhh.just missed the school bus.so trained & bused to school lohh.haha.i miss going to school via public transport! so cool okk.ive to wait until jc then can do that :/ aiyo.but the bad thing is i cant really sleep throughout the whole ride.haha.yupp.reached school kinda late.VIDYA & CHERYL WERE LIKE OMGGG.YOURE IN SCHH!! hahaha.yayy!! LOL.damn cute luhh they two :DD

hmm.srruthi wasnt here today.aiyo.GET WELL SOON GIRL! :DD only had 3 useful blocks today.blocks after recess was slack (: math was ermm.okk luh.haha.dont exactly understand.wasnt processing anything also.teacher was like you okk or not.you look very not okk.qi se hen bu hao lehh.hahaha.she always think im like some sick pig like that.but yeah.i was feeling really tired.lol.history was YAY.LOL.COZ I WAS SUCKING MY COCA-COLA LOLLIPOP FOR THE LAST 1/2hr :DD hahaha.THANKS CHERYL POK! :D he said we could eat! so there i was.trying my best to keep the lollipop until the end of lesson.coz its like a mini lollipop.abit small.lol.yupp.niceee :DD i didnt sleep lehh! not that i was paying attention though.haha.quite luhh! but the lollipop was really THE LOVE :D physics prack was okk luhh.i see numbers and lines also blur liao.how to draw graph huhh.haha.krystal was freaking out beside me.lol.damn cute luhh she.recess.ate damn alot.coz was really hungry lohh.geog teacher also on mc.so could be late for class :X

hahaha.peied vidya to health check-up.only those which the backbone tilted need to go.lol.after that.met my ex-chi teacher! yayy.so nicee.haha.updated her again :DD went back to class.chionged chem wks.oh mann.i seriously need help.arghh.i can only do redox reactions.the rest ahhh.hai.philo was okk luh.just that i felt like puking halfway.was really tired also.thanks aditi! :D lol.was drawing on her paper.didnt feel like eating lunch luhh.felt so sick.but guess what.when i returned to class.I SAW A COCA COLA LOLLIPOP ON MY TABLE! hahaha.THANK YOU POKK! :DD saw pok going to the toilet after that.so called her in.lol.xie xie ni! sorry i so stone luhh.YOU STILL OWE ME A HUG OKK! lol.went for rs.kangjie and peixin are so funny.haha.ended early :DD

daddy picked me up.then we went to pick mummy up and went to TMH! :D lol.i was really scared okk.was smsing kelly and cheryl.lol.lets say.it was an ermm.EYE OPENING.experience :DD hahaha.but i never ever wanna do it again okk.i feel so.INVADED.LOL.the nurses there are really nice and funny okk.hahaha.they are all like so cute.guiding me along and stuff.i felt so babyishh.with all my mummys there.LOL.damn out of place okk.i was like the youngest there.oh well.THEY POKED A HOLE IN MY FINGER.for blood test luhhh.pain okk! loll.still feels kinda weird.did other tests as well.haha.IM NORMAL! :DD just given some medication luhhh.haha.more pills to take again.lol.i think the glass behind where the nurses sit is damn nicee okk :DD it somehow makes me look nicer than before.LOL.jkk luhhh.but it was quite fun there luhh! hahaha.the nurses laughed at me okk! coz had to make next appointment mahh.then they asked me if 25th sept was okk.i gave the blank look.then they all started laughing! then they asked if i had exams then.i gave an even blurer look and said.i dont know! LOLL.everyone was laughing luhhhh.my blur look is cute okk :DDD hahaha.then my nice nice nurse helped me change the plaster for my finger.so i left the room.when i came back.mummy was gone.then they were like your mummy went out liao.i was like HUHHH.then they saw mummy outside and said mummys there! hahaha.then everyone started laughing.LOL.it was fun luhh :DD

oh ya.THANK GOD :DD i passed my piano mock.haha.with merit (: i seriously think there is something wrong with her ears.haha.my teacher taught the marks were abit de wrong also.lol.oh well.THANK GOD :DD piano exam on the 29th! same day as kelly.lol.at 4pm luhhh.dont get to skip school :/ siann.haha.but i think im skipping physics ces! :D loll.dont know whether i should skip it tmr too.just dont feel like going luhh :X

need to chiong my eng compo draft + math wks tonight! lol.I WANT TO SLEEP EARLY! shall finish everything by 10.then watch tv till 11 and off to bed i go! :DD haha.daddy just bought the ipod sound traveller thingy! coz they say i always blast my ears.so now i have speakers! :DD loll.shall go try it out later.it seems cool :D I MISS MY GUITAR ):

what am i fighting for;

there must be something more

# patience #

`emo

2008-08-13T19:33:00.002+08:00

`HEARTS

the way you kiss me crazy;
baby you're so amazing (:

haha.oh mann.i so wanna keep this short :/ damn tired now.theres still piano lesson ~~which im not really looking forward to~~ hai.theres quite abit of hw to chiong tonight too.chem + math + eng.i think ill keep eng for tmr (:

SUNday.okk.it was super duper horribly terribly emo.havent felt so emo in a very very long time.reason - piano mock was damn screwed.its like i enter the exam rm.'you're supposed to be here next wk' 'huhh.they told me to come today' 'ohh.its okk.take a seat.' scales.okk.it was horrible.but i expected it luh.didnt prack at all what.pieces.first piece was SHIT.slipped like shit.by then i was kinda emo le.so emo piece.wasnt too bad.in fact it was the best thing out of the entire exam.last piece was okk luh.my worst piece what.oh well.sight reading was stupid.missed quite a few notes.AURAL WAS THE SHITTEST EVER COULD BE.for the first time it was like TOTAL SHIT.my best section became my worst.even worst than scales can.first part.play back.played a few notes wrongly.second part.sight singing.went off pitch for the first part.THE LAST STRAW.identify cadences.she told me to identify the chord.i went 'HUHHH' it was supposed to be a cadence.so i was like 'one.' 'this is the tonic key.' 'ohh.five.' 'what is the cadence?' 'HUHH.(pauses for damn long) imperfect?' 'no.its interrupted.' i was like shit.then last section.she played this piece thingy.i wasnt even paying attention liao.so anyhow answered the questions.then she went clap this.'HUHHH?!?!' i never ever had that section okk.anyway clapped damn off.walked out off the rm.i had tears in my eyes.got into the car.the tears juz streamed down.went for church.hai.came back.cried and cried.then fell asleep.yeah.kena scolded like shit for no reason.everything was going damn wrong.yeah.IT WAS AN EMO DAY.

MONday.it was much much better! :D woke up early! THANK YOU CHERYL POK FOR MORNING CALL + SMS! LOVEYA LOADS! :DD hahaha.damn cute luhh she.called me to wake me up in the morning.damn stone.after that was smsing her through out the day.bused to yck mrt with joyce.on the bus.we realised that joyce was gonna be in the same ll class as cheryl and michelle.called cheryl and we were laughing like total shit.damn cool luh! :DD hahaha.anyway.trained to JE.brings back all the memories! hahaha.i still rmb how i used to chiong to JE.chiong through JEC and to JE library! LOL.all the late nights at JE library all the way till it closed.then eating dinner/supper at macs at JEC.damn nice luhhh.hahaha.THE MEMORIES :D so met kangjie and peixin at JE! bused to kangjies house.had yummy dumplings for lunch.watched the olympics.omgg.weight lifting is so scaryyyy.haha.slacked slacked.did abit of rs.was digressing quite abit.realised my mp3 was on throught out.like 2++ hrs.omgg.haha.called cheryl pokk.she was supposed to come to JE library and study with me okk! then she wanted me go TLL to study with her and michelle.we were like totally laughing and laming on the phone.ite michelle went for her bowling.we went home.LOL.went home.ate dinner.after dinner.MUGGED until 530 the next morning.OMGGG.for the first time i mugged so long okk.actually not really mug luhh.juz read through wks.realised ive quite a few missing and -ahem- empty wks.i was like 'WTH.HOW TO STUDY' hahaha.results of sleeping in class luhh XD ite didnt touch physics and chinese at all.oh well.was damn tired luhh.had nice nice ice cream at night! :D white chocolate ice cream with marshmallows.with chocolate fudge and rainbow toppings :DD yummyy! mug mug mugg.then slept at 530 lohh (:

TUESday.slept for 1/2 hr.woke up at 6.haha.went to school feeling damn tired and all.was really scared i would fail luhh.mummy was like scolding me the night before.if i fail any papers.they would cancel my phone line O: lol.for the first time i was so slack for exams luhh.the whole national day weekend was totally SLACK :D haha.was having damn bad gastrics.ate abit and ate zantac.math paper was okk luhh.the gastrics went away.THANK GOD (: yeah.i think mugging paid off! haha.i think i can pass :D IM REALLY SORRY HUIYING & VIDYA.i really didnt mean it okk! as in.it just comes naturally.im not mocking or laughing at you two or anything.its just my badd.SORRYYYY! physics was crap.was late.haha.got the paper.'HUHH?!?!' hahaha.crapped up the answers.gastrics were backk.damn pain.ended up sleeping :X chinese paper was heck care liao luh! hahaha.gastrics were damn damn pain.no choice.take zantac again.dozed off quite a few times :X THANK GOD i got through all 3 papers.omg.i thought i would have died.THANK GOD for granting me the strength and wisdom to do the papers (: after that.went to subway with huiying! :DD lol.but no subway cookies! aiyo.so went to lucky plaza macs! i had my medium fries.she had her strawberry sundae! after that.i had this sudden craving for HOT CHOCOLATE! hahaha.bought medium hot chocolate.DAMN DAMN NICEEE :DD lolll.felt as though i was on holiday.coz the only time i drink hot chocolate is when i go on holiday and i stay at hyatt.then ill have it every morning for breakfast :D yupp.it was really nicee.was really full after that.on the way home.the gastrics came againn! omggg.haha.i have a feeling its because i had my ice cream on empty stomach the night before :X oh well.plopped on my bed and slept for 4 hrs :DD woke up feeling really tiredd.then slacked a while on com.copied mep wks.then slept liao (:

TOday :D went to school feeling damn sleepy.was so tired that i was couldnt be bothered to tie my complicated hairstyle.hands too lazy to move.haha.so juz tied it all to the left side :D lol.people say this hairstyle nicer lehhh.but i feel damn weird.coz its so loose.haha.oh well.i think ill tie it tmr as well.so freaking tired :/ haha.was smsing cheryl during physics.sat next to arasi and cheryl.haha.arasis really funnyy :DD ss was crapp.lol.was laming with srruthi! hahaha.shes damn funny.YES SRRUTHI! YOUR NAME IS HEREE :DD hahaha.was laughing like shit with her during english! I COULD BE A MALE O: hahahaha.damn funny luhh.chem prac.titration.okk luhh.i kinda keep going over.aiyo.math was siann.but grp discussions were funny! LOL.I LOVE MY GRPMATES! SRRUTHI! REBECCA! HUANYING! JIAYING! :DD yayyy.they always make me laugh :DD mep was ermm.WEIRD.brought my g6 + g7 theory bks for kelly & huiying.teacher saw them.wahhhh.ask damn alot of questions luhh.then made me show the class.then say what.ohhh.so very easy for you luh.this that.I COPIED THE ANSWERS FROM THE BOOKS.she found out.LOLL.damn funny luhh! then she made me read out all the answers :/ so diao.history was damnnn funny.hahaha.STD! LOLL.hes really lame and all luhh.always makes us laugh :DD mep is really slack.lol.chionged home.

haha.damn tired now.gonna get mock results later.hai.if fail.there goes my real exam.dont need take liao.but oh well.every piano lesson makes me happy! i hope tonights one too (: so i shall stay a happy girl! :D i need to get rid of my eye bags mann.i seriously look like a PANDA.lol.okok.shall go eat dinner :D

I WANT TO THANK PEOPLE AGAIN! hahaha.THANK YOU ALL WHO HAS MADE GRACE A HAPPY GIRL! THANK YOU ALL WHO ENCOURAGED ME! THANK YOU ALL WHO STAYED UP WITH ME! THANK YOU ALL WHO TRIED TO KEEP ME AWAKE! THANK YOU ALL WHO MADE ME LAUGH!THANK YOU ALL WHO LAMED WITH ME! LOVEYA ALL LOADS & LOADS! :DD

&&&&&& SPECIAL THANKS TO MY HOMO BF/HUNK/PIGHEAD POK/KNIGHT ---- CHERYLL! :DD hahaha.seee i so nice right XD LOL.yeahh.thanks for always cheering me up! and always laming with me and giving in to me okkk!! hahaha.most importantly.BEING THAT VERY VERY LOVEY DOVEY HOMO BF!!!! I LOVE YOUR LOLLIPOPS AND AFTER EIGHTS :DD hahahaha.okkk.this is getting so gay shittt :DDDD LOL.sorry cant go out with you todayy! you luhh.always free when im busy de! when im so free then you busyy.aiyo.lol.great job for lit pt! sorry pangseied you last night! :X haha.last but not least ... I LURRBB EUUU WORHHXXZZ :DD

it will all get better in time (:

# winter love #

`national day

2008-08-09T16:21:00.003+08:00

`SCREAMS

you're the missing piece i need;
the song inside of me (:

yesterday was hmmm.RAINBOWISHLY EMO :D yeahh! haha.it was both happy & emo luhh.so i shall leave out the emo parts and only blog abt the happy parts! :DD

nats celebration as usual :D haha.was kinda sian but got quite high after that! im often quite high on days like these luhh.coz GET TO WEAR HM CLOTHES :D hahaha.okk.so i wore my white I ♥ MY BOYFRIEND shirt with my HOT RED SKINNY JEANS :D it attracted alot of unwanted attention but oh well.I LIKE IT THE WAY IT IS :D anyway.haha.once i stepped into class.it was rather empty lohh.only pristine & shiharn & wanling.LOL.they wanted to draw stars and crescent on my skinnies and flip me upside down okkk.'ni mei you xing xing dan you hen duo xin xin :D' -pristine.loll.coz i wore a red heart shaped pin and white heart shaped earring with my white heart shaped belt.not forgettin the red heart on my shirt.hahaha.SO PATRIOTIC RIGHT! :D

then met vivien & cheryl outside my class! LOL.was laming with them.seriously.i look like an inverted flag.haha.anyway.went to the parade square! met the rest of the homo club! haha.yeahh.my skinnies were really LOUDD.like really HOT RED XD the shirt was also AHEM AHEM.hahaha.but was really funny and all luhh.funs all that matters! :D when you take a glance around.you can really see all the different types of flags.LOL.srruthi gave me a hug! haha.didnt see her all morning coz she was in her friends class (: haha.realised that we had similar black flip flops! :D

made our way to the amphi.haha.sat next to zhenling! (: haha.long long time never talk to her liao.aiyo.haha.the performances were nice! wahhh.choir girls were really gd lohh :D lol.after performances was community singing! haha.was being high with krystal and zhenling! :DD hahaha.yeahh.jumping and singing our hearts out! we will get there was being sung in chi lohh.but the whole row of us were singing in ENG! :D hahaha.we were like.whats the lyrics ahhh.oh well.just sing in eng luhh!LOL.yayyy.so fun so funn! haha.they didnt sing 'jia'.heng heng (: after that they had the singapore rap dance again luhh.lol.only a few of us stood up.hahaha.was laming with pristine lohh.i was calling her to come over and she thought i was dancing huhh.for the school cheers and birthday song.went to find huiying! LOL.she tried to burst my ear drums again luhh.after that.headed to the foyer! :D

at the foyer.hmmm.was meng calling tirzah!she never pick up lohh.haha.then saw lot of people! said hi and all :DD hahaha.was being really high luhh.celestine was like 'you're so bright.i can see you from afar! :D' LOL.was laming around with yujin and mabel! omggg.miss last years rs loads.haha.yujin was going home to sleep! mabel was going home to go out with her mummy! so i was peiing yujin.and mabel was peiing me! :DD hahaha.saw vidya! she was like lip mouthing some stuff.hahaha.shant tell you what XD afterthat she left with sharlene and yiling.so mabel.yujin.me were randoming around in the foyer.playing with mabels squash racket and all.yujin used it to whack my butt and my head okk! varsha came along and used her plastic bag to whack my butt! LOL.she did really great for singing just now! anyway.YA.MY POOR BUTT OKK.LOLL XD haha.so continued laming with mabel and yujin.AT THE END OF THE YEARR.EX RS MEETING OKK! :D haha.soon mabel left.so i was randoming with yujin.jeanette and yutian came over! 'I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND?!?! O:' 'WHOS IT WHOS IT' hahahaha.damn funny luhh.i was like coveringg XD hahaha.ite jeanette became my boyfriend! :D LOL.'it aint mutual okk' -jeanette.hahaha XD LOLL.lamed with yujin for a while longer than i left liao XD

trained to j8.met tirzah.haha.walked around j8.sat at macs and chit chat :DD met rachel yo :D haha.saw some sngs friends too (: afterthat.parents picked me up and went home lo.waited for joyce and ashley to come back from sch.bathe.change then we headed for rtc! :D haha.the food was good luhh.but my mood was not.sorry for moodswinging! lol.yeahh to those who were smsing me.im really sorry.hai.hope you all are not offended okk! sorry sorry!

after that went home.bathed.changed.plopped myself on the bed.it was 3+.i slept all the way till ... ... 11+ this morning! :DD hahaha.was awoken by yongrongs sms.THANK YOU! & IM REALLY SORRY! GET WELL SOON K! :D STOP RUNNING AROUND LUH! (: hahaha.anyway.20hrs lehh XD so pig right XD omggg.made up for all the sleep lost this week :D sorry for all the smses and calls that didnt reply.haha.skipped dinner!and joyces bdae okk.SORRYYY!! omgg.need to make it up to her mann.she tried waking me up loads of times.but i just slept like a TOTAL PIG :X SORRYYY! haha.I STILL FEEL SLEEPY LEHH :/ oh mann.need go study liao.3 tests on tuesday! going uncles house l8ter for steamboat (: wont be coming online ba.sorry! :D oh ya oh ya.HAPPY NATIONAL DAYY! :DD

终于看开;

爱回不来

# distant #

`end of pts

2008-08-07T18:15:00.004+08:00

`SUNSHINE

if i could then i'd;
shrink the world tonight-
so that i would find;
YOU & ME inside (:

ITS THE END OF ~~HELL~~ A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE WEEK :DD haha.have been sleeping at like 2+ 3 every morning.or else it would be like sleep on the sofa from 1-3 then wake up and chiong homework & pts :/ FINALLY.ITS THE END.worst thing.every morning go school.people will be like 'YOUR EYES ARE GETTING SMALLER AND DARKER DAY BY DAY!' loll.vidya thinks my eyes look like slits man.haha.I NEED EYE EXTENSION! :DD jkk luhh.i love my eyes! :D without the panda eyes part (:

i would like to thank GOD (: really really.He has been with me all this while.giving me all the strength and guiding me through this very horrible one week.haha.thank GOD its over! (: He is the Everlasting GOD :D the ONE and ONLY GOD.

haha.sorry for not updating yeahh! ive been really really really really busy.i want to thank many many people! (i realised everytime i post.i thank people XD) THANK YOU TO ALL WHO ENCOURAGED ME THROUGH THIS WEEK! its been really ~~HELL~~ HORRIBLE and i really couldnt have done it without ALL of YOU :D special thanks to the homo gang! :D hahaha.this week ahh.its been kinda ~~shitty~~ up and down.BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A RAINBOW AFTER THE RAIN RIGHT :D hahaha.yeahh!im glad we all turned out fine.HOMO LOVE FOREVER! :D

thank you HUIYING for always being there! hahaha.youre damn cute luhh.i dont know what to say liao.DONT FEEL BAD ABOUT IT OKK! lol.STAY STRONG! ill always be here! (: thank you CHERYL for your cola lollipop! omgg.its the LOVE now! hahaha.thanks for always trying to cheer me up yeahh! and for the long/lame/crappy/emo talks every night! :D LOVES! thank you VIDYA for all your advices yeahh! although i didnt really listen.but yeahh.haha.DONT SO STRESS LUHH! it will all turn out finee! MUST RELAX like me! (: hahaha.actually im really scared too luh.just that i dont show it.IM SCARED okk! thank you SRRUTHI for always lending me your homework to copy! :X loll.your damn cute luhh! always so worried about me.haha.thanks for always trying to keep me awake during lessons! (: LOVEYA TABLE MATE! :DD

thank you PRISTINE for being such a wonderful chi pt mate! hahaha.after doing chi pt.got to know you better huhh :D yeahh! jiayou jiayou for everything! (: thank you! :D thank you ALL WHO CARED ABOUT ME WHEN I LOOKED SO TIRED and all :D these people include: ZHENLING! ; SITI! ; ARASI! ; REBECCA! ; ANGELA! ; KANGJIE! ; PEIXIN! and many many more! (will edit later.head hurts now)

hmmm.been dozing off quite abit during class.kena scolded during ss somemore.cant stand her -.- haha.oh well.abit abt the week.instructor transferred me to bass for guitar.im okk with it luhh.just that i prefer prime more! haha.thank you CHERYL for transferring with me! (: sorry GRACE! :D haha.she kena pangseied by both of us.piano lesson was awesome! mummy cancelled it initially coz i was like too tired.but i insisted on going! haha.emo piece was really good.i can finally control my emotions! :D the rest all need prac more luh (: esp scales :/ chi pt was okk luhh.a few mistakes but heng no major ones :D thank you PRISTINE! hmmm.thats kinda it ba (: ALL MY PTS ARE FINISHED! only left ss luh (: piano mock on sun O:

i know everybody has been asking me to sleep earlier and all.I SHALL OKK! i so want my panda eyes to GO AWAY and my eyes to grow BIGGER :D hahaha.starting tonight! im gonna sleep at 11 :DD (i hope) so dont talk to me after 11 okk! XD LOL.srruthi said that if there was one day that i came to school happy and energetic she would hug me! hahaha.i promised her tomorrow would be the day! :DD LOL.GET READY YOUR HUG SRRUTHI! XD hahaha.really happy now luh! everythings done.cant believe i survived this week.cant wait for tomorrow! joyces bdae! nat day celebration! :DD i miss sngs loads man! hope they dont play 'jia' tomorrow (: loll.dont ask me what im wearing tmr! hahaha.its a SURPRISE! :DD

enjoy the pis below! hahaha.did them when i was bored :D hope the colours brighten your day! (:

i LOVE rainbow colours! (:

this is what you do during boring lessons :DD

yummyy!! :DD

i was born to say;
i love you-

# sunrise #

`quizes

2008-07-30T21:09:00.003+08:00

`BUILT

to last (:

LOL.okok.its been ages since i updated.SORRY.damn busy now..shall just post quizes :DD haha.this week has been UTTERLY HORRIBLE.sick like omg :/ but i really thank God for giving me strength all the way (: im totally drained luhh.first time taking iron pills.now take until so heaty.my eyes are like so freaking hot.i keep thinking ive fever.haha.then mouth eat food damn pain luhh.like got ulcers like that.but dont eat then like going to faint lohh.oh well.its getting worse and worse luhh.only started out with there pain.then to losing iron.then to headaches.then to gastric pains this morning.almost died.haha.conclusion.im going to see a gynae :/ hope nothings wrong man.l8ter kena operation.OMG.im praying hard that im fine (:

THANK YOU!

to all who were with me through out this week! sorry ive been looking so pale and tired in school.sorry to cause you all to be late for classes because of me.THANKS for taking such good care of me! sorry to cause you all to worry okk! next week it will all be over! :D (i hope) hahaha.THANKS LOADS OKKK! LOVEYA ALL! :DD

now for the long overdue quizes :DD SORRY!!

JOAN! :D

Q1:Do you like your PREVIOUS school?

A1: SNGS! I LOVE IT :D i still do (:

Q2: What do you want the most now?

A2: for all my loved ones around me to stay strong and happy! (:

Q3: Who is the closest person to you in your school?

A3: huiying! :D thanks loads girl! LOVES (: (to my other homo bfs: I LOVE U ALL TOO OKK! :D)

Q4: Do you hate your friends sometimes?

A4: nope! i just dislike them when they arent exactly their normal self.

Q5: If you could change something in your life, what would it be?

A5: hmmm.my weaknesses (:

Q6: What is your goal this year?

A6: to emo less and grow stronger in faith (:

Q7: Do you believe in love at first sight?

A7: yupp (:

Q8: Do you believe in eternal love?

A8: yupp (:

Q9: Have you ever broken someone’s heart that he/she wants to commit suicide?

A9: hahaha.no luhh! :D

Q10: What do you enjoy doing the most?

A10: going out and having loads of funn! :DD

Q11: Have you ever done anything for your admirer?

A11: hmmm.

Q12: What feeling do you like most?

A12: happy! :D

Q13: What evil thing would you most want to happen/do to your enemy?

A13: get a taste of his/her own medicine & not be so evil anymore! (:

Q14. Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?

A14: my prince charming! :DD

Q15: What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

A15: GOD (: family & friends (:

Q16: Do you find life meaningless?

A16: sometimes :X

Q17: What do you live for?

A17: GOD (:

Q18: Who do you talk most to in school?

A18: hahaha.VIDYA! :DD

Q19: Consider yourself to be someone with a great self esteem.

A19: huhh?

Q20: What material thing to you want most right now?

A20: $$! so that i can shop; watch movies & go arcade :D

CHERYL! :D

[10] Firsts.

First Best Friend: hmmm.i dont exactly remember :X

First Screen Name: huhh?

First Pet: fish! (they all died)

First Piercing: ears! i want another one lohh :D

First Crush: hmmm (:

First CD: dont remember lo! (mine are kinda almost all burned)

First Car: loll.the one where toddlers sit in and roll around :DD

First Stuffed Animal: a cute little bear! 'young ernest' written on its shirt! i still have it :DD

First Love: hmmm (:

First Place Called Home: hahaha.i forgot the add!

[9] Lasts.

Last Beverage: water lohhh.

Last Car Ride: daddy! he picked me up after mep :D

Last Movie Seen: dark knight! damn nicee :DD (but i dreamt of the joker and ended up crying in the middle of the night :/)

Last Phone Call: daddy & mummy this morning.haha.was asking them whether i should go home (:

Last Song You Listened To: tonight! (fm static) :D

Last Bubble Bath: long time ago luh! havent taken one in ages.

Last Time You Cried : hmmm.this morning? gastric was damn pain.

Last Thing You Ate: dinner! :D

[8] Have You Evers.

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nope! (:

Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope! (:

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope! (:

Have You Ever Been On A Limo: yes! in the usa :DD

Have You Ever Cheated: hahaha.yeahh :X

Have You Ever Been In Love: hmmm (:

Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident: nope! thank God (:

Have You Ever Broken A Bone: nope! thank God (:

[7] Things You Are Wearing.

1. blue t-shirt (:

2. black fbts (:

3. crown earrings (:

4. white specs (:

5. -

6. -

7. -

[ 6 ] Things You've Done Today.

1. sleep! :D

2. cried :X

3. smiled! (:

4. laughed! :D

5. hit people (cheryl & vidya) :X

6. listened to music! :D

[5] Favourite Things.

1. mp3! (:

2. computer! (:

3. handphone! (:

4. piano! (:

5. guitar! (:

[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To.

1. hmmm.you know who you all are :D

2. my very secretive people!

3. shall be kept as a secret :D

4. -

[3] Choices.

1. Black Or White: depends! but ill go with BLACK :D

2. Hot Or Cold: hot! (:

3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE DUHHH :DD

[2] You Want To Do Before You Die.

1. make sure everyone is happy and smiling! :D

2. be happy! (:

[1] Thing You Regret.

1. being weak and naive.

FRANK! :D

ive done this quiz before! lol.so shall copy and paste some of my previous answers (: but ill still fill in my NOW answers (:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

depends ba.at most juz take a knife n kill him lohh.LOL.but den again.it wont b worth it if i went 2 jail bcoz of him rite.haha.juz heck him n let him rot n die lahh.

haha.yupp.just leave him alone luhh.afterall.God has his plans (:

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

i would nv wanna grow up.or even better.nv born in2 this world.haha :D aiya.JUZ BAN SCHH LUHH XD

haha.it would be to be happy forever! & for everyone around me to be happy too! (:

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?

hmmm.at the beach! relaxing and enjoying the sound of the waves and the breeze! of course.with the company of all my family & friends! (:

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

kinda.mre den juz confused.

hmm.maybe abit.but ill just let nature take its course (:

#5. What's your ideal lover like?

ermmm.ive a whole long list of criterias (:

i still do :D

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

being loved.

being loved (:

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

depends lah.forever wuld b lying.he may not even b worth e wait.

haha.yeahh! :D

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

go 4 sm1 else lohh.dere is mre den one guy in e world.

haha.no point wasting time on one stupid guy right :D

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

hell loads of dem.esp.you.

haha.yupp.being so terribly sick and making everyone worry.sorry!!

#10. What do you want most in life?

happiness (:

#11. Is being tagged fun?

lol.okk lahh.juz dun tag damn lame stuff (:

haha.not when im super duper busy! :D

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?

no.i may nt even live till den :D

hmmm.i hope i aint studying anymore! :D

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?

everyone! (:

#14. What type of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

hmmm.nice guy! always keeping fit & yiruma fan! :DD

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?

depends on whether e marriage is happy or nt.if it isnt.i rather b single n rich n FREE :D

yupp (:

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?

none! i dont exactly like animals.in fact.im very scared of them.haha.im allergic to fur too! :D

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?

homework! :DD

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?

hmmm.im a SLACKER; SHOPPER; SLEEPER :DD

#19. What do you define as a bad day?

one that makes me sad and emo (:

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?

hmm.i guess i chose love.but next time.i think ill go with friendship (:

yayy.finishedd! :DD the above quizes shall be done by anyone who wants to do them! :DD

I SHALL GET BACK TO MY WORK! (: I NEED NEED SLEEP :D LOADS OF IT IN FACT (: hahaha.to all chionging homework.this is a killer period.so yupp.take loads of care! (: we can do this together! (:

this post is in rainbow colours.hopefully colours would help brighten up your day! yupp.each and everyone of you out there reading this now.the world is not only black and white.although there may sometimes be grey clouds which cover up the warm sunshine.but always remember that.the world is filled with LOVE in many different special colours (:

GET WELL SOON!

STAY STRONG AND HAPPY!

if im the one;

# untitled #

`pictures

2008-07-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

`PICTURES

of you (:

hahaha.im DAMN TIRED.so yeahh.pictures shall do the talking! after all.pictures speak a thousand words (:

OUR FAV PIC! :D EMOGAL :DD

ROCKONZ HOMO HUNK! :DD

HOMO COUPLE! :D

TA DA! BILLABONG BUTT! XD

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW! :D

BABE GRACES THE ANGEL! CHERYL HUNKS THE DEVIL! :DD

hahaha.yeahh.i shall upload the rest of the pics & videos when cheryl transfers them to me! and when im not so tired luhh.cant believe im having 6 hrs of chem + math tuition tomorrow.SURE BRAINDEAD DE :/ so i dont think ill be editing this post tomorrow.maybe the day after or something.lol (:

most importantly.THANK YOU HOMO HUNK FOR PEIING ME FOR THE WHOLE OF TODAY! :D today was totally i dont know how to describe luhh.HIGH.LONG.EMO.SIAO.GAY.LES.GROSS.TIRED.ENERGYDRAINING.MEMORABLE.yeahh.you get the idea.but the point is.I LOVE YOU! :DD (WHEN YOU SAD.JUST LOOK AT THE PIC BELOW AND LAUGH! XD)

(this was the pic that sent HUNK laughing like total gayness shit.LOL :D)

and the truth is;
you could slit my throat;
and with my one gasping breath;
i apologise for bleeding on your shirt-

you make me love you (:

# insecurity #

`mep camp

2008-07-16T11:42:00.007+08:00

`WHO

am i;

'your hair dont become rocker very ke xi lehh' -pristine.LOL.okk.that was random.haha.i shall start blogging about NIGHTS :D yeahh! hahaha.yeahh.like cheryl say.our convos are.would always only be hyper at NIGHT.afternoon ahh.chao sian de (: haha.i just realised theres a couple of things i havent done.i havent done the quizes as promised.i havent posted the convos between me & cheryl.LOL.

(00:38) rock on.: sorry ah just now damn siann
(00:38) rock on.: lolll
(00:38) rock on.: yeaa okk!
(00:38) rock on.: x)
(00:38) grace;: haha its okk!
(00:38) grace;: i also chao sian liao
(00:38) grace;: hahaha
(00:38) rock on.: ahahaa
(00:38) rock on.: x)
(00:38) grace;: so when u put to chao sian ppl tgt
(00:38) grace;: U GT
(00:38) grace;: A VERY VERY SALTY HOMO COUPLE!!!
(00:38) grace;: haahaha XD
(00:38) rock on.: erm extremely sian?
(00:39) rock on.: o_O
(00:39) rock on.: zomg
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) grace;: ehhh
(00:39) rock on.: hahahaha
(00:39) rock on.: leg break liao
(00:39) grace;: yayy!
(00:39) grace;: u finally smiled XD
(00:39) rock on.: lollll
(00:39) grace;: BET U SHOWING ALL UR TEETH NOW LOHH XD
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: how u noe ahhh
(00:39) rock on.: hahaahah
(00:39) rock on.: pokk
(00:39) grace;: yayyy!
(00:39) grace;: IM UR HOMO BABE LEHH
(00:39) grace;: HOW CAN DUNNOE LEHH
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: idiotttt
(00:39) rock on.: make me look retard huh
(00:39) rock on.: smile at the com
(00:39) rock on.: purposely on right
(00:39) rock on.: lol
(00:40) grace;: hahaha
(00:40) grace;: ehhh!
(00:40) grace;: MAKE U LAUGH STILL TIO SCOLDED
(00:40) grace;: HMPHH T_T
(00:41) rock on.: lollll
(00:41) rock on.: x))
(00:41) rock on.: aiyooo joking laa
(00:41) rock on.: thank youu luhh homo babe
(00:41) rock on.: ((:
(00:41) rock on.: make me happy
(00:41) rock on.: yayy
(00:41) rock on.: not so sian le
(00:41) rock on.: hahaa
(00:42) grace;: hahahaa
(00:42) grace;: yayyyy!!
(00:42) grace;:LOLL
(00:43) grace;: now i know nxt time how 2 make u nt sian le
(00:43) grace;: JUZ ADD SM SUGAR ON YOUU!!
(00:43) grace;: DEN ULL SMILEEE XDD
(00:43) grace;: and BREAK UR LEG!!!
(00:43) grace;: hahahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: hahahaaha
(00:43) rock on.: whatt thee hellll
(00:43) rock on.: lollll
(00:43) grace;: whatt theee heavenn!!
(00:43) grace;: hahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: u seriously getting lamer and lamer lehhh
(00:43) rock on.: SHEESHH
(00:43) grace;: UR INFLUENCE!
(00:43) rock on.: hahahahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: x)
(00:43) rock on.: whee wheee
(00:43) rock on.: i rockk
(00:43) rock on.: so erm
(00:43) grace;: LOLL
(00:44) rock on.: influential
(00:44) grace;: U STONE!
(00:44) rock on.: lolll
(00:44) grace;: I ROCK
(00:44) grace;: hahaha
(00:44) rock on.: x)
(00:44) grace;: do ur wk luhh!
(00:44) rock on.: whateverrr
(00:44) rock on.: hahahaa
(00:44) rock on.: okk luhh
(00:44) rock on.: lolll
(00:44) rock on.: thanks yeaaa
(00:44) grace;: LOLL GD GIRL XD
(00:44) rock on.: ((:
(00:44) rock on.: hahaa
(00:44) rock on.: pokk
(00:44) rock on.: loll
(00:44) grace;: I MEANT TO SAY BOY
(00:44) grace;: hahahaah
(00:44) grace;: nppp!
(00:44) rock on.: HOII
(00:44) rock on.: AI PA AH
(00:44) rock on.: hahaa
(00:44) grace;: AI PA AI PA!
(00:44) grace;: (BISHHHHH)
(00:44) rock on.: lollllllllllll
(00:44) rock on.: zomggg
(00:44) grace;: hahaha
(00:44) rock on.: sth wrong with u today
(00:44) rock on.: haha
(00:44) grace;: another leg break liao
(00:44) rock on.: yeaaaaaa
(00:44) grace;: nxt will b ur hands
(00:44) grace;: MUHAHAHAHAHA
(00:45) rock on.: lol
(00:45) rock on.: soon will need coffin liao
(00:45) rock on.: hahahaa
(00:45) grace;: hahaha oh yeahh!
(00:45) rock on.: zomgg u really damn lame today
(00:45) rock on.: tonight
(00:45) rock on.: no erm
(00:45) grace;: NOW.
(00:45) grace;: LOLL
(00:45) rock on.: yeaa
(00:45) rock on.: hahaaa

(00:45) rock on.: x))
(00:45) rock on.: i was going to say that man
(00:45) rock on.: xD
(00:45) rock on.: lol

oh mann.that just made my post like super duper long.lol.i shall do the quizes tomorrow or smth :D hahaha.yeahhh.thats one of the lame convos with cheryl pok at night XD haha.oh well.back to monday night! lol.i was kinda emo luhh.the song SAY GOODBYE - S CLUB 7 made me cry.haha.after that cheryl spammed me with songs okk.like loads and loads of them.to keep myself occupied (so that i wont hu si luan xiang) i went to find songs too! hahaha.then suddenly my songs increased lots :DD thanks to cheryl.im currently addicted to PIECES - SUM 41.i still love DISENCHANTED - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE :DD alot luhh.but those two are my jamming songs! when im emo.just ARGHHH on the guitar.hahaha.use pick luhh.so LOUDER & not so pain :DD

yupp.we stayed up till 3 am.spamming songs.cheryl doing her chi pt.me doing my geog pt.haha.im proud to say that ive finished my theory.half of my geog pt.abit of chem pt.thought of the idea for hist pt.hahaha.oh well.IM GOING OUT ON FRIDAY!! :DD yeahh.cant wait cant wait.but then horr.stupid schh luhh.flood us with so much stuff.then some people also cannot go.haha.oh well.SEE HOW BA :D it will all turn out right! (i hope XD)

last night! was kinda down lahh.haha.SORRY PEOPLE.i just wasnt up there.lol.so tried to let it all out on the piano and the guitar! :DD it helped quite abit! haha.but the BEST BEST REMEDY was ...... THE MEP CAMP VIDEOS! :DD hahaha.okk.i know im like super duper slow.but i didnt realise they were up on youtube until i went to KELLYs blog! yeahh.my grps video is like totally on her blog.LOL.but yeahh!so ORANGEY ORANGE PEOPLE! IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE VIDEOS! THEY ARE UP ON YOUTUBE! (: (mep camp 2008 -accapella part 5) [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQYtEO66gfY]

hahaha.so yupp.at 00:00.i was sitting in front of my laptop watching all the accapella videos and totally laughing away! LOL.I MISS MEP CAMP LOADS LUHH.MOST IMPTANTLY.I MISS ORANGEY ORANGE! :D wheres our east coast park outing huhh! loll.just watching the video.brings back so many memories okk.me and huihan training hard together.eating chocolates to relieve our sore throats! :DD THANKS GIRL! TAKE CARE YEAH! (: and the funny boys luhh.omggg.they cant be funnier can.yupp.all the laughter we shared.all thanks to them! :DD not forgetting the sops and altos! they did a terrific job too! :DD lol.i still remember how scared i was lohh.i was gonna cry liao.THANK YOU HUIYING! :D THANK YOU ORANGEY ORANGE! :D haha.yeahh.but after that.i was like PHEW.it was FUN mann! i wouldnt mind doing it AGAIN & AGAIN! :DD yupp.it really built up my confidence luhh.sing in front of so many people okkk.haha.but most importantly.IT LEFT ME MEMORIES OF LAUGHTER! :DD now when im emoing.i know what to do le.loll.THANK YOU ORANGEY ORANGE! ITS THE LOVE! :DD

when i was blog hopping.i came across this song! WHO AM I - CASTING CROWNS (: damn nice luhh.omg the first time i heard it.i was like WOW.dont know why.but i suddenly felt so calm.so peaceful.yeahh.that kinda feeling.must be God (: thank you GOD (:

to all who still doubt me.just give me one last chance okk.this time.I CAN DO IT.i wont turn back le.dont worry so much okk! ill take care of myself.YOU ALL TOO! (: yupp.I CAN DO IT (:

im yours (:

# fade #

`holiday hw

2008-07-14T13:09:00.007+08:00

`DISENCHANTED

have you ever loved;
and lost somebody-

haha.so in love with disenchanted! :DD not the lyrics but rather the tune lahh.strum strum strum until got blister liao!! LOL.heng my nails never break.too short to break anyway :D but yeahh.THE SONG IS NICEE :DD haha.i cant play the bridge luhh.but oh well.ITS THE LOVE! (:

talked to quite a few people yesterday for like really really long.haha.didnt do any homework yesterday okk! was just chatting on msn and playing my guitar :D but yupp.thats probably one of the only days that i can relax ba.TODAY IS HOMEWORK TIME! thank you people whom i talked to yesterday! (: haha.learnt quite a few things yeahh :D shant tell you XD hahaha.but yeah.yesterday was generally a happy day! :D THANK YOU! (:

arghh.this week is totally flooded with homework can.must finish all luhh.or else im not allowed to go out at all :/

- english oral speech (i still dont know what to write :/)

- english endangered species speech (one paragraph can liao :D)

- chem pt (she didnt even go through can.how to do luh :/)

- ss pt (since the draft is still with her.i shall leave it until after hols :D)

- chi pt (must finish.due next week man :/)

- geog pt (should be okk ba :D)

- hist pt (should be okk ba :D)

- hist french revolution (he finish teaching liao.i havent even read abit of the notes :X)

- hist russian revolution (must start reading before he teaches mann)

- physics wks (just look through.lol)

- practice piano (esp scales man.i only have about a month.DIE)

- theory hw (abit only ba :D)

i think thats about it ba.quite alot lehh.haha.omgg.if i left anything out.somebody please tell me okk.lol.im abit de forgetful.esp when i sleep so much in class :D hmmm.shall start work after lunch :D haha.at least i hope to do that.in the meantime.i shall slack abit more! (: still feeling a little sleepy though.i woke up at 12 lehh :X hahaha.PIG :D

haha.guess my fairytale didnt have a happy ending afterall.but it ended on a happier note (: after such a long journey.i can finally close the book.though it was not what i dreamnt it to be.but at least it was an eye opener for me.it may not be the best.but it is definitely something that would always stay.somewhere in that very corner of my mind (: lol.oh well.when one fairytale ends.another begins right (: haha.but this time.i think ill take things slowly :D

throughout this journey of ups and downs.to the people who stood by me all the way.THANK YOU (: esp YOU whos reading this right now.thank YOU :D to the friends ive lost during this journey.im sorry.to the friends that ive gained.THANK YOU (: to the friends whom i quarrelled with.im sorry.to the friends who lent me a shoulder to cry on.to the friends whom i laughed with.THANK YOU (: to the friends i moodswinged on and pissed off.im sorry.to the friends who defended and protected me.to the friends who adviced me.THANK YOU (: to the friends who showered me with all the love and care.to the friends who encouraged me.THANK YOU (: to each and every single one of my friends.who helped me in one way or another.THANK YOU (:

most importantly.i want to thank God.for blessing me with the strength and courage to walk till the end of this journey.it was no doubt a painful one.God knew i couldnt handle it alone.thus.He blest me with the many angels to guide me along.and truly.i have grown (: physically; emotionally; spiritually (: goodbye to all the late nights spent crying.goodbye to all the tubs of chocolate ice-cream.haha.shall start eating more and gaining back all the weight that ive lost! and of course get rid of my eye bags! (: but most importantly.i thank you God (:

its one of the rare days that i write an amazing email okk (: haha.last paragraph of the chapter ba.just remember that i like the GREEN one; the RED one; the ORANGE one; the WHITE one okk (: the rest of the memories.just let it be.buried beneath the depths of the ocean (:

by letting you go;

im loving myself

im in complete (:

# ~~bitter~~ sweet memories #

`apologise

2008-07-13T15:37:00.001+08:00

`WHISPERS

of love (:

lol.shall blog a short one ba (: i want to go and sleep ~~despite all the stupid hw i have~~ haha.ytd was how should i put it.HORRIBLE.lol.i woke up 1 hr late for tuition.then after math & chem tuition.i was totally braindead luhh.haha.thank you dakorkor! (: went home.plopped on the bed and slept all the way till dinner time.haha.thanks for the long call at night cheryl pok! :D hahaha.thank you luhh! i know was damn inconvenient but yeah.XIE XIE NI! :D

todays church was superb! :DD hahaha.havent laughed so much in a really long time (: bcoz i was kinda high luhh.wasnt that sleepy :D then was talking crap and all.haha.todays lesson was overcoming evil with good! then we were talking abt how horrible sch is.with all the backstabbing and all.then tirzah was like 'throw the cake at his face!' then i said 'throw banana skin infrnt of him & make sure he falls!' hahaha.my teacher was like 'oh mann.i need to resign liao' hahaha.damn funny luhh!oh well.thats the way life is.no one is perfect (: so yeahh.what to do.haha.shall never take things into our own hands! (: coz God is on our side.who can be against us :D

CHERYL POKKK :DD hahaha.i eat your after 8s im smiling le luhh! :DD hahaha.friday sentosa! :DD i shall push you into the water! XD must get more people first luhh! i need go throw balls! hahaha XD thanks pighead pokk! :D

thank you God for strengthening me (:

its too late.stop apologising coz i know you dont mean it.stop all the sweet talk coz it aint gonna work.if your gonna keep stabbing me in the back and acting all nice and all.thinking that im gonna be an idiot and cling on to you.you're so wrong.if you want to get back at me.dont drag my friends in.i would very much appreciate if you would stop spreading all the rumours and twisting all the facts.if you think you're so great.prove it.but right now.you are just so despicable.do you have any shame at all? you say all those stuff.then apologise the next day.say all those stuff and apologise again the next day.i have had enough of all your shit.maybe you should go and reflect.then you would realise why we are who we are today.why did things turn out this way and why are we treating each other like that.thanks for your offer but no thanks.like you said.my friends are way different from yours.because they genuinely care.since you think you are so popular.go get your own friends and leave me alone.i dont want to be your friend.neither do i want you to be mine.just live your own life and let me live mine.if you go overboard.dont blame me for doing it too.walk out of the shadows and just end it here alright.its over.

i know i must be doing something right (:

# secret #

`last day

2008-07-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

`DONT

try to say you're sorry;
coz its too late (:

today was yet another moody day.sorry girls for moodswinging.but i was really tired & emo.yeahh.haha.geog was.ermm.okk lahh.just that i was really dozing off.during recess amelia told me.'you were worst than me during geog loh! you were like this (bends head down and pretends to sleep)'

LOL.physics was horrible lahh.the experiment was so -.- haha.assembly was kinda fun.the drums were cool!haha.MUSIC IS THE LOVE (: english was omg.haha.coz i didnt prepare my speech.then she called my first.i was like 'cannot cannot!' LOL.heng can present after holidays (: math was sleeping time also.was really tired and emo.~~almost cried luh~~ lol.oh well (:

went for lunch.met my ex-chi teacher.shes way way better than my current one.was really tired so decided to pon physics ces :X had a really long chat with her again.everytime talk to her.sure breakdown de loh.cried like shit.hai.her words just seem to pierce right through your heart.i dont even have to say anything.and she can totally guess what im thinking.like what she said.im a strong girl (: so you all dont worry for me kk! i know what to do (:

after that was grooming session.not bad luhh.lol.people seem fascinated with my hair.hahaha.not in a good way though.oh well.aditi kept playing with it! haha.tied a new style today.to kelly what seems like a chicken backside.to cheryl.cool man!to aditi.looks like a really nice fish tail! LOL.I LOVE IT :D haha.as usual.i dont listen to what people tell me luh.i do things my way :D lol.yeahh.so i wont change my hairstyle if you dont like it.LOL.

so she was going on and on about our image and how we should dress.lol.im an autumn spring person.but.I STILL LOVE BLACK :DD haha.soft straight.i need to get rid of my eye bags! LOL.oh well.was laughing throughout the session with yujin luhh! so long never talk to her liao.damn funny sitting next to her :DD after that went subway with kelly.ate a brownie & m&m cookie (: emoed home.lol.I LOVE BLASTING MUSIC :DD ~~somehow the tears just stream down my face~~

shall go sleep soon.damn tired.tomorrow tuition whole day somemore.shall post my homework list tomorrow.thats like a hell load of them.arghh.but for now.A SONG (:

break you - marion raven

i was your girl

gave you my world

my everything

but you wouldn't see

i had your back

i backed you up

whatever i did

was never enough

just you ... you

that's all you ever thought about

you ... you

no one matters like you do

what goes around comes around

you should know by now

bet you never thought that i could break you

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

the palm of your hand

that was your plan

gave me no time

but now you want mine

it's all about take

you took too much

nothing inside

i'm all used up

come on

you ... you

nothing else matters like

you do

you know what i'm talkin' 'bout

don't you

what goes around comes around

you should know by now

bet you never thought that i could break you
did you think that i would look the other way
yeah you had it all figured out
but tell me who's the one who's crying now

all your one night stands

(should've thought about that)

says she's just a friend

(should've thought about that)

are you satisfied now

(should've thought about that)

cause you can't hold me down

not now

i wanna thank you 'cause now i'm free

i can breath again and i'm never going back to you

bet you never thought that i could break you

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

bet you never thought that i could break you

(bet you never thought that i could break you)

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

just f- off faker.you think you damn popular.damn hot.damn rich ahh.you're no better than just a piece of shit.wait a minute.i think im insulting shit (: get a life you loser.stop faking all the stupid lies.always saying one thing and doing another.ego ass.awww.are you gonna cry after we have all insulted you? haha.oh well.i know you know you suck.but i just gotta emphasise it.f- off sucker (:

coz shes everything;
everything im not (:

# fool #

`choir concert

2008-07-10T11:53:00.000+08:00

`NAIVE

ive learnt it the hard way;
to never let it go that far.

haha.today was a sleepy day! damn tired lah.finally one more day.just one last day.hang in there everyone! :D omgg.shall keep this short.its like.erm 2am liao.LOL.

came to school and totally slept.overslept so had to take public transport.haha.its been ages since i did that.met rachel on 190! was sleepin in class.vidya woke me up as usual.haha.no morning assembly coz raining :D pe was damn slack lah.kick ball.run.yeah.LOL.ss was slack as well.was just trying to keep awake luhh.so i was playing with my BLACK BANGLE :D hahaha.think i got her damn pissed.chinese was erm.damn hard to keep awake.i kept dozing off.then she call me answer question.heng can answer :DD

math was okk also luhh.just do logs lohh.go through worksheets.history was the best.he ended the lesson like 20 minutes early.then can totally do what we want.yayy.rs was damn damn slack luhh.kangjie.peixin.kelly.me.sat in the canteen and talked about books.about 203.about how blur and lost i looked.lol.i still rmb kangjies pic of me! the way she draws.damn cute luhh XD

chionged hm.was emoing on the way back.as usual.blasted my music damn freaking loudly.haha.im going deaf soon.teared abit lah.coz of this song.haha.shall post the song later at the bottom :D reached home.couldnt decide what to wear can.so as i was emoing.thought i would be emo babe lohh.hahaha.as in yeah.juz emo girl :D wanted to wear all black lohh.as in black top.black jeans.but my skinny jeans washing sia.

aiyo.thought and thought and thought.finally decide to wear like emo angel! LOL.more like zebra lahh can.hahaha.decided on black & white tank top + black halter + white short jacket + white skirt.LOL.oh well.not too bad luhh.discovered a new way to match my clothes (: yupp.so ate dinner liao.chiong to newton!met kelly and we followed a bunch of people there (:

choir concert was nice! lol.they sang grease lightning lohh.my p6 graduation song.man.I MISS SNGS.hai.haha.must go back soon! :D haha.was laughing with kelly.huiying.vidya luhh.teachers are so weird :X lol.after choir concert.went backstage to find people! LOL.then saw zhenling! hugged her like siao lohh.didnt wanna let go.haha.LOVEYA ZHENLING! stay strong! :D walked back to newton mrt with kelly.vidya.teri.passed by my tuition centre.went to 7 eleven! i got a pack of m&ms :DD haha.was laming all the way there lahh.was zi highing XD LOL.ya lohh.after that chiong back home lo.

SORRY PEOPLE!MY HP IS DAMN KUKU.hahaha.okk.i shall tell you all why :D before choir concert.was at newton mrt.after i called huiying.i received 10 missed calls from her earlier.1 sms from her.1 missed call and 1 sms from kelly.LOL lahh.i was like HUH?!?! then after choir concert.when i restarted my hp in the mrt.i received 9 missed calls from home and a few other smses.LOL.siao siao hp luhh.yupp.sorry! if tomorrow i dont reply you.its not i dao okk.its my hp abit de got problem :DD

oh ya.yongrong!its you say you dont read my blog de lohh.lol.ill try to shorten my posts next time luhh! :D

i cant hate you anymore - nick lachey

an empty room can be so deafening

the silence makes you wanna scream

it drives you crazy

i chased away the shadows of your name

and burn the picture in a frame

but it couldn't save me

and how could we quit something we never really tried

well you still can't tell me why

we built it up

to watch it fall

like we meant nothing at all

i gave and gave the best of me

but couldn't give you what you need

you walked away

you stole my life

just to find what your looking for

but no matter how i try

i can't hate you anymore

you're not the person who you used to be

the one i want who wanted me

and that's a shame but

there's only so many tears that you can cry

before it changes the life right from your eyes

and i can't go on that way

and so i'm letting go of everything we were

it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt

we built it up
to watch it fall
like we meant nothing at all
i gave and gave the best of me
but couldn't give you what you need
you walked away
you stole my life
just to find what your looking for
but no matter how i try
i can't hate you anymore
i can't hate you anymore

sometimes you hold so tight

it slips right through your hands

will i ever understand

we built it up

to watch it fall

like we meant nothing at all

i gave and gave the best of me

but couldn't give you what you need

you walked away

you stole my life

just to find what your looking for

but no matter how i try

i can't hate you anymore

lets take things slowly;

let nature take its course;

let fate decide for itself

its too late to apologise.

# delusions #

`sad

2008-07-09T23:12:00.005+08:00

`YOU

love me;
but you dont know;
who i am (:

today was horrible.not the worst day ever lah.but it was horrible.haha.BUT I SURVIVED MANN.all thanks to my girlfriends once again! :D lol.LOVEYA ALL! (:

came to school really really tired after chionging ss pt draft last night.raining somemore.so damn nice to sleep luhh.haha.so was really tired loh.no mood to high also.abit de sian.chatted with vidya outside classroom.SHE had to appear.lol.kena scolded by HER.so damn irritating luh.we are like so freaking tired after chionging your stupid pt and you have to scold us for keeping quiet.on and on went her lecture on time management and how she pushed all the blame totally onto ourselves.like we have 48hrs in a day like that :/ soon i fell asleep.SHE called srruthi to wake me up.lol.'YOU THINK NOW ITS RESTING TIME AHH?!' -silence- so diao.afterthat throw remote control on the table and attitude us.LOL.should have kept quiet the whole lesson luhh.then NO LESSON :DD but oh well.people spoke.so on went the boring lesson.

next lesson.went to borrow chi textbk.(translated) 'GRACE.(AHEM AHEM) YOUR PINAFORE ABIT TOO SHORT RIGHT.YOU ARE SEC THREE NOW.SO TALL ALREADY.SUDDENLY JUST SHOOT UP.MUST LENGTHEN YOUR PINAFORE RIGHT?!' '-.- ITS PUFFED UP COZ IM WEARING MY JACKET' 'ITS STILL TOO SHORT' '-.-' LOLL.oh well.on went the super boring lesson as well.haha.was trying really hard to keep awake lahh.FINALLY IT WAS RECESS.

went for recess.after that was philo.WHY MUST WE LEARN HOW TO DOUBT WHATEVER PEOPE SAY.WHY MUST WE BECOME SO SKEPTICAL.THEN LIKE THAT HOW TO TRUST ANYBODY.loll.yeahh.that was basically the gist of philo lesson.teaching us how to doubt things around us :/ chem was ok luhh.was just trying my best to absorb whatever she said.but it just goes in and out.lol.CHEM PT.man.

math was THE HELL.out of five questions right.i only did half of one question.FAIL LIKE SHIT CAN.heng only 10%.dont give a damn le luh.stupid math.i was like sneezing non-stop through out the whole of it.was trying my best not to cry lah.coz its like stare at the paper.BLANK.wth.wanted to sub in the values lohh.but i thought numbers so weird and big.so just erased the whole thingy off and passed up a blank shit.ARGH.ITS OVER.after that people started crying.was trying my best to hold back my tears lohh.hai.sucks when you swallow your tears back inside.

after that geog teacher came in.SHES THE ANGEL MAN.she saw that most of us was crying and said that we wouldnt be in the mood to do anything.she was so sensitive compared to HER.knowing that the pt test was HELL.she CANCELLED her lesson.allowing us to go home.so damn nice lahh (: everyone was rather glad i guess.SHES THE BEST! :D haha.if only all teachers could be this sensitive lah.

after that HUIYING came.couldnt hold back my tears anymore.haha.she calls my a fountain lohh.everytime i cry.its just like a running tap.haha.THANKS GIRL :D for comforting me and all.haha.CHERYL came along!she saw that i was so sad and all.haha.oh ya.SORRY for attituding you VIDYA! i didnt mean it.i just felt so shitty at that point in time.guess its like all accumulated.THANK YOU for during recess.knowing that i was sleepy.sad and all.THANKS GIRL! :D

then cheryl ask me go her class.she got something give me.followed her.on the way there.saw zhenling!haha.she knew something was wrong with me.so she gave me a big big hug.THANKS GIRL! :D so went into cheryls class.guess what she gave me.MY FAVOURITE AFTER EIGHT!i was just asking her to give me yesterday lohh.then she really gave it to me! :D when she held it out.i was like OMG.then the tears just totally streamed down my face.lol.hugged her then she was like anweiing me lohh.SORRY for bursting suddenly like that.i just so felt like crying.its all like stuffed and bottled up inside.haha.THANK YOU SO MUCH GIRL! :D shall go eat it later XD 'ROCKONZZZ' -quoted from CHERYL! XD

ate lunch with kelly.THANK YOU for hearing me rant & for lending me your wks :D ate one whole tub of chocolate ice-cream.haha.felt much better after that :D went for mep.damn sian.only like 5 people when we arrived.loads of people had stuff on lahh.we so felt like ponning the whole thingy.harmony was damn damn sian luhh.heng i finished the homework liao.no mep homework for next week!

LOL.went for break with huiying.ate pola snack.twisties and wang wang.the wang wang lou feng le lahh :/ not nice at all.lol.suddenly feel like eating LONG NECK MARSHMALLOW :D still remember sec 2 lohh.i used to eat it everyday :DD after break.went back for history.HE was damn funny can.so lame & gay & wtvv.hahaha.oh well.was laughing quite abit luhh.HE was totally over enthu about beethoven.BEETHOVEN RAWKS LAHH.but abit the exaggerated also he.lol.hes gonna give us a practice paper with answers.LOL.if i got time then do luh.if not yeah.haha :D

came home.ate dinner.slept for a while! :D haha.finally had some energy to go for piano lahh.pracked all my exam pieces one time each.no time to play scales.talked abit on msn.then need to chiong there liao.haha.theory was complicated man.she decided not to rush me this yr.so will probably take grade 8 next november instead of march ba.HENG AH.can slack abit :X loll.BUT BUTT.my practical.DAMN SHIT LEH.as in yeah.standard dropping grade by grade.i think this time no distinction liao.this year damn no time.practice dropped by like 3/4.lol.

oh well.a:1 beethoven piece.alamak ahh.hahaha.that piece damn up and down de lohh.this time it wasnt too bad lah.but my tempo was damn shaky.haha.need to prack lo.b:3.october piece! my fav & hardest of all piece.lol.my emo mood is working now.touch is almost correct liao! just need to bring out the bass more and have abit more expression :DD yeahh.FINALLY CAN.after so long.finally got the touch right liao.guess you have to be emo to play an emo piece (: lol.c:2.haha.that one ahh.must practice luhh and bring out dynamics and control tempo.lol.my worst piece of all.cant stand 20th century pieces :X lol.didnt play scales.PHEW.didnt touch them at all loh.

now im back home! when im supposed to be doing hw.im BLOGGIN.lol.damn late liao & im damn damn sleepy.so shall push hw again! shall do geog in sch tmr and eng tmr night.after i watch americas next top model.if mummy even lets me watch it :D have choir concert tomorrow night! i dont even know what to wear luhh.shall decide tomorrow afternoon.no energy left to think liao.haha.i think i shall forget about chinese too and go and sleep right after this post :X right after i eat my after 8 :DD

everyone around me is falling sick! guess its the stress luhh.im falling sick too.oh mann.cannot fall sickk.haha.GET WELL SOON EVERYBODY! TAKE LOADS OF CARE OKK! :D health is most important horr.school is just shit :X LOLL XD drink more water and get more rest! jiayou jiayou! 2 more days and its the WEEKENDS :D

prayers do work (: therefore God i pray that tommorow will be a better day.that you will bless each and everyone of us with the strength and wisdom to live tomorrow to its fullest.filled with bountiful amounts of happiness (:

hold me close;

hold me tight;

coz im never gonna let you;

outta my sight (:

# hope #

`love

2008-07-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

`WAITING

for your call;
to call me back home (:

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S) :D

hahaha.yeahh! GIRLFRIENDS ARE TOTALLY THE LOVE LUHH :DD hahaha.BOYFRIENDS INCLUDED! YESS CHERYLL.THATS U XD LOLL.today was simply HAPPY HAPPY :DD yupp yupp.it was BE YOURSELF DAY! XD being the total bimbo.how could i go to sch wearing sch u right.LOLL.so i went to sch in my 'I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S)' T + SKINNY JEANS! i wanted 2 wear my shorts luhhh.but abit too mini liao.l8ter kena book then i go rtc le lehh.hahaha.so cannot risk it luh :D

met cheryl in the toilet.hahaha.she was damn funny luhh.wearing this woolly pullover thingy.with her black guitar shirt and jeans.then i was telling her about my shirt.that it said I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S) so it DID NOT apply to HER XD hahaha.jkjk luhh! was also ranting to kelly & huiying in the morning.THANK YOU GIRLS! :D hahaha.i was totally letting off steam luhh.they were like CHILL CHILL.then i was BOOOMMMM.all the shit came out.hahaha.kelly was like 'you finally learnt the art of sarcasm yeah' LOL XD huiying was like 'now you can see the true colours le right' oh well.haha.THANK YOU CHERYL & YONGRONG FOR LETTING ME RANT AT YOU BOTH TOO LAST NIGHT!! cant believe i talked to you both for 11hrs ytd.omg lahh.break record liao.LOL.went for lessons.damn sian luhh! hist was slack.pe was height & weight.captains ball.45.5kg! 164 cm! LOL.i need to grow both upwards and sideways XD

geog was okk luhh.alot of copying to do.physics was sleeping time :X hahaha.i nv fail to fall asleep during physics sia.math was quite slack.half an hour only.coz she koped half our free block :D hahaha.through out the day.i was being damn lame luhh.srruthi was like GRACE UR A NUT CASE.then i started drawing nuts in a case on her paper.hahaha.she was like 'YOU BETTER GO HOME & SLEEP TODAY' damn cute luhh she.i was dozing off during physics.se went 'grace.dont do that.you are making me sleepy too' then after that she really dozed off luhh.LOLL.

lunch block was the funniest.sent huiying for support swimming thingy.then went with aditi go eat lunch.kelly joined us later.then i saw CHERYL + vivien + xueshan upstairs.i started waving like shit to them.hahaha.damn funny luhh.then we were like all waving.then everybody was like STARES.LOLL.after that.ka qiao cheryl to go arcade after school.we at first agreed de lohh.then after that decided not to coz so much wk.but i was like totally in the mood lohh.coz so high and all.HECK THE HW.hahaha.damn wanted to throw balls luhh.LOLL.so dragged other people along!! XD

rs was slack too.haha.i think our mentor damn funny luhhh.kangjie was asking me whether i was really sleepy.haha.as usual.i looked as though i was about to doze off.i chionged up for rs (coz i was late as usual) then after that there was no aircon in the class luhh.i was like SO HOT.was regretting i didnt wear my shorts luhhh.DAMN DAMN HOT.hahaha.peixin was hot too.oh ya.then after rs.went to rant to QIQI & ZHENLING! hahaha.THANKS GIRLS! :D they were like asking how i was and all that.IM OKK LOHH :D JUZ OVERDOSE OF SUGAR LUHH XD hahaha.got back my tiara from kelly.SORRY I DIDNT WANNA TAKE PIC LUHH.some other times kkayes girl! :DD

THE BEST PART ABOUT TODAY.ARCADE TIMEE!! :DD hahaha.gathered at the foyer after school.damn funny luhh! laughing and laughing like shit.ite went arcade with CHERYL ; MARIA ; GRACE ; CHENGJING ; VIVIEN ; XUESHAN ; ABIGAIL :DD trained to ps luhhh.vivien ; xueshan ; abigail went to cafe cartel to get stuff.grace & chengjing went to get fries.maria ; cheryl + me went to the arcade! hahaha.while we walked around deciding what to play.change tokens.blah blah.decided on bball first! afterall.my aim was to throw balls right.hahaha XD

first time.49.i was like jumping up and down.1 mre point lehhh!hahaha.then grace & chengjing came.played again.cheryl.me.grace & maria.I GT 150! hahaha.nt alot to you people luhh.BUT ALOT TO ME OKK.usually at most 96.the first time cheryl brought me to arcade.hahaha.then today 150! i totally collapsed on the floor luhhh.then grace was like 'MARIA THREW HER BALL UP THERE' hahaha.it was like stuck on top of the machine lahh.everyone burst out laughing.then chengjing & abigail got caught for wearing sch u.wahlao.they damn strict lehh.so ite xueshan ; vivien ; abigail went shopping.chengjing went home.aiyo.haha.oh well.it became a guitar outing! LOL.

went to play racing car next! damn funny luhhh.first time.maria & i put in coin liao.grace & cheryl slowww.so only both of us play.she wonn luhh.so zai! overtake me lehhh.hahaha.then 2nd time.we all play tgt.yayy!! i won.hahaha.grace was like 1 lap behind.oh well.that wasnt the point.the point was.WE HAD LOADS OF FUN.WAS LAUGHIN LIKE SIAO LAHH.hahaha.next up was damn funny luhh.LITERALLY THROW BALLS.its called snowballs luhh.new machine.i was like 'ehh cheryl! lets go play that! throw balls de lehh!' hahaha.we both started laughing like shit again.so we all ended up throwing balls at the most random things.PRISONERS.MICE.MOSQUITOES.HEARTS loads luhh.loll.grace was like 'JUST THROW ALL YOUR BALLS LUHH' hahahaha.oh mann.damn fun with them lahh.

changing money time.hahaha.maria & grace were trying to make cheryl treat them.then maria was telling us how her bros sch has a senior treat junior day & vice versa.hahaha.muz fix a date soon luhh! loll.went to play super mario racing cars! LOL.i got last luhh.hahaha.all of them ram into me.then use the funny items thingy thingy.i was like huh huhh.then the next minute i see my character going round and round in circles.loll.laughed damn alot lahh.wanted to play para para but the machines down.LOL.so rare can play when so few people around.then the thingy down.aiyo.went to play the THROW BALLS THINGY AGAIN.hahaha.damn funny luhh.cheryl & i were like.muz sit & stand by couples! cannot break the couples apart! hahaha.throw until our hands damn pain luhh.cheryl & i played one last game of bball.coz grace & maria say they broke liao.LOL.164! i was like jumping up and down luhh.hahaha.after that train home lo!

went home.ate dinner.plonked myself on the sofa and slept liao.lol.parents woke me up and scolded me like shit lahh.oh well.I NEED TO CHIONG SS PT DRAFT & COLLATE MY MATH WKS BY TONIGHT.i gave up pracking the piano.maybe if i havent collapsed yet.then prack scales l8ter ba.head damn giddy now.lol.

THANK YOU GIRLS ~~(guys)~~ FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL TIME TODAY! YOU ALL AMDE ME A REALLY REALLY HAPPY GIRL! was damn high luhh.the bad news is.IM LOSING MY VOICE :/ and my right leg really hurts.dont know why.over stretched it maybe? but oh well.I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS FOR BEING MY REALLY WONDERFUL DARLINGS! :DD THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME YEAH!

like huiying says.only time can tests relationships.only then do you know who to cherish and who to let go (: through all these.ive finally seen who really cares for me.and i really thank every single one of you for that little bit of care! :D it really means alot to me (: i will treasure all the friendships we have forged over the years and never will i be a fool again (: LOVEYA ALL LOADS! :D

i would like to say special thanks to KING KELLY! for that really sweet little card of yours.you totally brightened my entire day.i was really very surprised lohh.thank you for being such a great listener too! we shall have more outings together okk! stay strong and hang in there girl! ill be right here if you need someone to talk to (: we will get through this together! jiayou jiayou! :D LOVES!

haha.i know i have been repeating this over and over again.but yeah! I LOVE ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WHO LOVE & CARE FOR ME OKK! :D haha.although i dont say it everyday.and sometimes when i moodswing.i often neglect and dao all of you.worst still.i just totally blow at all of you.im really sorry for all of that.but i really treasure all the friendships we have okk! now that we are caught up with our school work and everything.just remember that each of us still care for each other! oh mann.must really use the holidays to catch up with all of you.lets all go chill out one day! XD FRIENDS FOREVER LOVE! :D

thank you God for sending me these wonderful guardian angels to watch over me day and night (:

happiness is like a butterfly;

the more you chase it;

the more it will elude you.

but if you turn your attention;

to the other beautiful things around you;

it will come and softly sit on your shoulder (:

BEST FRIENDS <3

its a promise; not a label (:

we were strangers;

starting out on a journey;

never dreaming;

what we had to go through;

thanks for the memories (:

# fairytales #

`love

2008-07-06T13:05:00.011+08:00

`LOVE

is meant to be happy (:

haha.quoted from huiying and yongrong.shall type in full sentences for this post.i just feel like it :D haha.this post is gonna be quite a long one i think.lol.shall rush through it coz i have LOADS.really really LOADS of stuff to do.

THANK YOU :D

all who came to support REVERBERE'08!! :D hahaha.its totally THE LOVE :DD was damn scared for entertainer lohh.pracked like siao.although everyone was pretty entertained by the party stuff and all.but the playing techniques and musicality was like what valerie said.CANNOT MAKE IT.lol.but basically the concert was a success :DD hahaha.instructor was really nice lohh.he kept telling me not to worry.to be steady.just do your best and most importantly.enjoy the music.i was gonna cry le lohh.haha.THANK YOU! (although you most likely wont see it) hahaha.but really lohh.hes the BEST instructor ever! :DD sold out concert but some people last minute cannot make it loh.aiyo.but yeahh.it was really fun! better than i thought it would be.had fun running around.putting make-up.changing damn fast.chionging here chionging there.hahaha.but i dont like the scolding part luh :D so yupp.THANK YOU EVERYONE! :DD FOR BEING THERE! FOR THE FLOWERS & PRESENTS! FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENTS! FOR THE HUGS! FOR ALL THE FUN AND LAUGHTER! FOR EVERYTHING! :DD

I LOVE YOU! :D

DADDY & MUMMY & JOYCE & ASHLEY! thank you for always being by my side and supporting me.i know ive been rather bad tempered.mean.stupid.these few days.haha.sorry! thanks for coming for guitar concert and getting me flowers! :D thanks for all the encouragements and advice!thanks for being the pillars of strength!lol.thanks for everything! LOVEYA! :D

HUIYING! haha.thank you girl for always being there for me! thanks for your really pretty balloon and really cute piggie! :DD sorry for all the pmsing these few days! thanks for being ever so patient and tolerant with me! haha.thanks for all the long talks at macs.in school.all the smses and calls.ims and skype talks :D jiayou okk! i will always be here for you! always remember that.GOD will make a way.when there seems to be no way.He works in ways we cannot see.He

will make a way for me.He will be my guide.hold me closely to His side.for love and strength with each new day.He will make a way.He will make a way (: yupp.so keep smiling girl! shine as bright as the brighest star! take loads of care! LOVEYA! :D

CHERYL! thank you homo boyfriend!! :D hahaha.thank you for all the encouragements yeahh! for providing me with all the food yesterday :D hahaha.I LOVE M&Ms! thank you for running around with me.pei me here pei me there.help me carry this.help me carry that :D thank you for the hugs and for all the fun and laughter! yayy! you promised me will bring me go arcade de horr.dont forget ahh.must save up liao! I STILL HATE UR LIGHTER XD thanks for letting me always fa xie on you.haha.sorry for being so vulgar these few days.i will cut down de! i think i also owe you an explanation right.sorry for not telling it to you earlier! ill try not to do it again lahh.haha.afterall violence doesnt solve the problem right (: ill try to be less violent! hahaha.later one day end up in gang fight.need you to dang wo XD loll.yupp.thank you HUNK :DD hahaha.LOVEYA! :D

KELLY! thank you for being so protective of me! for all the advice and analysations! thanks for defending me in all the stupid situations! haha.its okk le lahh.im strong okk! i know you are way stronger than me.so yupp.jiayou jiayou! if i can do it.YOU CAN TOO! :DD yeahh! we can make it through together! like you said.when we look back.we will be laughing at how stupid we once were.lol.I WANT MY RETAIL THERAPY THINGY SOON AHH! :D take care! we can do all things in Gods strength (: LOVEYA! :D

ZHENLING! thank you for all the encouragements girl! your words of wisdom ahh.never fail to make me cry okk! well done for guitar concert yesterday! great job! thanks for helping me to improve my guitar playing.by telling me what to do.and all the encouragements and all! (: you said you will really really support me.if i really really do it de ahhh.haha.IM REALLY REALLY DOING IT NOW! i know you all are happy for me! and im a happy girl too! :DD dont so stress ok!! you can do it girl! all the best for hp'09! ill always be here if you need someone to talk to! like how you always say to me (: haha.hang in there and stay strong! LOVEYA! :D

VIDYA! thank you for all the advice and all! hahaha.sorry i kinda piss you off.lol.im finally doing it le! so you can stop getting pissed at it! yeahh! lol.dont give up on yourself lahh.schools just a sucky thingy.but it depends on your perspective too! although now we cant slack and laugh out loud in class.sitting right in front must pay attention and all.being eyed by all the teachers.but we are all in this together! lol.just ignore all the horrible stuff lahh.stay happy like you tell me! show me your winning smile! (: LOVEYA! :D

QIQI! thank you girl for all the encouragements! hahaha.i know you gave up on me le luhh.but yupp.this time im really really really really gonna do it kk! :D thank you for the flowers! really pretty :D lol.thank you for always checking up on me.whether im emo or not.asking how i am and all :D i miss taking 132 back with you okk! must take again together someday! haha.all the best for hp'09! jiayou jiayou! you dont so stress also okk! keep smiling! LOVEYA! :D

WENYAN! entertainer girl! :D hahaha.thank you for all the encouragements yeah! you are really a strong girl man.so sick yesterday still can play so well.well done girl! :D jiayou jiayou for all the school hw! GET WELL SOON! dont mug so hard luhh.must take care of yourself too! LOVEYA! :D

RACHEL! thank you for all your encouragments! thanks for the flowers yesterday too! :DD ehhh.you still owe me an outing okk! since sec 1 lehh. you and zhenling ahh.hahaha.must drag you both out during nov/dec holidays! :D jiayou jiayou for everything & take care! LOVEYA! :D

YVONNE! thank you for your really lovely sms! sorry i only saw it so late :X thank you for your encouragements! aiyo.also so long never take 132 with you liao.must take someday okk! haha.bumping into you lesser and lesser too.must take care kkayes! LOVEYA! :D

TIRZAH! thank you for always being so bubbly and caring! haha.i always never being my pen during church then always must ask from you.lol.thanks for always asking how i am! haha.i am always like so sleepy and all.lol.you take care yeah! LOVEYA! :D

GRACE & MARIA! the bimb and the sock! :D hahaha.thanks for being such lovely juniors! yeahh.graces always seem to be bimbs.i dont deny being one too :DD lol.damn funny luh.the way you all were like chionging during make-up.haha.thanks for the encouragements & hugs! must have more lunches together okk! :DD lol.damn fun laming around with all of you! jiayou jiayou for school! take care & sleep more horr.haha.LOVEYA! :D

CELESTINE & SHIYIN! thank you for being such lovely seniors! :D haha.you both were like so worried about me when your knew about it.thanks for all the care and concern! :D im okk now! you both also dont emo so much kk! haha.so fun to slack in the toilets.have lunch together.watch movies together.lol.must have a girls night out together okk! take loads of care! LOVEYA! :D

MABEL & YUJIN! my ex-rs group! miss doing rs with you all lohh.hahaha.every weekend go to different libraries.talking about orgami and all.although we always end up digressing.hahaha.we must go out soon okk! okk.maybe at the end-of-the-year.lol.our neoprints together! XD anyways.thank you for always asking how i am! everytime i see your in schh.haha.i know i still look like the super sleepy.blur blur.emo grace :D yeahh! loll.jiayou jiayou for everything! LOVEYA! :D

KANGJIE & PEIXIN! my current rs group! hahaha.i know im the blurest of the group.but thanks for always helping me along with all the stuff! with this with that.lol.glad rs is kinda slack now :DD haha.jiayou jiayou for the loads of hw that we all have.lol.LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR BATCH'09! yayy! must have a batch piece next year okk! this year was kinda rush.so we shall have it next year! great job for concert yesterday! :D everybody looked so pretty pretty.haha.thanks for all the encouragements! the hugs and all! :D LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR SENIORS! miss you all so much lohh! thank you for all the encouragments! yeahh.ill try to pull my grades up! hahaha.i know yingjie is very concerned about that issue XD ill get tuition from you soon! lol.they were saying how when you meet guyz in rjc.you would think that its the end of the world.LOL.rgs is the best 4 years for your life.hahaha.dont know luhh.but yupp.THANK YOU SO MUCH! LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR JUNIORS! juniors are damn cute lohhh.hahaha.thank you so much! i was running here running there.they were like helping me to keep my balloons.my flowers :D thank you for the encouragements! they really helped alot alot! i was so scared lohh.they were there encouraging me.helping me to cool down.lol.thank you! LOVEYA! :D

YONGRONG! thank you boy for always being there! yess yess.i know im that stupid foolish girl.BUT BUTT.that was the past okk!ive become smarter! XD loll.yupp.so you cant stop worrying liao.thanks for all the laughter.the jokes.the encouragements.the songs.EVERYTHING! :D dont emo so much yeah! haha.final decision is up to you! be confident kkayes! jiayou jiayou! LOVEYA! :D

HSIANG YEH! hahaha.thank you for all the sleepless nights yeahh! i realised horr.everytime i start talking to you.i wont be able to sleep until chao late de lohh.hahaha.but nevertheless.you will always make the conversation damn funny! LOL.thanks for all the advice yeah! and thanks for bringing back all the nice nice memories! you still owe me a bedtime story horr! XD loll.take care & dont stress so much! LOVEYA! :D

JUOWI! thank you korkor for everything! hahaha.thanks for all the calls and encouragments! sorry i always ka qiao you so late at night :X loll.i know i still owe you an outing.hahaha.soon kkayes! dont so stress in school yeah! cheer up kkayes! must must must must sleep more! hahaha.take care! LOVEYA! :D

wow.that was alot alot.hahaha.hope that small little paragraph brightened each of your days! :D keep smiling yeah! oh ya! MY HP KENA CONFISCATED.yupp.sorry dears.cannot sms you all.so yupp.dont sms me yeah! i dont want to be daoing anybody.lol.sorry sorry!in the meantime.if you all emoing or really urgently need to talk to me.haha.can call my house! or joyce or my daddys hp :D yupp.take care kkayes! :DD LOVEYA ALL LOADS & LOADS! :D

mann.there is so much so much homework.lets try listing out what i have to complete tmr.

- practise piano

- physics wks

- ss pt draft

- eng speech

- chi pt

- geog wks

- ~~math assignment~~

- ~~math wks~~

yupp.im a stronger girl now and i am moving on! thank you all who stood by me through this really really long and tough journey.haha.im a HAPPY girl thanks to all of you! i know you all are happy for me too! (: thanks for everything.from the bottom of my heart.i sincerly thank you.each and everyone of you (: i know i have been rather caught up with all the shit that i didnt really talk much with you all then you all complain i never start convos and all.so yupp.i am gonna start caring more! hahaha.that includes starting convos okk! and to control all my moodswings and to be more sensitive! the improvements may not be really great.but ill try my very best! i promise (:

churh today was really good.haha.taught us about how to control our anger and to destroy the seed of jealousy before it buds.haha.to have faith in GOD! its the most important thing.guess i havent been spending much time on that.especially now that there is so much work and all.hai.shall work on that (: i really thank God for helping me through this very difficult stage of my life.thank you for sending wonderful angels who stood by my side all the way (: with Your strength.ill be able to overcome all evil with goodness.thank you God for the blessings that you have showered upon me (:

Have mercy on me, O God,

have mercy on me,

for in you my soul takes refuge.

I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings

until the disaster has passed.

I cry out to God Most High, to God,

who fulfills his purpose for me.

He sends from heaven and saves me,

rebuking those who hotly pursue me.

God sends His love and His faithfulness.

- Psalms 57: 1-3

thanks yongrong for 'breathless'! haha.yeahh.this is specially in BLUE okk :DD hahaha.thank you! (:

yupp.shall end this post soon.haha.basically guitar concert wasnt as good as last year lah (: i hope next year will be better! this year was so slack and all.then last minute chiong everything.haha.hope we get GWH next year! last year liao.must perform our very best! :D

haha.half the year is over liao.seems pretty fast.soon it will be the nov/dec holidays! lol.tomorrow is chionging homework day.mann.next week.whole week holiday also.but its like CHIONGING PTs & MUGGIN week.hahaha.oh well.thats life right.just gotta live with it! :D

to the FAKER-

look here kid.grow up.you are the one who needs to grow up.stop telling others what to do when you yourself dont do it.you are the immature one.look at yourself before you comment on others can.you arent that good you know.so stop pretending and faking all those lies.its so damn obvious yet you still come and try to sweet talk me with all that bullshit.it doesnt work anymore.stop being so ego and 'high class'.your criticisms are shit.coz i think you are more likely to be talking about yourself.flirtatious jerk.

if our love was a fairytale;

i would charge in and rescue you;

on a yacht baby we would sail;

to an island where we say i do

# breathless #

`emo

2008-06-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

`KISS

goodbye.

对不起我爱你-蔡淳佳

你空出一双手

穿过黑夜握住我

两个人的手心里有

一整片宽阔的天空

谁都没有开口

星星也忘了闪烁

有你陪着我就可以

走到天涯的尽头

那时候

还记得那时候

从手心传过来的温柔

如果说

只能活这一天

曾经与你深深相爱

我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

不让你离我太遥远

走在这个适合拥抱的季节

爱在心里所以我不可怜

回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

紧紧抱着你说过的誓言

等待着我们说好的永远

并肩的两个人

在银白色的街头

印下的脚印还一直

在我的心里往前走

从爱的第一秒

直到最后一分钟

我对我们之间没有

任何後悔的理由

那时候

还记得那时候

从手心传过来的温柔

如果说

只能活这一天

曾经与你深深相爱

我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

不让你离我太遥远

走在这个适合拥抱的季节

爱在心里所以我不可怜

回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

紧紧抱着你说过的誓言

等待着我们说好的永远

当走过的路流过的泪

被落叶掩埋

是你的温柔让我的心

重新活过来

就算相爱的人

无论如何暂时要离开

别问未来怎麽办

我只需要等待

我用回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

不让你离我太遥远

走在这个适合拥抱的季节

爱在心里所以我不可怜

回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

不让你离我太遥远

走在这个适合拥抱的季节

爱在心里所以我不可怜

回忆温暖了

想你的每一刻

把最后的合照摆在窗前

想像着你也许跟我一样

正在倒数再见的时间

等着对我说好的永远

erase all the pain till its gone.

# strangers #

`anybody

2008-06-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

`CRUMBLE

its better to have loved & lost;
than never to have loved at all (:

anybody - jesse mccartney

she left me hangin' by a thread again

i stood there waiting like a fool for her

i never dreamed that i'd be in this place

but here i am all alone

it's not the first time that she's walked away

changed all our plans within the blink of an eye

and looking back it's always been the same

but i refused to see it all for what it was

has anybody ever felt this way

has anybody been ripped apart

anybody give everything to the one they love

am i the only one left behind

am i the only one who hates goodbyes

God i know this can't go on forever

i wonder if she ever thinks of me

and all the promises she swore to keep

some nights i lay in bed just burning up'

cause i know that she's out with someone else

has anybody ever felt this way
has anybody been ripped apart
anybody give everything to the one they love
am i the only one left behind
am i the only one who hates goodbyes
God i know this can't go on forever

i was the one who gave up everything for her

when no one would listen i heard every word oh

it took me so long to see that maybe i am better off alone

has anybody ever felt this way

has anybody been ripped apart

anybody give everything to the one they love

am i the only one left behind

am i the only one who hates goodbyes

God i know this can't go on forever

has anybody ever felt this way

has anybody been ripped apart

anybody give everything to the one they love

am i the only one left behind

am i the only one who hates goodbyes

God i know this can't go on forever

God i know this can't go on

all i wanna do is just move on

God i know this can't go on forever

yeah i know this won't go on forever

God i know this can't go on forever

i finally realised how much i meant to you;
just another girl walking through your life;
but to the many others that ive neglected;
i seem to mean so much more;
much much more than just;
an ordinary girl

# let go #

`holiday

2008-06-16T23:13:00.001+08:00

`LEAVING

everything's wrong;
and backwards;
upside down

God gave me so many chances.but i just let each chance slip away one by one.no use regretting or wishing that i could turn back time.but i am just hoping.maybe just one last chance?

haha.came back frm malaysia (kuantan/redang!) :D im officially CHAO TAH.mummy called me charcoal lahh :/ hahaha.yeahh.im TANNERR.it seems quite obvious since ppl noticed it during guitar.aww mann.hmmm.shall try to keep my update short.ive tons of hw 2 complete b4 sch starts.ON THURSDAY.mann.its like 2 days more? n there goes my holiday -.-

day 1- (tuesday 10th june)

haha.totally didnt sleep at all dat nite!was chattin on msn like siao.managed to complete my chem wks (1st pg) lol.ermm.wif e help of wikipedia :X haha.thanks boy for all your advice (: thanks for bringing me back to the past.maybe if i wasnt so childish.things would have been different and i may have been happier yeah (: haha.mummy caught me at 530 in e mornin.kena scolded.had 2 shut down com liao.got ready den drove to kuala trengganu.stopped by kuantan.haha.dropped off sm luggage at hyatt kuantan.ate lunch.den continued drivin up 2 kuala trengganu.10hrs drive lehh! goshh.haha.i slept most of it :D im a pig mahh.lol.checked in2 e hotel.ate dinner den slept liao (:

day 2- (wednesday 11th june)

hmmm.ate breakfast den drove 2 e jetty.was sleepin thruout again.haha.took sm luggage den checked in 2 e ferry.i was damn blur dat day lahh.so i stupidly left my bag in e car.only took my comb n hairties.lol.kena scolded like siao.coz i left all my facial wash in my bag.mummy said dat dey would melt.heng nv lahh.haha.e ferry was kinda rocky.slept thruout again.lol.reached redang!hotel was much nicer den expected.e beach.e sea.damn nice lahh!went snorkelin! heng my swimming costume still can fit.nv wear 4 so long le.haha.took a boat out 2 sea.saw all e nice nice corals.nt many fishes though.e seawater is blehhh.damn salty lahh.haha.was really tired afterdat.took e boat back.bathed.ate nice nice dinner den slept le (:

day 3- (thursday 12th june)

ate nice nice breakfast.haha.was beginning 2 love e food dere!esp e desserts :D went snorkelin again!this time at marine park.there were so many many many many fishes lahh.all swimming around.damn cool lohh.one fish bit me lahh!haha.coz i cupped my hands tgt.den all e fish swam 2 me.like think my hand food like dat.den dat fish bit me!haha.saw all e diff types of fishes.rainbow fish! :D was really tired afterdat.mummy said i was totally tanned.had 2 white goggle rings around my eyes.heng 2dae ppl say nt obvious XD bathed n had nice nice lunch.e 3 of us decided dat we should stay in e hotel n let our parents enjoy their er ren shi jie :DD loll.so after lunch i slept lohh.AGAIN.yeahh.joyce slept too.ashley was watchin tv.theres this really sweet movie being played over n over again.haha.ashley watched it like 9 times?loll.parents came back.had nice nice dinner.went 2 play carum!nobody wanted 2 play pool wif me lahh.so ite played carum.haha.daddy went back 2 rest 1st coz nxt day long drive again (: joyce + me vs mummy + ashley.haha.won 1 game each :D was rainin really heavily lohh.after e game.went back 2 e rm den slept le loh (:

day 4- (friday 13th june)

ate nice nice breakfast.didnt wanna leave lohh.walked around e beachh.missin dat place liao.haha.tooked e ferry back.played with this cute little boy in frnt of me lahh.haha.afterdat slept thruout.bought beach shorts at e jetty.haha.finally convinced parents 2 buy it.although now they still complain its damn short.haha.joyce gt a pair too :D drove down 2 kuantan.damn fun when daddy drives.coz he speeds mahh.ashley was damn free lohh.she counted how many cars daddy overtook.joyce n i slept :D mummy called me a pig again.lol.reached hyatt kuantan! yeahh.love dat hotel :D daddy said bcoz we always stayed 4 free coz always wont gt e best rms de.horrible.forever garden view.haha.oh well.headed straight 4 e club! :D ate nice nice food.LOVE HYATT FOOD XD haha.went 2 play at e playgroundd.oh yaa.dere was like 20++ singapore cars lahh! goshh.haha.aniwaes.went 2 eat dinner.seafood!lol.nt badd lahh.loads of singapore cars there also.haha.went back 2 hotel sleep le lohh :D

day 5- (saturday 14th june)

woke up early 4 sunrise! :DD hahaha.1st time i was up 1st lahh.every single meal i was late lohh.every morning i woke up late.only 2dae was damn special :D haha.wasnt so nice again lahh! wahlaoo.forever cannot see nice sunrise de lohh.e clouds r so irritatin.haha.ate nice nice breakfast! HOT CHOCOLATEE :DD yeahh.everytime go hyatt sure drink dat de.lol.went shoppin! everybody was really tired lah.so didnt shop much.ate macs 4 lunch coz ashley was cravin 4 it.LOL.shopped n shopped.started shoppin 4 my stuff 1st.after i gt a few pairs of shoes.den it bcm their turn 2 shop.so i sat in e departmental store wif their clothes all over me.i was damn bored so started playin daddys hp n talkin n msn.haha.den suddenly e manager n 1 of e staff came up 2 me n started talkin in malay.i was like HUHH?!?! i stood there like an idiot lahh.haha.heng afterdat gt a chinese lady translated 4 me.den i gt it.haha.they helped me put e clothes at e cashier so i dun hv 2 hv them all over me.loll.bought a few tops den go hm liao.yeahh.i end up wif e most stuff again :X hehe.went back 2 e hotel.ate tea at e club again!damn nicee :D all e nice nice cakes n all.ate super full.den went 2 walk at e beachh.nice nicee.e wind was damn strong :DD went 4 light dinner at e same place.had satay afterdat :DD haha.shiok mann.watched movie! haha.as in on star movies lahh.damn funny n sweet lohh.e guy n gal changed sex mahh.yeahh.dat kinda storyy.afterdat slept le lohh (:

day 6- (sunday 15th june)

woke up super early 4 sunrise again.but it was really cloudy.so didnt really wait 4 e sun 2 rise went back 2 sleep liao.lol.had hot chocolate againn 4 breakfast :DD haha.wif all e salmon n all :DD yayyy.went back 2 hotel.2 do wad?HOMEWORK.hahaha.i only gt past 2 pages of french revolution.den go 4 lunch liao.loll.ate at e curry mee stall opp hyatt.eat there every yr lohh.3rd year liao.haha.nice nicee.i love iced barley :DD hurry chionged back 2 hotel 2 check out.was like 2 liao?haha.dun hurry chiong back 2 singapore sure kena causeway jam.was really reluctant 2 leave lohh.like so fast go home liao.holiday so short.a few days ago.e 3 of us were still dicussing how 2 extend our holiday.like say we gt lost at sea?puncture e car tires? LOL.drove home.daddy was speedin like siao.mummy gt really angry.she was like 'I DONT WANT MY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO BECOME MY DEATH ANNIVERSARY!' loll.damn cool lahh.it was father's day n my parents weddin anniversary.haha.blur blur us celebrated father's day last wk.haha.chionged back 2 singapore.heng jam nt so badd.hai.saw a few beggers at jb.they very poor thing lohh.hai.den b4 singapore customs dere.we were all jk abt mas selamat lahh.LOLL.den at e customs.e guy go n say 'whose grace ahh?' 'ermm.me?' 'orhhh.cannot recognise lahh.coz last time so many pimples now all disappear liao' i was like WTHH.every1 started laughin lahh.den he asked me 'u take care one or ur mummy take care?' 'ermmm???' mummy was like 'we pay $$ she take care lahh' den everybody started laughinn.mann.haha.bought dinner den reached hm liao! :DD yayy.HOME SWEET HOME!! :DD

today! (monday 16th june)

LOLL.went 4 guitar 2dae!was super tired lahh.as usual i was late.haha.heng daddy sent me 2 yck mrt.or else i wuld hv been l8ter.missed 190 lahh.aiyo.had 2 wait 5 mins.haha.saw huiying at bus-stop!so walked wif her in2 schh.haha.was laughin wif grace.cheryl.magdalene as usuall.lol.queen of sheba was omg lahh.okk.i seriously nid 2 prack or else cannot make it 4 concert liao.

damn funny.pracked n pracked.den realised speed was meant 2 b 76.instead of 96.haha.afterdat it sounded much better :DD concerto was okk lahh.at least can play.haha.but its damn fast also lahh.went 4 lunch.haha.decided on ps lahh.den ite every1 ended up in kfc.as usual i took a really long time.haha.was last again.everybody left.except me.grace.cheryl.haha.while waitin 4 me.grace was examinin cheryls hp.all e pics.haha.cheryls pics damn lame siaa.den we started laughin at cheryls MELTED CANDY again XDD hahaha.chionged back 2 sch.cheryl n i were walkin damn slowly lohh.grace disappeared.totally didnt see her.so walked back wif cheryl.

outside guitar rm.anna n magdalene go say they started 1/2 hr earlier lahh.teacher + instructor were both dere liao.4 a moment i thought it was true lahh.LOLL.pracked concerto n e rest of e songs.hand was really pain le lahh.broke a nail smmre.loll.we were takin turns 2 draw on cheryls notebook.super bored siaa.den grace was laughin damn loudly.hahaha.inside joke.loll.

mrted home wif maria.cheryl.magdalene.haha.as usual cheryl n i were at e back.found sm lost keys at e bus stop.chengjing came afterdat.105 came.den magdalene.maria.cheryl chionged 4 it.190 was right behind.den had 2 shout 2 dem 2 take 190 instead.damn funny lahh.they were like wavin 2 e 105 uncle 'nono!' loll.went up 190 laughin like siao.den cheryl damn smart lahh.took e lost keys along.ite gave it 2 e bus uncle.

bused 2 orchard mrt.was lamin around dere.lol.maria was like 'SHOOOO' coz i tink i was blockin her wayy.den i was like 'SOCKKKKKK' hahahaha.we ended up laughin like crazy lahh.den magdalene n cheryl were like 'HUH?!' LOLL.dunnoe yy.i juz culdnt stop laughin lohh.haha.ite was like 'byee shoee!' 'byee sockk!' LOL.trained hm.took 265.yeahh.home sweet home (:

hai.holz so fast end liao.kinda miss it still.haha.but it was really 2 take a break frm reality (: frm all e mess n hectic life im in :D lol.still gt damn alot of stuff 2 chiong 2nite.AHHHH.
- prack entertainer
- theory
- french revolution
- russian revolution
- read animal farm online
- search 4 background info 4 rs

for all those who love & care for me.all i can say is that im sorry.for all the times you all stood by me.for all the encouragements.thank you (: but im sorry ... ive gave it my all.ive tried all that i could.have you? ... unstable.messy.emo.guess thats my life yeah (:

im cold inside;
this aint right

# sorry #

`away

2008-06-10T04:20:00.005+08:00

AWAY

10th - 15th june

malaysia

LOVES (:

`sad

2008-06-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

`TRUE

love was once a reality;
now yet just a memory.

sorry 4 nt bloggin 4 so long! juz wasnt in the mood.didnt exactly have time either.haha.okk.mre nt in e mood ba.really super duper stressed up now.

(my mood is much better now so i tink the l8ter part shuld b happier)

my eyes r kinda closin now so i shall make dis a short post.mann.its like 1:40 :/ ahhh.okk.these few daes hv been ermm.UP down UP down.yeahh.haha.so dun exactly feel like bloggin abt it.so it shall b kept a secret :DD loll.aiya.nthh much lahh.ermm.theses few daes.i went 4 isotonic concert.went sentosa.went amk library.amk hub.ate rainbow mcflurry :DD daydreamed at hm.slacked.yeahh.dats abt it.

I JUZ REALISED DAT IVE 3 DAYS 2 COMPLETE MY CHINESE PT.SS PT.CHEM WKS.PHYSICS WKS.READ ANIMAL FARM.HIST NOTES.DO THEORY.PRAC PIANO.PRAC GUITAR.N DEN SCH REOPENS.lolll.im damn screwed i noe.i juz realised lahh.hahaha.okk.im born slow.yeahh.mann.dats like so much hw loh.sure die wen sch reopens.alamak.

haha.yuppp.sorry galz who tagged me 2 do quizes.ill do dem when i cm back okk! :DD sorryy!! okk.briefly wad happened 2dae.went 4 guitar.kena late again.lol.heng teacher didnt scold.pracked e songs over n over again.was damn stone.sian.emo 2dae accordin 2 magdalene n cheryl.haha.sorryy! wahhh.grace + celestine + shiyin + maria all nv cm lehh! e slacker clique totally ponned lahh.wthh.left me n cheryl :/ lol.went 4 lunch wif huiying n cheryl! sat on e floor n chit chat.damn funny luhh.

afterdat went back.late again.heng haven start.lol.kena tested by instructor.damn screwed lahh.scolded like shit.hai.was damn tired afterdat.finally ended.daddy mummy culdnt pick me up.so went 2 mrt wif cheryl n magdalene.chionged hm 4 piano lesson.damn screwed also.kena scolded also.hai.muz really go n prac guitar n piano liao.if nt both concert n xam will die ...

yeahh.dats abt it.so ill b in msia frm 10th - 15th.lol.juz realised 15th is parent's weddin anniversary + father's day.haha.im nt allowed 2 bring hp along.so if ur sms me n i dun reply.im nt daoin u okk! :DD nt exactly a sightseein trip.so dun xpect pics! loll.most of u shuld hv received my love yeahh :DD hahaha.or LOVE LETTERS :D loll.juz short emails/offline msgs/tags yeahh (: take care okk! keep my tagboard alive! lol. LOVEYA ALL LOADS!! :DD

heres a joke to make u all SMILEE :D - a plane crashed.every single person died.except two who lived.why did they live? - bcoz they were MARRIED :DD haha.stay happy kkayes! like huihan says :D LIFE IS COLOURFUL! (:

thank you! (: take care & enjoy ur trip! dont think too much! stay happy & take care (:

sa rang hae yo.

# eversince #

`happy

2008-06-02T22:34:00.003+08:00

`INCOMPLETE

without you :D

you'll be in my heart;
yes you'll be in my heart;
from this day on;
now & forever more (:

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING GRACE A HAPPY GAL :D SPECIAL THANKS TO OCTOPUS BALL :D HUIHAN :D HUIYING :D CHERYL :D GRACE :D CELESTINE :D SHIYIN :D MAGDALENE :D THANK YOU HUIHAN FOR THE REALLY REALLY SWEET & COLOURFUL PIC! IT REALLY CHEERED ME UP :DD THANK YOU HUIYING FOR THE REALLY LONG LONG LUNCH CALL & ADVICES :DD THANK YOU CHERYL FOR PEIIN ME & ANWEIIN ME & TREATIN ME TO THE MOVIE :DD THANK YOU GRACE FOR BEING REALLY LAME BESIDE ME :DD THANK YOU CELESTINE FOR UR COMPANY :DD THANK YOU SHIYIN & MAGDALENE FOR PEIIN US IN THE TOILET :DD LOVEYA ALL LOADS & LOADS! :DDD

okk.shall stop e capsin :D thank God for such a happy day :DD went 4 guitar 2dae!was late again as usual :X although octopus ball woke me up at 725.daddy woke me up at 715.i still gt up at 8 :X hahaha.chionged 2 sch mann.knocked my leg on 265 lahh.now gt big blue black ): haha.met shiyin n celestine on 190.lol.was late but teacher didnt scold XD was laming wif e slacker gang again :DD we were decidin where 2 go n eat 4 a freakin long time :/ marina square? ps? far east? orchard? lido? taka? loll.went 2 e toilet 4 DAMN LONG :D hahaha.cheryl wanted me 2 retie my hair.coz i was rushing in e morning so only tied 1 ponytail.she wanted me tie back my 'QIAO' hairstyle.loll.so retied it.den slacker gang came in! me.cheryl.grace.magdalene.shiyin.celestine.we were like chatting n chatting.nt wanting 2 go backk :X played e concerto thing loads n loads of times.lol.hand pain liao.

went 4 lunch! me n cheryl were like walking walking.crossing e rd.b4 we even reached e middle.it was RED MAN.loll.ran across mann.hahaha.always hv 2 chiong de lahh.e ppl on both sides of e rd were like screamin at us.LOLL XD took 190 2 lido.haha.on e bus cheryl n i were steppin on each others feet.grace was laughin away.celestine was like 'can ur dun b so childish' LOLL.ate shrooms burger meal wif a chocolate chip subway cookie :DD haha.decided nt 2 eat e chocolate cream cake frm ljs coz we were running late.lol.we were making damn alot of noise lahh.haha.coz i was talkin 2 huiying on e phone.THANKS LOADS GAL :D haha.den GRACE was like drinkin my pepsi.eatin my mash potato.den CHERYL joined in!! so i was like screamin at dem.lol.cheryl started bein lame wif her MELTED CANDY :DD (inside joke) hahaha.me n grace were laughin like siao lahh.so i startd throwin e bubblegum at cheryl.it went back forth back forth.until kena confiscated by celestine coz we were makin 2 much noise n behavin like kids.LOLL.sent shiyin 2 mrt den we chionged back 2 schh.cheryl n i were bein lame again.copyin how rgs ppl walked.loll.heng.arrived back juz in time.

pracked n pracked.went 4 slackers toilet gatherin again XD took a damn long time.haha.i was fixin my hp coz i accidentally dropped it on e floor while playing guitar.it went totally haywire.haha.heng afterdat returned back 2 normal liao :DD was decidin whether 2 catch a movie or nt.hahaha.at 1st was decidin 2 pon e last part of guitar 2 watch movie :X ite didnt okk! :D was falling asleep during guitar.haha.everytime it reaches like 2+.ill b dozing off.coz play same song over n over again mahh.but quite slack lahh :DD guitar endedd.i finally decided 2 go.haha.magdalene culdnt make it.maria also.managed 2 persuade celestine 2 cm along :DD

once again.we were crossin e rd.this time i was stuck in e middle.den i was shoutin 2 celestine 2 cross.coz she wanted 2 go hm.hahaha.cheryl reached only 3/4.so e 3 of us chionged across again.LOLL.took 190 2 cineleisure.caught e 405 one.hahaha.on e way we were being lame again.I WAN 2 PP :DD MF.FFF LOLL (inside joke again XD) damn lame sia.THANK YOU CHERYL 4 TREATIN! :DD we were juz in time.haha.took 4 corner seats.cheryl bought a whole load of food.narnia combo (1 popcorn.2 coke). 1 pack of crispy chicken. m&ms. LOLL.

sat nxt 2 grace n cheryl.cheryl n i were makin damn alot of noise lahh.hahaha.grace n celestine were like STONE.dey had e damn sian face.hahaha.OH YA.we were sittin behind this couple.this guys hair spike until damn high lahh.hahaha.it was totally blockin e bottom part of e screen.frm my angle lahh.loll.i was tellin cheryl should gt a scissors n cut e bushh :X she started laughin like siao lahh.but afterdat wen he lean on his gf den i can see le lahh :DD celestine tinks prince caspian is hot! :DD hahaha.e guyz r all cute lahh :D was tuggin at cheryls jacket in sm points of e showw.grace was like coverin her face n pulling celestines sleeve.LOLL.afterdat she covered her mouthh.tink she wanted 2 shout sia.hahaha.e movie was NICEEEEE :DD but it was really longg.n sitting beside cheryl makes it damn funny n lame :DDD THANK YOU FOR THE MOVIE GALZ :DD

trained hm wif celestine.cheryl n grace cabbed back :D haha.tmr only left me.grace n celestine! cheryl is pangseiin us as usuall.loll.was quite late.kena scolded by mummy like siao.hai.now havin gastric.loll.aww man.this post is so longg.i nid go do theory liao!! arghhh.huihans pic cant b uploaded ): its so nice lohh.sorry gal! ill upload it wen bloggers no longer haywire :DD THANK YOU ALL WHO COMFORTED ME & ENCOURAGED ME :DD SORRY I GOT U ALL SO WORRIED YEAH.I WONT DO STUPID THINGS LE! (: THANK YOUU! :D thank you God for answering my prayers (:

thank you for the gdnite call! :D hope things stay this way yeah (: i really dont want to quarrel with you anymore.lets try to make it possible together kkayes (: thank you & sorry for everything! :D porkball LOVES octopus ball! :D

you'll be in my heart;
no matter what they say;
you'll be here in my heart;
always (:

# perfect #

`emo

2008-06-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

`screwed

2008-06-01T20:31:00.003+08:00

`BLEEDING

love.

nth much 2 blog abt ba (: kinda overslept coz i slept really late.was almost late 4 church.haha.skipped breakfast as usual.surprisingly i didnt feel hungry.although i barely ate dinner ytd nite.church was gd :D haha.teacher noticed smth wrong wif me.guess i was really sleepy n dazed.lol.

LIFE is like COTTON CANDY :D it is juz a ball of fluff with no substance inside.it may taste sweet at 1st but it slowly melts away.no matter how hard we try to grab it.there is still NOTHING.juz like the world.its juz an ILLUSIVE DREAM.there is really nothing there.we chase after it.ite it leads to a dead end.haha.juz smth to ponder abt (:

after church went 2 amk hub 2 eat.really had no appetite.mummy was scolding everybody.as usual.her bad mood lasts for at least a week.we r so gonna get it wen daddy flies again.ate really little.daddy sensed smth wrong wif me le.i tink dats yy he didnt take my hp also.thanks daddy (: went ntuc 2 buy stuff.bought loads man.afterdat went hm le.

simplicity is beauty :D haha.love my emo outfits :D im so falling in love wif my grey eyeshadow.haha.emo emo (: shall try 2 gt mre emo outfits.lol.blasting music is LOVE :D aww man.headaches cmin back again.

sorry huiying.i really didnt mean 2 do it.i juz culdnt help myself.i know if i tell u im okk u wont believe it.but yeah.thank you 4 being so concerned n spam calling me (: sorry i juz diverted all my calls away.i cant promise u dat i wont do it again.but ill try my best (: i know ive disappointed u.im sorry.im sorry for being so insensitive n living in my own world.i noe ive taken u all 4 granted.i thank u all for always being by my side wheneva i needed u (: im really sorry.but i assure u i wont hurt myself kkayes.as in it will only b on e surface ya.i dont hv dat much courage (: sorry & thank you (:

thanks cheryl 4 always being so lame.haha.thanks 4 ur really super duper lame call u gave me.HI BYE PIGHEAD POK :D thanks 4 last nite too.by trying 2 divert my attention away.n peiin me all e way till i logged off (: lol.hope u werent late 4 tuition 2dae.haha.thank you (:

the songs sung today in church really touched my heart (: trust & obey.i guess i didnt trust nor did i obey God.that is why i ended up in this state today.maybe if i had obeyed him.things would not have turned out this way.the illusive dream.what am i after for in this world? i realised how foolish i was to think that the world was everything.i admit i did neglect God for all the worldly pleasure.for all the things that turned out to be nothing.there is no greater love than this.true enough.God loves me the most.more than anybody can.He sent his Son to die on the cross for all my sins.yet i am still so disobedient.unwillingly to change my ways.my stubbornness has disappointed him.blessed assurance.sometimes i wish i was blind.like what teacher said.our eyes are usually what makes us sin.if we dont see something we like.we would not be tempted.if i didnt all that i didnt want to see.i would be a much happier person.ignorance is bliss (: God.i am sorry.please work your way into my life and save me from my sea of sin.

ive nothing more to say to you.we've come a long long way.been through so much together.we never fail to quarrel and patch up everyday.times were sweet.times were bitter.hopefully it all gets sorted out tonight (: a fairytale ending maybe?

i am torn.

# bittersweet memories #

`walk

2008-05-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

`UNBREAK

my heart ♥

the cracks on my heart leave me shattered;
never to be pieced back together again

2dae was a rather boring dae (: went 4 tuition! :D kena scolded by mummy (AGAIN :/) 4 dressin up like a GHOST -.- wthh lahh.i love my emo outfits :D i looked like a ghost last wk already.haha.but 2dae was worst X) haha.decided 2 mix n match 2dae.so wore my black & white tank top wif my halter n my black skirt :D put on my grey eyeshadow + blusher.haha.im fallin in love wif my grey eye shadow :DD used 2 b in love wif white.haha.e grey eyeshadow makes my eyes seem as though i juz kena boxed by sm1.loll.tgt wif my black star & moon necklace n black & white disco earrins.yayy.EMO OUTFITS ARE THE LOVE :D

was late 4 tuition again.oh ya.thanks 4 morning call (: daddy n mummy supposed 2 confiscate my hp.but i tink dey 4gt :/ or mayb dey see me so emo liao dun wanna kaqiao me.or mayb dey will juz ask 4 it tmr :/ damn headache during tuition.tink its due 2 lack of sleep ba.hai.wahhh.very long nv do tuition hw liao.coz usually gt sch hw 2 do.but dis wk no mre.so did tuition hw.did 2 wks.gt hw liao :/

trained hm.as usual.i take my own sweet time 2 walk 2 newton mrt.sat at e train station watchin all e trains pass by.haha.used 2 doin dat every wk (: watchin e trains cm n go.lol.trained back 2 yck.took 265 back.BLASTIN MUSIC IS E LOVE :D ill really die w/o my ipod X)

afternoon went out.dun really wann say wad happened.aniwaes.bused 2 amk hub :D walked aroundd.gt quite boredd.smsed huiying.haha.called cheryll.gd gal picked up durin ll XD hahaha.wthh lah.michelle tot i was her lesbian partner :/ ehhh.homo gf sounds so much nicer :DD loll.she had tuition so i culdnt drag her 2 e arcade.CHERYL U OWE ME ONE XD walked 2 amk library.haha.den walked 2 amk park.

thank you huiying! (: sorry 4 disturbin u durin ur violin lesson.SORRYY!walked around amk park.den walked back hm.haha.i burned alot of calories 2dae.walked so muchh :D 1 1/2hr non-stop.loll.felt so much better afterdat.i love blastin my music :D reached hm.was supposed 2 meet huiying at j8.but parents didnt allow me 2 go out animre -.- hai.

omg.i juz realised my dinners still on e table.shit.haha.yeahh.guess dats abt it.shall go sleep soon.there's still church tmr.haha.shall pick another emo outfit :D ive a feeling ill b late tmr :X

THANK YOU ALL 4 TAGGIN! (: THANK YOU ALL 4 E ENCOURAGEMENTS! (: THANK YOU FOR TRYING TO CHEER ME UP! (: LOVEYA ALL LOADS! :D

i will carry you - clay aiken

yeah i know it hurts

yeah i know you're scared

walking down the road that leads

to who knows where

don't you hang your head

don't you give up yet

when courage starts to disappear

i will be right here

when your wall breaks down

and the voices tell you turn around

when your dreams give out

i will carry you

carry you

when the stars go blind

and the darkness starts to flood your eyes

when you're falling behind

i will carry you

everybody cries

everybody bleeds

no one ever said that

life's an easy thing

that’s the beauty of it

when you lose your way

close your eyes and go to sleep

and wake up to another day

when your wall breaks down
and the voices tell you turn around
when your dreams give out
i will carry you
carry you
-

when the stars go blind
and the darkness starts to flood your eyes
when you're falling behind
i will carry you

you should know now

that your not alone

take my heart and we will find

you will find

your way home

when your dreams give out

i will carry you

carry you

when the stars go blind

and the darkness starts to flood your eyes

when you're falling behind

i will carry you

carry you

i will carry you

carry you

i will carry you

carry you

i will carry you

(carry you)

what's the point? u always give me hope only to dash it in the end. can u not give me hope anymore? can u give me hope only wen u noe ur able to do it? stop lying.will u.if ur nt sick of it.im.maybe i should have come to my senses earlier.im not even worth a friend ...

as my teardrops fall;

i fall deeper & deeper;

into that bottomless pit of love

# disappear #

`heartbreak

2008-05-31T13:52:00.006+08:00

`DREAMS

will always only remain as dreams.

dun wanna blog abt wads happenin these few daes.but juz wanna say special thanks 2 CHERYL my homo bf 4 callin 2 check up on me ytd luhh :D haha.see i so nice ritee.lol.jkjk.although u nv fail 2 irritate me n pangsei me durin guitar.but yeah.weneva u realise deres smth wrong wif me.ull always check up on me.so yupp.thanks 4 ur call last nite.haha.thanks 4 tryin 2 cheer me up n nt stop me frm cryin.it really helped gal (: im okk lahh.u cant really help me wif anithin.but u can tao pok him! :D lol.its juz nt as simple as u tink lah (: but ill b okk! so dun worry ya (:

in e meantime.shall do e quiz tagged by huihan! :D her answers r damn cute lahh.loll (:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged By: orangey orange HUIHAN :D

if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

depends ba.at most juz take a knife n kill him lohh.LOL.but den again.it wont b worth it if i went 2 jail bcoz of him rite.haha.juz heck him n let him rot n die lahh.

if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

i would nv wanna grow up.or even better.nv born in2 this world.haha :D aiya.JUZ BAN SCHH LUHH XD

what will your dream wedding be like?

hmmm.shant tell u :D

are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

kinda.mre den juz confused.

what's your ideal lover like?

ermmm.ive a whole long list of criterias (:

which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

being loved.

how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

depends lah.forever wuld b lying.he may not even b worth e wait.

if the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?

go 4 sm1 else lohh.dere is mre den one guy in e world.

is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?

hell loads of dem.esp.you.

is being tagged fun?

lol.okk lahh.juz dun tag damn lame stuff (:

do you see yourself in ten years time?

no.i may nt even live till den :D

what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

haha.a really bubbly n highh gal! :D great singer too! :D thanks 4 everythin! (:

would you rather to be single and rich or married but poor?

depends on whether e marriage is happy or nt.if it isnt.i rather b single n rich n FREE :D

what's the first thing you do every morning?

switch off my alarm XD

would you give all in a relationship?

yeah.i guess so.

if you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?

haha.the one who loves me mre (:

do you believe in love at first sight?

yupp (:

if given the chance to turn back time, will you?

yes.definitely.

what is the last thing you would do before you die?

i will gt cheryl 2 give me my HOT PINK coffin! :D hahaha.

8 people to be tagged:
- huiying
- cheryl
- joan
- rachel
- yunshu
- kelly
- brian
- whoeva else dat wans 2 b tagged (:

REVERBERE '08!

RGGE

RJC AUDITORIUM

7.30-9.30

5th July 2008

$12

ani1 interested juz gt e tickets frm me yeah (:

God.please help me through this (: i cant take it any longer.God.carry me through (:

is it you - cassie

i'm looking for a lover not a friend

somebody who can be there

when i need someone to talk to

i'm looking for someone who won't pretend

somebody not afraid to say

the way they feel about you

and i'm looking for someone who understands how i feel

someone who can keep me real and who knows the way

the way i like to have it my way

and i'm looking for someone who takes me there

wants to share shows he cares

im thinking you're the one that i've been waiting for

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me?

could you be the one i need?

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me? (could you be?)

could you be the one i need?

i'm looking for someone to share my pain (uh)

someone who i can run to

who will stay with me when it rains

someone who i can cry with through the night

someone who i can trust who's heart is right

and i'm looking for someone

and i'm looking for someone who understands how i feel

someone who can keep me real and who knows the way

the way i like to have it my way

and i'm looking for someone who takes me there

wants to share shows he cares

im thinking you're the one that i've been waiting for

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me? (is it you?)

could you be the one i need?

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me?

could you be this one i need?

someone who wont take for granted

how much i care (how much i care)

and appreciates that i'm there

someone who listen

and someone i can call

who isn't afraid of love to share

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me?

could you be the one I need?

is it you? is it you?

maybe you're the one i've been waiting for

could you be the one for me?

could you be the one I need?

i feel so exhausted.i wanna stop now.we keep thinking its alright.its over.its okk.we just cover it up thinking its not there.we'll change.i wont do it again.it wont happen again.does it really work out that way?doesnt history always repeat itself? im totally numb now.im juz so used to all this.it happens every mnth.every week.every day.will it ever work out?

you will never understand.

# empty #

`heartbroken

2008-05-30T20:03:00.011+08:00

JUZ GO AWAY.

&& dont ever come back

i hate you.

`sad

2008-05-29T21:22:00.005+08:00

`BROKEN

smile (:

somehow it juz feels so wrong.

unlike ytd.2dae was e exact opp.dun really feel like bloggin.so shall juz post a song (: haha.mep camps song.really nice :D

i do (cherish you) - mep camp version (:

all i am

all i'll be

everything in this world

all that i'll ever need

is in your eyes

shining at me

when you smile i can feel

all my passion unfolding

your hand brushes mine

and a thousand sensations

seduce me 'cause i

i do

cherish you

for the rest of my life

you don't have to think twice

i will

love you still

from the depths of my soul

it's beyond my control

i've waited so long

to say this to you

if you're asking do i love you this much

i do

in my world

before you

i lived outside my emotions

didn't know where i was going

'til that day

i found you

how you opened my life

to a new paradise

in a world torn by change

still with all my heart

'til my dying day

i do cherish you (i'll always love you baby)

for the rest of my life

you don't have to think twice

i will (i'll aways love you baby)

love you still (this much i always will)

from the depths of my soul

it's beyond my control

i've waited so long

to say this to you

if you're asking do i love you this much

yes i do

(i really love you) i do

if you're asking do i love you this much

baby i do (i'll always love you baby)

cherish you (this much i always will)

from the rest of my life

you don't have to think twice

i will (i'll always love you baby)

love you still (this much i always will)

from the depths of my soul

it's beyond my control

i've waited so long

to say this to you

if you're asking do i love you this much

baby i do

i do

if you're asking do i love you this much

baby i do

i do

i do (cherish you) - 98 degrees (:

all i am
all i'll be
everything in this world
all that i'll ever need
is in your eyes
shining at me
when you smile i can feel
all my passion unfolding
your hand brushes mine
and a thousand sensations
seduce me 'cause i

i do
cherish you
for the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
i will
love you still
from the depths of my soul
it's beyond my control
i've waited so long
to say this to you
if you're asking do i love you this much
i do (oh baby)

in my world
before you
i lived outside my emotions
didn't know where i was going
'til that day
i found you
how you opened my life
to a new paradise
in a world torn by change
still with all my heart
'til my dying day

i do (i'll cherish you my baby)

cherish you (so much i know is true)

for the rest of my life

you don't have to think twice

i will (i'll aways love you baby)

love you still (this much i know is true)

from the depths of my soul

it's beyond my control

i've waited so long

to say this to you

if you're asking do i love you this much

yes i do (i really love you)

(i really love you)

if you're asking do i love you this much

baby i do

i'll cherish you my baby (cherish you)

(this much i know is true)

from the depths of my soul

it's beyond my control

i've waited so long

to say this to you

if you're asking do i love you this much

baby i do

i do

nice song rite (: haha.so in love wif it :D i kinda miss mep camp.lol (:

i really dunnoe what to do now.im sorry.hopefully it will all turn out right yeah (: porkball LOVES octopus ball (:

mayb its time to let go.

juz mayb (:

i love walking in the rain;
coz no one knows im crying.

# guardian angel #

`mep camp

2008-05-28T23:38:00.003+08:00

`TIME

of my life :D

2dae cant get any better!! like really really :D 2dae was GREAT.AWSOME.FANTASTIC.FABULOUSLY INCREDIBLE :DD hehe.GRACE is a VERY HAPPY gal!! :DD thank God.really.without his help.today would have been one of the worst days of my life.but He helped me.He gave me the courage and confidence.the strength and perseverance to carry on.thank you God :D

woke up at 715.i stared at my hp.OMG.i jumped out of bed lahh.was supposed 2 meet huiying at macs at 730.haha.SORRYYY!smsed huiying.spammed called her.i tot she was still sleepin lahh.totally daoed me.loll.she arrived at 750.i arrived at 8.haha.had 2 go toilet 2 tie my hair.so she followed.peixin came in soon after! :D lol.ate breakfast.den started walkin 2 RI.

was quite early sia :D haha.but i was damn tiredd lohh.really wanted 2 sleep liao.split in2 grps 2 learn a song.haha.turned out quite nice lehh :D i love dat song!! (octopus ball u muz learn it! hahaha.juz jkjk) broke 2 in2 our grp 4 grp meetings.lol.started wkin on our diff parts.sops were doin e chorus.altos were doin intro n verse.basses n tenors were doin bridge (: haha.altos spent half e time stonin lahh.we were like sittin dere starin at each other.loll.

went 2 listen 2 a piano performance.wahh.e guy damn zai.haha.afterdat was lunch.didnt exactly feel like eatin.i felt like i was gonna collapse lahh.so tiredd.haha.hurried back 2 our classrooms 2 continue working on our song :D soon after.teachers started cmin in 2 check if we needed help n stuff.haha.so e arrangement teacher came 2 check.n helped us along wif sm parts.kena chosen 2 sing wif huihan solo.mann.haha.at 1st quite scared lahh.coz i noe i dun hv a powerful voice.so pracked n pracked n pracked.tink we sounded quite nice :DD

e boyz went 2 choreograph sm dance moves.damn cute lahh.every1 was laughin like siao.laugh until me n huihan culdnt sing properly.LOL.thanks huihan 4 e choc.it really helped :D haha.sing until throat pain lohh.kept drinkin water :D loll.afterdat wen we put it all tgt it turned out really great! :D haha.sops went 4 break.while e rest stayed bhind 2 prac more.afterdat.had 2 proceed 2 e lecture theatre 4 performance liao.

was totally freakin out lohh.THANK YOU 4 ALL E ENCOURAGEMENTS N HUGS! :D really culdnt hv done it w/o u all (: thank you God (: it turned out really good! :D hahaha.e audience was really entertained.esp by e boyz damn funny dance.LOLL.great job on e 3rds huihan! :D haha.we won best choreography! :D although we didnt win e rest.but we all enjoyed ourselves!! :DD dats e BEST part ritee :DD hahaha.was really laughin thruout e day.all e jokes.all e funn.haha.ORANGEY ORANGE IS THE LOVEE XD haha.was really like PHEW.after it ended.coz i was damn nervous lohh.so many ppl.nv done it b4.i ALWAYS gt stagefright.my hand was shakin while singin lahh.loll.but ppl said i did well :D THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN 4 ALL E ENCOURAGEMENTS! :D I LOVE ORANGEY ORANGE!! :DD

went 2 eat mac fries again wif huiying ; kelly ; renci.haha.was already really happy.wad made me even happier was dat octopus ball called :DD hahaha.i was like jumpin up n down lohh.yayy.dat few mins really made a big big diff :DD thank you octopus ball!! :DD hehe.so was really really happy afterdat.wad was even better.was dat i met melody ; lynette goh ; yufang!! :D yufang juz came back frm obs.haha.she looked really tired n tann.loll.hugged her n told her abit abt wads happenin in guitar.shes cmin back 2 prac :DD yayy!!haha.chatted wif melody n lynette 4 like super longg.like 1/2hr lahh.I MISS SNGS!! SNGS IS THE LOVEE :DD haha.i miss e old dayss.yeahh.was being damn lame lohh.suddenly talked abt jokes.den 2 our figures.den 2 sngs performin arts concert.loll.chionged hm 2 prac piano.

by den i was super duper happy le lohh.haha.was rather late 4 piano lesson.coz after havin stagefright.i always will kena headache n stomachache.so didnt really feel like eatin.went 4 piano lesson.damn unprepared lahh.den teacher told me smthh dat made me jump like siaoo. 'ur results r out' 'huhh.wad results??' 'ur theory xam' 'omgg.gd or ntt.' 'very gdd.90' 'yay!huh.dat means i missed distinction by 1 mark?' 'nope.distinction wadd' (jumps up n down) hahaha.juz gt it lohh.lol.so happy so happy :DD but my pieces totally sucked lahh.lol.she told me if i wanna maintain my distinction 4 practical muz really practise le.loll.i shall make it my goal.1 hr per day! :DD

haha.damn tired noww.but e best things dat octopus balls back tmrr! :DD hahaha.so happy so happy.2dae has been such a wonderful day XD i really really thank God for it (: it culdnt gt any better.mayb huiyings really right lehh.omgg.so freaky.loll.THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO MADE TODAY SUCH A HAPPY N SPECIAL ONE! :DD ORANGEY ORANGE IS LOVE :DD

<3 LOVES (:

hehe.its over its over.its finally over.juz a few mre hrs :DD octopus ball muz rmb wad u promised horr :DD cannot fan hui ahhh.hehe.shall hurry go sleep now.cant wait 4 tmr! :D porkball LOVES octopus ball! :DD

looking for that magic rainbow (:

# forever #

`mep camp

2008-05-27T23:53:00.001+08:00

`LEFT

alone behind ):

24 hrs mre ... so cant wait 2 gt over wif it (: dun exactly feel like bloggin.so shall make this short n sweet (: haha.as promised.here goes (:

dragged myself 2 j8.lol.was late again.sorry huiying! (: lunched at food court.talked talked.haha.den realised dat we were like erm late.so started walkin 2 RI.met rachel ; renci they all too.haha.we kinda gt lost lohh.but found our way ite.thanks 2 rencis ermm 'follow ani guy carryin an instrument' LOL.

mep camp was kinda okk lahh.juz dat i was really tiredd.same grp as rebecca n yuhan (: haha.i always seem 2 b in e same grp as rebecca :D started wif icebreakers.was kinda lame though.lol.den went 4 a super long talk on how 2 arrange songs.kena called 2 answer question.'e rgs gal wearin e white specs.e cool white specs' loll.yy do ppl always recognise me 4 my specs.haha.

had tea break whereby we all sat by our schs instead.lol.quite okk lahh.didnt eat much.had no appetite.continued wif e talk.haha.i tink e songs r damn cool.e way dey arrange it :D went 4 another talk.teach us how 2 breathe.sing.project our voices etc etc.haha.by dat time i was really tired.lol.we sounded quite nice sia wen everybody sang tgt.e solos were even better :D

met tgt 4 grp discussion.tink e song we r gonna arrange is wont go home without you (: walked back 2 j8.huiying n kelly persuaded me 2 eat fries b4 headin hm.so had large fries while we chit-chat (: daddy picked me up frm opp j8.

went hm eat dinner.really no appetite so took a damn long time 2 eat.dozed off afterddat.finished up theory.im supposed 2 b prackin piano now.lol.its like past midnite.shall prack abit b4 sleepin ba.or else im so dead tmr (:

thank you God for bringing me through today (: hopefully tomorrow will be better (: God.please help me to stay strong and be able to last through just a few more hours of pain and heartache (:

aw mann.gastrics cmin back again.been havin gastric damn alot of times these few daes.hai.hope it goes away soon (: shall hurry go sleep le after prackin piano.meetin huiying at macs 4 breakfast tmr :D

missin u loads octopus ball ): cm back soon yeah (: take loads n loads n loads n loads of care! rmb 2 charge ur hp horr (: haha.porkball LOVES octopus ball! :D ~~i wasnt so strong.im nt so strong n nv will b dat strong ... im sorry ...~~

i juz cant seem to stop my tears from falling.

# gone #

`guitar

2008-05-27T09:57:00.003+08:00

`LIFE

is like a symphony ...

haha.im bloggin now juz b4 mep camp :DD gtg soon luhh.but im damn tired lohh.dun exactly feel like goin :X goin 2 sing smmre.lol.hopefully with God's help.everything will turn out just right again :D

ytds guitar was damn funn! :DD hahaha.yess yess.i was late again XDD LOL.i shuld seriously gt dat 'little miss late' shirt X) 'i was caught in the rain' 'HUH.wad rain?!' 'ermm.e rain shower??' 'orhhh.okk' LOLL.damn funny lahh.hahaha.chatted wif shiyin abt ytds concert.she said me n octopus ball look very pei tgt.loll.

was supposed 2 prac part 2.but we all ended up chattin insteadd.hahaha.cheryl was lettin me play wif her bandss.n grace culdnt stop laughin at how lame we culd gt :DD den came down 4 ensemble pracc.pracc pracc.had 2 go out n do sectional prac again.LOLL.dis time grace ; me ; cheryl went 2 e toilet.met shiyin n celestine in dere too.hahaha.we spent a damn long time inside dere lahh.yeahh.coz i was tyin my hair :DD

went 4 lunch.we totally culdnt decide where 2 go mann.LOL.shiyin n celestine went 2 lgs.grace ; cheryl ; maria ; chengjing ; me finally decided on subway.shared subway melt wif grace.hahaha.i love m&m cookies! XDD met anna ; zhenling ; priya dere.as usual.i took e longest time 2 eat.so every1 was waitin 4 me again.LOL.chatted abt damn lame stuff lohh.still rmb e time wen grace ; chengjing ; maria ; me went 2 ps bk 2 eat :DD loll.memories siaa XD went 2 far east 2 buy cheryls bands.chengjing n maria went back 1st.cheryl culdnt find e place lahh! loll.ite she bought liao gave me 4 :DD yayy! THANK YOUU! hahaha.still cant believe how grace manage 2 extort $6 frm her lohh! no fairr! LOLL.

headed back 2 schh.we were NOT late :D chionged 4 105 lehh!but missed it.hahaha.so took e nxt 190.went 4 sectional prac again.spent most of e time writing notes 4 cheryl n grace.LOL.totally freaked april out wen cheryl told her i was a TRI.hahahaha.jkk only wadd.i still tink jeannettes n yutians hoodie damn cool XD was lamin wif grace n cheryl again.damn funny sia.afterdat went toilet wif magdalene ; grace ; cheryl.took a damn long time again.not me horr! XD loll.i was fallin asleep durin ensemble prac.damn sleepy le.haha.

decided 2 take mrt back hm.so went 2 far east wif magdalene ; grace ; cheryl.dey bought bubble tea.haha.cheryl let me try abit.nice nicee :DD haha.walked 2 orchard mrt.culd decide which entrance 2 go to.LOLL.while waitin 4 e train.started playin wif cheryls hp.guess who we called! DAVID!! :DD hahaha.cheryl was hoppin madd lahh.so sad culdnt see wad happened.coz my train came.so said buhbyee den left le lohh.

okok.i tink i better go 4 mep camp liao.meetin huiying at j8 2 eat 1st :DD hahaha.we both always late de XD i wonder wads happenin at guitar! lol.dey mayb goin 4 movie n gelare 2dae! haha.i agreed ytd coz i 4gt abt camp 2dae lohh.will b missin out all e fun ): loll.hope dey enjoy themselves loads! :DD hai.i cant wait 4 thursdayy (: God will make a way.when there seems to be no way (:

thank you octopus ball 4 mornin call! (: take loads of care at bsp camp ahh! cant wait cant wait 4 thurs! :D dun worry abt me! ill b okkk (: haha.imy! porkball LOVES octopus ball :DD

of different melodies (:

# choices #

`redrain

2008-05-25T23:04:00.003+08:00

`ROCK

my world baby! :D

hahaha.damn tired now luhh.im about 2 collapse liao.loll.ytd was an unhappy day so shant talk abt it (: BUTT.2dae was GREAT! :D loll.went 4 churchh.den went 4 REDRAIN's concert at HEART OF GOD CHURCH :D i was quite reluctant abt goin at 1st coz im really shy lohh den dunnoe anibody there.except octopus ball.den 4 sure he will pangsei me n run off wif his frenz de XD loll.but prayed to God about it.n i went ite! X) was really glad i did :D

IT WAS FANTASTIC! :D but im xhausted noww.haha.stood for like dunnoe how longg.but it was worth it! haha.okk.aniwaes.was dozin off durin church :X sorry sorry! i was fallin sick le lahh.ytd had nosebleed.headache.stomachache.haha.i haven had nosebleed in ages X) so after church.daddy n mummy asked if i was well enuff 2 go.i was like yeah! LOL. dey culdnt send me dere coz dey had 2 collect sm stuff 1st b4 goin n i wuld definetely b late.so trained 2 paya lebar :D okk.i took my time :X coz it was at 3 mahh!n i was known 4 bein late.LOL.i was at city hall waitin 4 e train.den i tot i drink sm water.den how i noe my bottle was LEAKIN :/ hahaha.chionged up 2 raffles city 2 empty it.lol.on e way back 2 mrt.octopus ball called.den he told me there was a whole bunch of guyz waitin dere i was like HUHHHHHHH.so by e time i chionged dere i made dem wait 4 like 1/2 hrr.SORRYYYY! :D haha.said hello n all (: until now i still dunnoe all their names lohhh.LOL.there was octopus ball ; darren ; jonathan ; lum bin ; chun kit n smmre i tinkk.sorryyyy i dunnoe ur namess.loll.

walked 2 HOGC (: octopus ball told me chun kit was sayin 'lets say grace for grace' b4 i came.LOLL.entered e auditorium.we sat quite infrnt! my row had me ; octopus ball ; darren.infrnt of us was jonathan ; lumbin ; chun kit n deir grp of frenz.i turned my headd.GUESS WHO I SAWWW.hahaha.SHIYIN!! yeahh.she was pretty pretty :DD LOLL.so unxpected lahh.said hi 2 her! she was like OMGGG.didnt gt 2 chat much coz concert was startin liao.

yeahh.so e atmosphere was really gdd.everyone was high highhh! jumpin aroundd.wavin deir arms.ya noee.hahaha.but me ; octopus ball ; darren ; jonathan were like stonin dere.shiyin also!! LOL.e rest were all jumpin up n down! e floor was shakin okkk.hahaha.lum bin was damn enthu lohh.he was like up down up down.afterdat he was really perspirin like siao.loll.den shiyin tried 2 snap a photo of me n octopus ball lohhh.hahaha.but she ended up gettin a patch of blurrr.so she deleted it XD den she n her frenz kept starin at me n octopus ball lohh.LOLL.

den dere was a dance comp!hahaha.dey each gt free cds.haha.den dey started throwin cds.i was like 'dun throw here.dun throw here' PIACKK.e cd lended in frnt of me.NT in one piece.BUT in many many pieces.hahaha.but i still gt it! XDD juz dat e cd covers kinda broken.loll.its e cd dat matters :DD i realised i cant stand 4 very longg.hahaha.my legs were really achin lohh.den dey said we culd sit downn XD loll.had a prayer and message.followed by testimonials :DD afterdat it was songs againn!! hahaha.every1 was higher den evaa :DD LOLL.i loveee e sounds n lightingss :DD hahaha.octopus ball was damn funnyy luhh.nvmm nvmm X)) hehe.blur blurr :DD

red ball balls started flyin all over e placee.hahaha.damnn cool luhh!dey kept flyin at me.den octopus ball tried 2 hit it awayy.LOLL.was damn funn 2 see dem flyin here.flyin dere.hahaha.so everyone was jumpin here jumpin dere.damnn highhh.after finale.shouted.we wan mre we wan mre!hahaha.den had GRAND finale :DDD den endd liao.aiyo.hahaha.sat down n wait lohh.chatted wif shiyin n her frenz :DD i saw manee! XDD hahaha.so unxpected.n a few of my sngs batchmatess.loll.started talkin 2 all of dem.den we had 2 do sm stuff 4 international podcast! i culdnt scream siaa.sore throat mahh.den all of a sudden.e boyz all started screamin.hahaha.dey were like as high as us girlz lahh.LOLL.i didnt noe octopus ball culd go dat high XDD hahaha.den we sat down n chatted againn.octopus ball damn cute luhhh XDD hahaha.inside jokee :DDD did i mention darren had a really cool bag n belt :DD LOLL.afterdat a few of deir church frenz came n talked 2 us.roy ; joanne ; weijie if i didnt rmb wronglyy XDD ive quite bad memoryy.den chun kit took his 'stick' thingy n tapped me.pretend nth happen n walked away.hahaha.i turned around n his fren pointed at himm wif dat 'i didnt do anithin' look.LOLL.damn cute luhh :DD hahaha.culdnt go makan wif dem coz parents wanted me hm.so went hm wif octopus ball.while e rest go makan :DD

trained back hm! hahaha.blur blur octopus ball lahh :DDDD muz take mrt mre often luhh u! LOLL.i culd only take 2 bishan coz parents insisted on pickin me upp.so octopus ball took 2 yck on his own ): hahaha.had pizza hut 4 dinner.nice nice :DD but im really full now.haha.ive 2 go sleep soon.deres guitar tmrrr.awww mann.THANK YOU ALL WHO MADE TODAY REALLY GREAT N SPECIALL! :DD

oh ya.gt back results.haha.okk lahh.better den i xpected :DD thank you God for everything (: i tink everything went well because of God was helping me.he gave me strength when i was about to give up.thank you God :D

thank you octopus ball! :DD hehe.take care yeah! porkball LOVES octopus ball! :DD

my home is in you.

# signs #

`sick

2008-05-22T15:33:00.001+08:00

`TOMORROW

will always be sweeter than the day before (:

hehe.shall make this a very short post (i hope XD) juz hung up wif octopus ball.he went 2 bathe :DD he bathe damn fast lohh.nt like me.hahaha X)

left sch at 8+ 2dae.felt like collapsin in schh.so came hm early.felt damn sick lohh.flu since tues.den had headache smmre ): called dadyy n mummy.i nv sa jiao lohh!haha.they said i culd go hm.loll.so went 2 class 2 take my bagg.haha.i walked in2 class n said 'gd mornin.im goin hm' den everybody laughed lahh.i was like blur blur standin dere.hahaha.teacher was like 'juz as i was about 2 say ur health constituition has improved.now ur goin hm' LOL.den she asked me 2 cut short my discussion wif my 'boyfren' vidya.WTHH.den kena scolded in e GO again.wthh.i cant stand goin dere.scold me yy i cm 2 sch :/ scold me 4 my fanciful hair -.-

took bus backk.i tink ppl tink i play truant lahh.haha.bus uncles r so nice :DD coz i look like sm sick pig walkin upp.so dey waited 4 me 2 take out my coins (ez link bo $$) den sit down.den dey move :DD i pay le dey still will nod their head n smile.haha.so nice :DD

reached hm at 9+.called mummy (: called GO :/ loll.was damn hungry.so ate my breakfast while watchin american idol.haha.snacked on loads of biscuits too.im such a pig XD slept frm 10+ all e way to 1+ wen octopus ball called :D lucky him sch end so earlyy.haha.octopus ball juz came on 4 a while n went off liao ):

i still feel like sleepin now lohh.lol.but muz complete geog by dinner time.still gtg 4 mep concert 2nite.haha.i still dunnoe how 2 gt dere! waterloo street.hmmmmm ... okok.shall gt back 2 my geog!loll.or else i cant sleep again 2nite.goshh.i cant wait 2 gt rid of my panda eyes :/ horrible panda eyes.haha.

SORRY 4 PANGSEI-IN HOMOs IN SCHH! dunn emo yeahh! n dun worry! im okkk :DD thanks 4 everything yeah! :DD take caree! LOVEYA ALL! HAPPY HOLS! :DD

thank you octopus ball! 4 peiin me e past few nites! sorry 4 makin u sleep so late ): dun worry abt me kkayes! im okk! :DD thanks 4 everything n everything! :DD hehe.porkball LOVES octopus ball! :DD

because you are here (:

# sweet love #

`tired

2008-05-20T20:47:00.003+08:00

`DROWNING

in your love (:

haha.okk.shall make this a very short post! (since he has posted :D) lol.no lahh.im really tiredd :/ still gt eng expo tmr.ahhhhh.feel like juz dropping dead.lol.muz chiong geog assignment 2nite! coz tmr gt piano lesson + mep.so ill b hm at like 10+ ): hai.wad a long dayy.oh well. 3 mre daes 2 friday! friday no lessons XDD 4 mre days 2 sat! start of hols! YAYYY :DD

went 4 guitar 2dae! its been a long long time since i went.loll.was like sight readin everything lahh! blur blur one.so tired smmre.i slept durin hist :X loll.yeahh.i broke a naill.haha.but nt exactly broke lahh.juz like chipped off slightly :DD lol.now typin also pain lohh! so long nv touch my guitar le.aiyo.muz prack like siao durin hols :DD

dc 2dae was damn siann lahhh.haha.dunnoe write how many reflections in rgs liao.every yr confirm will write one XD lessons were quite slack lahh.juz 2 mre daes of lesson! :D BUTT deres hw :/ wahlaoo ehhh.deres like loads of pts n hww.hols = teachers dump hw on us.loll.haii ):

okok.i shall get back 2 my geog + eng + piano! XD or else i wun get 2 sleep 2nite.haha.juz a few mre daes 2 go! jiayou jiayou! :DD

hehe.thank you thank you! :D hopefully things will stay this wayy! muz bao chi horrr :DD yayy! porkball love octopus ball! :DD

you are the one and i cant let you go (:

# stronger #

I love the world

2008-05-20T20:11:00.004+08:00

`G♥ B(:

"The way you light up my life"

Utopia. An ideal place or state.
That is where I feel i currently reside in^^I feel the world dancing to my heartbeat, and the birds singing along to my melodies.

Just had guitar today, and I hurt my finger:( Stupid guitar broke my nail smmore.Ouch!>: Bt oh well, there are other positive aspects of life to appreciate and relish instead of lamenting over my broken finger nail:P

I dunno why, but since yest nite, up till todae, I hve been feelin really happy and highhhXP Guess its cause I feel things are already smooth sailing fer mee lee:) OH OH! and e hols r comin soon!! Cant wait to go out with all of my fwens!!hehe. Jst a few mre days lohhh! Esp to Sat^^
I must hang in dere! Grace, u can do itt!!XDD

Top of the world- Carpenters

Such a feelins comin over me

There is wonder in most everything I see

Not a cloud in the sky

Got the sun in my eyes

And I wont be surprised if its a dream

Everything I want the world to be

Is now coming true especially for me

And the reason is clear

Its because you are here

Youre the nearest thing to heaven that Ive seen

(*) Im on the top of the world lookin down on creation

And the only explanation I can find

Is the love that Ive found ever since youve been around

Your loves put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name

And its tellin me that things are not the same

In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze

Theres a pleasin sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind

When this day is through I hope that I will find

That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me

All I need will be mine if you are here

All my happiness can be summed up with this songXD

Just 3 words from you is enough to melt my heart.

#Lifes' sweetest pleasure#

`end

2008-05-15T23:57:00.005+08:00

`PROMISE

made to each other (:

its all over! :DD hahaha.okk.im in a gd mood 2dae! XD but damn tired lahh.haha.i wanna get rid of my panda eyess! :DD

aniwaes.gt back results le! hahaha.ermm.nt very well done ba.but thank God i passed all EXCEPT eng.LOL.yeahh.i failed compre once again! hahaha.muz kao compo 2 pull up again :DD was quite surprised 4 hist n geog (: i conclude dat humans rawk! n sciences suck.hahaha XDD but its really all thanks to God.without him.i would not have the strength and wisdom to complete the papers.i thank you God (:

2dae was quite slack lahh.juz collect papers n rs only.ice cream is the LOVE :DD haha.im sure im gonna gt diabetes soon XDD was sleepin in e library lohh.i found a comfy spot which was like kinda hidden.but den a teacher still spotted me.'sleepin beauty.i dun tink ur supposed 2 b sleepin in e library' 'okk.sorry' 'if u really wan 2.go gt a boring hist bk 2 read n use it 2 cover ur face' 'erm.okk.' LOLL.went hm quite early 2dae.slept till likt 730 XD piggie me.haha.sm1 else too okkk :DDD loll X)

sorry 4 emoin like last few daes! thus nt replyin tags n bein so dao in sch.online.SORRYY! (: haha.thanks 4 everythin!! :D yupp.THANK YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU & YOU :DDD hahaha.thanks 4 all e encouragements! hugs! smses! calls! ims! :DD LOVEYA ALL LOADS! (:

e results r OVER!so no use cryin over spilt milk kkayes! (: dry all ur tears n move onn! :DD LET DAT SUNSHINE SMILE BRIGHT UP UR DAE! :DD & ALL THOSE AROUND U! :DD cheer up yeah! (: SMILEEEEE! XD

okkk.i shall try my best 2 maintain this highness :DD hahaha.huiying was checkin if i was havin fever 2dae coz i was chao lame :D sorryyy! hahaha.was this high eva since piano lesson.coz teacher said my beethoven piece improved alot! :D culdnt play emo b piece properly coz my nails r like super longg.lol.muz go cut liao.improved c piece too :DD haha.daddy n mummy always say im super happy after piano lessons :DD music is the LOVE (:

haha.so i guess my parents r quite satisfied wif my results although abit disappointed.so i HOPE dat it means im nt grounded durin june hols! :DD YAYYY.hahaha.but dat means i hv 2 start savin up lo! XD cant wait 4 june hols! can finally go out! :DD hehe.juz 5 mre daes of sch! cant wait 4 tmr 2 enddd.its like long long wkn XD sats mummys bdae! mayb go out a while or smth :DD den prack abit of piano.finish cle journals.read up on eng compo.n wkns gone.loll.at least deres still vesak dae :DD

hehe.thank God its all over (: its all cleared now! hehe.i promise i wun do it again :DD promise promise! (: guess all these obstacles make us stronger n draw us closer to each other :D haha.jiayou jiayou 4 last few daes! last lap liao.cant wait for nxt sat! :D hehe.

<3 LOVES (:

Say It Again - Marie Digby

the thing about love

is i never saw it coming

it kinda crept up and took me by surprise

and now there’s a voice inside my heart

that’s got me wondering

is this true

i want to hear it one more time

move in a little closer

take it to a whisper

just a little louder

say it again for me

cuz i love the way it feels

when you are telling me that i’m

the only one who blows your mind

say it again for me

it’s like the whole world stops to listen

when you tell me you’re in love

say it again

the thing about you

is you know just how to get me

you talk about us like there’s no end in sight

the thing about me is that i really want to let you

open that door and walk into my life

move in a little closer

take it to a whisper

just a little louder

say it again for me

cuz i love the way it feels

when you are telling me that i’m

the only one who blows your mind

say it again for me

it’s like the whole world stops to listen

when you tell me you’re in love

and it feels like it’s the first time

that anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain

and never in my whole life

have i heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

say it again for me

cuz i love the way it feels

when you are telling me that i’m

the only one who blows your mind

say it again for me

it’s like the whole world stops to listen

when you tell me you’re in love

say it again

when you tell me you’re in love

say it again

you are my baby love (:

# love story #

`tired

2008-05-09T20:18:00.006+08:00

`SUNSHINE

forever you're mine (:

haha.yayyy! EXAMS R OVERRR :DD (abit slow but ya XD) LOL.SLACKIN TIME AT LASTT :DDD THANK GOD :D quite lazy 2 blog so shall keep this short n sweet! (:

I OFFICIALLY DECLARE DAT IM BROKE.loll.yeahh.like really $0.okk.ive $1 worth of coins in my wallet.hahaha.but yeah.dats it.i almost fainted lahh.haha.thanks 2 e emo meals i had after every xam.den ytd spent quite abit.goshh.im brokee.loll.

hmmm.ytd wanted 2 eat swensens n watch movie de lohh!but i open my wallet.OMG.nt enuff $$ coz had quite abit of stuff 2 buy.hahaha.so ya.cannot liao ): JUNE HOLZ! :DD so met huiying at bishan den trained down 2 orchard.bothh were late.but i was later.haha.sorry!shopped at far east.gt 2 shirts n accessories.she gt her prezzies.den we went 2 cine 2 eat.damn funny lahh.haha.was like tryin 2 cheer each other up.but both also emo.lol.took neos.omgg.horrible.haha.so decided 2 take another round l8ter.went back 2 far east 2 collect daddy n mummys prezzie.trained 2 amk.took neos at amk hub! HUIYING FELL IN LOVE WIF E NEOPRINT MACHINEE :DD hahaha.yeahh.its quite nice! shall take neos dere mre often.juz dat e colour cm out abit light lahh.but yeahh.it was nice :DD chionged back hmm.was damn tiredd.

today! CANT BELIEVE WE HAD 2 GO 2 SCH 4 JUZ 2 HRS OF CLEANUP :/ haha.aniwaes.me n viya were juz slackin around lahh.haha.afterdat was slackin in e classroom wif kelly n huiying. CULDNT DECIDE WHERE 2 GO.coz we were all broke.so had 2 do stuff dat din cost $$ XD haha.huiying didnt wanna go swimming.so we ended up playin tennis.called mummy who helped me book courts at bishan 8.took 132 2 far east flora coz huiying wanted 2 gt flowers.haha.afterdat.walked 2 kellys house.MY GOSHH.frm 132 bus-stop to far east flora to kellys house and back 2 132 bus-stop was like 3 km.seriously.hahaha.was damn tired afterdat.but oh well.xercisin is gd rite! :DD haha.accordin 2 kelly.dunnoe burn how many calories liao XD lol.went hmm.mummy cooked maggie mee 4 me n huiying.den huiying left 4 her frenz housee (:

talked on e phone :DD den went 2 bathe.n chionged 2 j8.haha.was early lehh!met kelly n we walked 2 bishan 8.started playin tennis! hahaha.DAMN FUNNY CANN.coz we were both tennis noobs.so it was like.e ball was flying all over e place.i shot one over e court.so did kelly.sm car muz hv rammed over dem.LOLL X) played 4 like 15 mins.den we went 2 e lift lobbyy.slacked there 4 like 1/2 hr.den went back 2 play again :DD hahaha.we agreed 2 like vent our anger on e ball.ehhh.we gt better okk! :DD tryin 2 do this like every fri of e june holl.lol.can train leg + hand muscles + lose weight + lose fat + bcm healthier! hahaha XDD nxt monday! tennis + swimming :DDD haven really confirmed yt.but shuld b okk ba :D played 4 1/2 hr.den went 2 slack 4 15 mins.called huiying.she said she culdnt rush back.so we went 2 macs 2 slack! haha.THANK YOU KELLY 4 UR LARGE FRIES :DD

here im.TIREDDDD.hahaha.shall hv an early nite (: thank God there isnt tuition tmr :DD haha.can sleep in :DD but muz gt mother's day prezzie! ahhhh.anybody hv ani ideas?? loll. kelly suggested chocs.haha.i dunnoe lahhh.aw mann.muz go squeeze out my brain juice again XD ahhh.nxt week gettin back papers.PREPARED 2 DIE ... loll.but i shall stay happy this wkn! omg.e thought of juz slackin n slackin is juz so great :DD shall go back 2 my dreamland! :DDDD

dun nid 2 worry abt me lahh! :D haha.i thank God for such great frenz who always care so much abt me (: haha.THANK YOUU!!im really really okk! :D i noe my limits de! i noe how 2 take care of myself too! :DD haha.i may seem vulnerable BUT.im STRONG okk X) bu yao xiao kan wo.hahaha.i noe how 2 protect myself lahh! :DD so yuppp.DUN WORRYY OKK! LOVEYA ALL! :DD

THANK YOU! (: <33

i really appreciate it :D

thank you for today (: it was really sweet (: i really thank God for it.haha.things are starting 2 gt better! but e moment i tink of oct. i really wanna ): i shall treasure these few mnths! :D take care ahh! GET WELL SOON! dun talk so much X) loll.most imptantly.STAY HAPPYY! :DD

your smile just makes my day.

# destiny #

`love

2008-05-02T02:38:00.002+08:00

`LOVE

we love because He first loved us (:

ahhhh.damn tiredd now lahh :/ haha.as promised :D eyes like cannot open liao.lol.dis shall b a short post.haha.sorry 4 e lack of updates! MYA PERIOD LUHHH :D

super duper busy n tired these few weeks.so up down up down de.haha.but thank God! for helping me thru these weeks (: im quite okk now! haha.quite abit of stuff happened last week ba.too tired 2 list them down!lol.hmmm.school was kinda sian this wk.chiongin 4 myas sia.alamak lahh.myas damn screwed.sure worst den term 1 de ):

haha.ss n chem papers were ytd.ss paper was quite okk lahh.chionged like siao.ur noe how slow i write lahh.like tortoise like dat XD haha.but managed 2 finish e paper :DD chem was crap lahh.was late 4 e paper.den i was like.starin at e question.skip skip blank blank.hahaha.if i pass horr.e sky will fall man.LOL :DD oh well.chem sucks :D

ate 3 subway cookies.m&m + choc chip while huiying ate her tuna subway.haha.window shopped around with yiyang n esther who joined us l8ter but left quite soon.lol.me n huiying were like.aiya.cannot wear juz try 4 fun luhh.LOLL.i nid 2 save up lo!saw so muchh stuff dat i wanna buyy :DD window shopped frm far east 2 john little.lol.sat at somerset mrt n talked 4 1+ hr :DD trained 2 j8 2 eat rainbow mcflurry! :DD haha.nice nicee :DD thank you huiying 4 pei-in me!sorry 4 being really emo n all! take care ya! :DD

labour day! :D whole day out mann.uncles weddin! :D woke up early.7.coz i take quite a long time 2 doll up lahh.LOL.slow poke.haha.so yeahh.i was still late smmre :X bathed.changed.make up n all.was like choose this choose dat.looks wrong.this one better.hahaha.yeahhh.uncle n aunty came 2 fetch me.talked abt which jc n uni i wanted 2 go n all.nxt time grow up b wadd.haha.I DUN WANNA GO 2 SCHH! XD reached there.haha.heng wasnt e last lahh.lol.e brides really pretty! groom was really handsome too! :DD tea ceremonyy.haha.had 2 jing cha.lol.was so nervous lahh.coz i damn clumsy lohh.juz broke a plate ytd smmre.haha.heng nv drop e cup or anithin XDD

went 2 church.was really nice (: e powerpoints.songs.haha.little cousin was damn cute lahh! he brought his dinos n all.den he was making up stories.sayin he wanted 2 b a dino wen he grew up! :DD hahaha.kept askin yy my hair so longg.loll.yupp.really enjoyed e church service (: really meaningful (: haha.i love 1 corinthians 13 : 4-8! love is patient ... love is kind ... :DD lol.everytime play games on e bride n groom damn funny lahh.hahaha.bride had a solo song too.really nicee.I LOVE E SOUND OF E FLUTEE! :DD okk.im being random le.lol.had a nice nice lunch! den went hm le.slept 4 1+ hr.den had 2 wake up n doll up again!

LOLL.mummy came back! :DD with prezzies 4 all of us.haha.i gt a necklace 2 go wif my gown 4 dat nite (: a pair of jeans n 3/4 pants.lol.hurry bathed.put makeup n all.mummy couldnt decide whether i shuld wear shawl or a jacket.haha.ite wear shawl! duhh lahh.jacket so weird.lol.chionged there.was super early lahhh.haha.dinner didnt start until like 845.we were there b4 7.lol.mummy taught me a new way 2 wear e shawl so that it wuldnt drop off.haha.quite cool XD den afterdat.i wore it in another wayyy.haha.in e above picc :DD was like experimentin wif it mahh.den i tot dat way looked nicer :DD haha.joyce was being so freakin lame 2nite lahhh.haha.kept teasin me n all.TSK.haha.dinner wasnt so badd (: food was good.was really full :DD reached hm at abt 11+.

ahhhh.its like 2+ liao.geog xam tmr! n i haven started studyin.DEAD.hahaha.okk.shall go study liao! luckily can go sch late tmr :DD or else i die lahh.loll.shall reply tags tmr! sorryy! (: ALL E BEST EVERYBODY! (: GOD BLESS! (:

thank you (: although i dont exactly know what is going wrong.but yeahh.ill be here! (: right here waiting for you :D i really appreciate all the little little things you've done.they maybe small.but they really mean alot to me (: thank you! :D hopefully these would all pass soon.n things would be just like before! (: e fond memories i treasure will always kept close to my heart (:

never wanna say goodbye.

# dedication #

`smile

2008-04-19T16:57:00.006+08:00

`WISHING

upon a star that you are okk (:

im really sorry abt these few daes yeahh.this week has been really horrible.ive been really a pig lahh.emo n all.sorry 4 bein abit dao in sch.n moodswingin like siao.sorry! (: all e stress frm schh.sleep so late at nite.im really drained lahh.den still gt all e other stuff all cm tgt.so yupp.IM REALLY SORRYY!! to all e frenz who comforted me n all.who tried 2 cheer me up.who tolerated wif my pigness.haha.THANK YOUU :DD really love u all (:

thank you huiying! dun b so emo le okk :DD i noe u gt alot of stuff n all.but u can always cm talk 2 me! haha.although im nt of much help ba. but its better if u get it out of ur system ritee! (: haha.thanks 4 chillin wif me at macs on thurs! :D shuld do dat mre often b4 we both popp :DD HUGSS!

thank you vidya n aditi! haha. thanks 4 always makin me laughhh no matter how emo im :DD sorry 4 like bein so dao.emo.stonee.loll.ill try my best 2 b high nxt wk! :DD haha.although its like exam wkk :/ loll.jiayou jiayou!

thank you zhenling! lol. im still really scared of talkin 2 u lohh (: r words r so close 2 heart. always make me cryy. haha. sorry abt last nite yeah! take care ! dun worry be happyyy! :DD 'silence can be good.secrets are nice to keep.but friends are good listeners too (:'

thank you kelly for always asking how im weneva u bump in2 me (: haha.great job 4 comp! :D goshh.we better hv our retail therapy soon b4 i really xplode mann XDD

thank you cheryl for always tryin 2 cheer me up (: im still angry at u lehh.haha.jkjk lahh.yeahh.thanks 4 being such a nice homo bf! :DD dun worry so much abt me lahh! haha. im okk de :DD

haha. n e many many mree! :DD loll. yupp. i shall try my best 2 stay happy until end of term 2! :DD loll. THANK YOU ALL!! :D LOVES!! :D haha.exams comin lo!i die le lahh.loll.deres like so much 2 mugg.so little time.ARGHH.dere goes my sleep again.haha.ALL E BEST 4 MYAs!! :DD wahhh.wkn gt alot of hw lehh.

hw :
; study for concertos
; ~~eng summary~~
; read 6 sets of eng wks
; ~~geog wks essay question~~
; ~~chi compre paper ( 5 compres)~~
; chi ting xie
; ~~chi chang wen suo duan (3 passages)~~
; hist fa essay
; chem assignment (molar volume of gases)
; chem assignment (mole concept and molar mass)
; chem assignment (experimental techniques)
; chem assignment (empirical formula and molecular formula)
; revise chemical calculations
; ~~math assignment 4 (statistics)~~
; math checklist (statistics)
; ~~math wks 2 (quadractic functions)~~

my hp wun b confiscated le :D given last last last last chance.haha.better make sure i dun go beyond 1000 smses n 100 mins outgoinn.or else die :/ haha.hai.ive been rather vulgar lately.sorryy.shuld get rid of e pig habit.haha.hope i wun hv a piggie week nxt week.thank you God for bringing me through this week.although it has really been a bumpy ride.but thank God that it all ended well (:

thanks 4 e song! dun emo liao! smile kkayes! jiayou jiayou! u can do it! (:

yayyy.haha.i dun really love dis songs tune.but e lyrics r nice :DD

三个心愿 - F.I.R

我喜欢你的眼神

温柔又危险

请不要戴上眼镜

我会看不见

想要张开双手把你宝贝

想和你天天见面

想带你环游世界

我喜欢你爱逞强

笨笨的笑脸

在心中抬头挺胸

坚定的信念

这个辽阔世界不够完美

但有了你在我身边

什么都很OK

第一个心愿

为你把幸福堆积

天涯到海角

头发到呼吸

下一个心愿

给你最好的自己

再许个心愿

我的爱把你占领

为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪

好象有太多的事只能自己背

其实只要你说一句OK

现在就立刻马上

变成你的Superman

这世上最重要的不止是誓言

只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸

我会永远记得这个今天

还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪

第一个心愿

为你把幸福堆积

天涯到海角

头发到呼吸

下一个心愿

给你最好的自己

再许个心愿

我的爱把你占领

第一个心愿

为你把幸福堆积

天涯到海角

头发到呼吸下一个心愿

给你最好的自己

再许个心愿

我的爱把你占领

can we bring yesterday back around.

# promises #

`emo

2008-04-17T23:34:00.001+08:00

`SO YESTERDAY

the happy memories; now a thing of the past.

juz ignore this post yeah (: i nid 2 ermm.let out sm stuff (:

why do things cm crashing down all tgt.im a person.ive feelings too.ive my ups n downs.screw ting xie nt enuff.screw chem spa.screw jap music.wthh lahh.been cryin like shit these nites.not like u cannot see or realise.but can u juz stop thinkin abt urself.n urself only.cm n go as n wen u like.ehh.im nt a ball u can kick around lehhh.stupid pig.its nt like ur so high n mighty dat every1 muz obey u.ppl hv feelings.dun u realise dat.they are nt dere 2 please u.stupid pig.hai.change lahh.b4 ppl start hatin u.its quite obvious nt.but u still dun see e big pic n tink dat everything is other ppls fault.except urs.stop being so argh lahh.deres a limit 2 everything rite.hai.at dis rate ur gonna screw ur life up.yy cant u ever seem 2 understand.one min ur nice.n nxt min u erupt.wthh.juz go away will u.confiscate my hp also confiscate 1 mnth.wtf lahh.hai.im so confused.2 take a step back.or 2 move on.i tried 2 move on.but i fell.i tried again.n im strugglin now.is it juz so difficult.ARGH.my life is so EMO.

been feeling really tired these few daes.cried like shit.emo like shit.hai. ~~sucidal~~ math teacher say i look like ling dai yu.lol.sm gu dai female person.always fall sick onee.she say i look like bing mao 病猫 :/ haha.shall try 2 sleep early 2nite.gt damn lot of hw lahh.myas cmin soon le.DIE.

thank you all who asked me how i was (: thanks for ur encouragements n hugs! (:

sorry.but im nt over it.him.

when you look me in the eyes - jonas brothers (:

ohh ohh yeahh ohh ohh yeahh

if the heart is always searchin’

can you ever find a home

i've been lookin’ for that someone

i'll never make it on my own

dreams can't take the place of lovin’ you

there's got to be a million reasons why it’s true

when you look me in the eyes

tell me that you love me

everything’s alright

when you're right here by my side

when you look me in the eyes

i catch a glimpse of heaven

i find my paradise

when you look me in the eyes

how long will i be waiting

to be with you again

i'm gonna tell you that i love you

in the best way that I can

i can't take a day without you here

you’re the light that makes my darkness disappear

when you look me in the eyes
tell me that you love me
everything’s alright
when you're right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
i catch a glimpse of heaven
i find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes

more and more i start to realize

i can reach my tomorrow

i can hold my head up high

and it’s all because you're by my side

when you look me in the eyes

tell me that you love me

everything’s alright

when you're right here by my side

when i hold you in my arms

i know that it’s forever

i just gotta let you know

i never wanna let you go

coz when you look me in the eyes

and tell me that you love me

everything’s alright

when you're right here by my side

when you look me in the eyes

i catch a glimpse of heaven

i find my paradise

when you look me in the eyes

ill be right here waiting for you.

# home #

`happy

2008-04-14T22:15:00.017+08:00

`HAPPINESS

im nt missing you :D

hahaha.okk.IM A HAPPY HAPPY GAL :D THANK YOU HUIYING! :D sorry gal! haha.jiayou jiayou!! :DD lol.okk.shall make dis short.i gtg go mug jap music! (:

finally had indiv outin! haha.its been like a yr le lohh.lol.went wif her 2 cine 2dae.supposed 2 meet at bishan at 12.we were both late X) haha.trained 2 somerset.den walked 2 cine!lol.went 2 take neos 1st XD afterdat.went 4 lunch at sm jap restaurant.damn full lahh.met cheryl; vivien; xueshan! :DD hahaha.quite surprised lahh.like u turn around.den e 3 of dem starin at u.loll.watched run papa runn.okk lahh.nt say very nice.nt say very nt nice.haha.i also wanna catch definetely maybe! :DD but gt stupid xams siaa.alamak.afterdat.went 2 take neos again! twice smmre! :DD so all in all i took 3 times lehh! broke liaoo.like seriouslyy.haha.i like e last machine! it had windd!!! :DD n e platform culd move up n downn XDD lol.trained back 2 j8 wif her.bought her white blouse at BHG.chionged hmm.was late by 25 mins.grounded liao.4 dunnoe how long :/ lol.yeahh!dats my dae :DD

here r e neos! :DD sm hv ermm.CENSORED PARTS XDDD hahaha.

hahaha.i was tryin my very best nt 2 laugh lohh XD

i look weird in dis one :/

OMG. XDD

my fringe dropped down at e wrong time :/

kawaii :DD

homo lovee :DD

kiss me babyy! hahaha.

discoo! :D

:DD

i like e windd! XDD

my favv :DD

boy you are my all.

# with you #

`im okk

2008-04-13T23:57:00.003+08:00

`TATTOO

youre on my heart just like a tattoo (:

sorry abt my previous emo post yeah (: haha.sorry sorry!! im okk lahh.REALLYY.lol.okk.nt dat im like happy bouncing around (: but yeahh.im okk! i wun do silly stuff.dun worry :D

playin e guitar helps alot :D haha.e piano too! but this time i chose e guitar (: its quite rare dat ive my guitar at hm wif me :X haha.its been quite a while since i emoed on e guitar (: yayy.managed 2 play a few new songs (: with you.teardrops on my guitar.tonight.hear you me.when u look me in the eyes n mre :D haha.only melodies lahh.i cant do chords which arent in e easy keys :DD haha.but i managed 2 play e chords 4 tattoo!coz its in d major mahh (: loll.played a few old faves of mine :D qing tian.my love (: i love my guitar :DD should bring it hm mre often X)

lol.went 2 church feelin rather sleepy 2dae.coz i slept at 4+ 5.lol.mananged 2 complete eng conclusions & ss fa :D haha.~~spent quite abit of time emoin n all~~ so yeahh.i like 2daes church service! :DD haha.mainly becoz e guitars were used (: just love e sound of piano blendin wif e guitars.haha.damn nice lahh.thank God i can sing now (: haha.so e melodious tunes of the piano accompanied by the beautiful strumming of the guitar :DD yayy.nice nicee.haha.teacher was rather concerned abt my wkload in rgs too.but im okk! (: still alive! juz dat i look like a panda now :/ haha.other den dat.im okk :D

reached hm.slept 4 abt 2 hrs.i din even noe i dozed off on e sofa lohh.haha.its like 1 min i was watchin tv.e nxt i was sound asleep.woke up n chionged thru hw! quite glad i was able to survive dis wk.dis wkn.completed most of my hw too :D thank GOD (:

haha.tmr is piano day! like totally music day.tmr nite is left 4 mep + practical! :DD haha.gotta mug jap music tmr nite.prack abit of piano.yupp.haha.miss playin e piano liaoo.bet ill end up playin my own songs again lohh (:

thank God tmrs a hol! (: im so gonna chill out tmr! :D haha.shall go watch movie.arcade.shoppin.yeahhh!! :DD hahaha.cant wait mann.hopefully tmr makes me happier ya (: im sure it will! :D

THANK YOU every1 who asked abt me!im okk (: nt xactly deadd yt :D mayb half-deadd.hahaha.nt so emo also :D lol.im really really okk! :DD see dat big big smile! its nt fake okk XD haha.okok.shall go sleep liao.or else ill really look like a panda tmr!! LOVEYA ALL! :D TAKE CARE AHH! ENJOY TMR! :DD

thank you GOD (:

i find my paradise;
when you look me;
in the eyes-

# blind #

`stupid pig

2008-04-12T23:24:00.003+08:00

`REALISE

that things just arent the same without you (:

this post is juz 4 rantin.so yeah.juz ignore it :D

haha.today was a boring day lahhh.went 4 tuition.finished up math (: but now gt xtra tuition hw.lol.trained + bused back.din really wanna go hm.no choice sia.stupid life lahh.go hm muz face all e hw wadd.hai.went hm.watched abit of tv (: went 4 nice lunch at serangoon dere (:

came back.slept 4 so long.yeshh.im a pig X) slept frm 2+ all e way to 5+ :DD haha.den watched abit of tv :D so slack rite.afterdat i realised how much hw i hv lahh! stupidd.n i only hv tmr 2 complete it.shooots.haha.okk.shall gt back 2 my ss fa.its due 2nite/tmr mornin :/

i hate u.i hate it how ur able 2 control me.my emotions.i hate it how u take me on a rollercoaster ride.only 2 make me emotionally drained.i hate ur lies.how u nv fail 2 make me believe u all e time.im nt goin 2 dis time.even if ur tellin e truth.im nt gonna believe u.i hate it how u break my heart each time i forgive u.i hate it how u juz u take me 4 granted.how u kick me aside each time uve used me.i hate it how memories of us still fill my mind.i hate it how u always make me cry.i hate it wen u pretend 2 care wen u nv really do.i hate u coz no matter how many times i tell myself 2 forget abt u.u always seem 2 b on my mind.i hate it wen ive 2 go 2 bed everynite crying.i hate u 4 turning my life upside down.i hate u.i hate u.i hate u.i hate u.i hate u.i hate u.i hate that i love u.

tonight i've fallen

and i can't get up

i need your loving hands

to come and pick me up

and every night i miss you

i can just look up

and know the stars are

holding you

tonight

teardrops on my guitar.

# cry #

`finally

2008-04-11T22:40:00.007+08:00

`SMILE

for it brightens the lives of those around you (:

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY :DD hahaha.i almost died this week can.like seriously.ytd went sick bay 4 like 1 1/2 hrs.stupid gastric.haha.thanks aditi :D n i still haven gt my voice back!! ): cant talk properly.cant scream.cant sing.ARGH.hahaha.died 4 practical.slipped quite abit.alamak.loads of practical 2 catch up wif.my xam pieces.ARGHH.slept at 4 this morning.all thanks 2 wad? yupp.u gt it.PHYSICS PT.stupid pt cost me $12 lehh! two black n white copies + 1 coloured copy -.- juz coz my printer went haywire.dunnoe no ink or wadd.den paper jam.loll.but im really glad i manage 2 finish it :DD haha.THANK YOU HUIYING!! :DD THANK GOD i finished geog pt 2 weeks ago :DD

haha.once i reached hm.went 2 bathe.den piack on my bed n fell asleep.all e way until 8+.loll.i noe im a pigg XD slept 4 like 4 hrss :DD so nice.hahaha.wen i woke up.i tot it was mornin lahh!den i looked at my hp.2010.i tot its 810 in e mornin :/ haha.but wen i check e times of ppl dat smsed me.its was like 1848.1859.so i was like.shit.i skipped dinner.no wonder so hungry.but its like 810.how cm still so dark n quiet.LOLL.yeahh.so i looked at my hp again.n realised it was still friday :D haha.yess.my brain nt functionin properly liaoo.

loll.yayy! THANK GOD MONDAYS A HOL :DD or else im like really gonna collapse liao.but deres like an entire pile of hw.muz chiong all den can go out on monday! :DD

HOMEWORK:
; mug jap music
; mug concertos
; ~~theory~~
; prack piano
; ~~ss formative assessment~~
; ~~3 eng compo conclusions~~
; read 4 eng articles (summary of 8 sentences)
; ~~chi chang wen suo duan~~
; learn chi ting xie (2 chapters)
; ~~chem assignment (experimental techniques)~~
; chem wks (molar mass)
; memorise chem table of ions
; ~~geog formative assessment~~
; ~~hist formative assessment~~
; ~~math wks 2~~
; ~~math wks 3~~
; ~~math assignment~~
; ~~math compare & contrast wks~~
; ~~2 cle journals~~
; tuition hw
; reply joans letter

so much riteee.GOSH.i dunnoe wen can finish mann.muz chiong like siao lahh.only 2 days.48 hrs.poooff.den i do hw damn slow one.haha.brain process info so slowly.hand write so slowly.multi-taskin smmre.hahaha.oh ya.gt back my hist n ss results.mann.haha.okk lahh.average (: at least i passed rite.haha :DD THANK GOD I PASSEDD (:

okkk.piggie me shall go back 2 sleep now :DD damn tired lahh.eyes chao pain liao.loll.CANT WAIT 4 MONDAYY :DD

thank you God (:

you're always on my mind.

# incomplete #

`grace

2008-04-06T15:25:00.005+08:00

`GRACE †

is an emo pig.

haha.dis post is juz 2 ermm.let out sm stuff :D i love my piano! :D

lol.slept at 9+ last nite! was really sick + tired.so yeahh.decided 2 stop hwin n go 2 sleep lohh.woke up at 8+ n went 2 see my uncle.gt 2 wks mc.xcuse frm pe only lahh.dun nid take napfa :D haha.but i gt loads of med 2 take.still feel like sleepin man :X

went 2 church! haha.culdnt sing coz i had sore throat.i wanted so much 2 sing lohh ): lol.but it gave me a chance 2 meditate on the lyrics.the beautiful words (: the melodious tunes (: i will really treasure my voice wen i gt it back mann.i really miss it loads.lol.

GRACE † - God's Riches At Christ's Expense :D undeserved favour & gift; undeserved forgiveness & kindness & mercy that God gives us; effortless beauty
SAMUEL † - heard of God :D
JOYCE † - joy; freedom & experience of battle :D
HANNAH † - GRACE; faithful; blest by God; 'God has favoured me' :D

haha.that was wad my teacher told us durin church :D i was havin gastric + headache durin church.hai.but i still enjoyed church very much :D haha.still laughed n all.n soon i 4gt abt e pain (: thank you God (:

arghh.im feelin very HOT noww.haha.very heaty lahh.nose bled smmre.my skin damn yellowish now.goshh.mummy was like 'is dere even blood flowin in u?!' lol.damn long nv fall sick liao lohh.dis time fall sick until really cannot sick liao.hai ): hope i can gt well soon ba.although i may juz collapse anitime.still gt loads of hw 2 complete.but my brain is like nt xactly functionin.haha.but ill still try my best (: coz i noe God will take care of the rest :D

'For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. Let us then appraoch thethrone of grace iwth confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need' - Hebrews 4 : 15 & 16

you once promised;
you would always be there;
to catch me when i fall;
if i were to fall now;
would you still be there

# GOD † #

`sleepy

2008-04-03T23:34:00.004+08:00

`RAINBOWS

just you and me.

(sniff sniff) hahaha.no im nt cryin.MY NOSE IS RUNNING.like crazy.lol.thanks 2 e rain lahh.was totally drenched.like soaked thru :/ haha.aniwaes.MY VOICE IS HUSKY + SEXYYYY :DD hahaha.once i reached sch.opened my mouth.frenz jaws wuld drop (xaggerated.LOL) 'WAD HAPPENED 2 UR VOICE?!' LOLL.yeahh.my voice is horrible now.so weird lahh.nt being able 2 talk.much less laugh.cry.sing.scream T_T hahaha.its like i try so hard 2 laugh.den no sound cms out :/ scream den my voice crackk.like my voice break like dat.hahaha.oh ya.SORRY IF I REPLY UR SMS LATE OR LIKE MISS UR CALL!!coz ermm.my hp is currently dyin (juz like me) so its kinda siao siao liaoo.hahaha.yeahh.SORRY SORRY!! (:

lol.missed e sch bus again -.- ehhh.coz i tot i was late wad.den gang hao 2 265s came.so i gt on e one 2 amk lohh (nearer dun nid 2 run) hahaha.den my sch bus arrived -.- wad 2 do.i already on 265.LOL.so as usual.met huiying.den went 2 schh.met vidya at sch gate.hahaha.dey were damn funny lahh XD gt back geog n mathh.passed both :D although nt very well.but im satisfied (: THANK YOU GOD (: loll.CHERYL NOW U OWE ME 10 MEALS n 10 MOVIES! YEAHH!! :D (coz i passed my geog!) hahaha.okk.juz jk lahh.like dat sure burn ur whole pocket :D GREAT JOB HUIYING!! so proud of u (: hahaha.was damn surprised wen u came jumping happily up n down.loll.well done! (: ur efforts paid off! :D haha.WELL DONE ADITI N VIDYA!! :D ur wont too bad either kkayes!! dun b too sad abt it! :D GET WELL SOON ADITI! :DD

hahaha.actually being sick aint dat bad :D lol.get letters lehh.like sweet little notes.sweet encouragements :D haha.thanks galz really (: yeahh.so e dae was kinda slack.was fallin asleep durin physics :X haha.durin lunch.was bein high n lame.yanlin kept goin on abt how sexy my voice was.so i went like.yeahh.ur attracted 2 me rite XD hahaha.she was like yeahh.n started 2 like walk 2wards me while sayin attract attract.loll.so i walked backwards n said repel repel :DD lol.after sch went 2 record stuff 4 physics pt :D vidya was damn funny lahh.found aditi at j2.lol.den i was twirlin around wif vidyas belt on e track until i gt so giddy i fell flat on e track.LOLL X)

went hm at 4+.was waitin 4 132.e 1st 132 came.was nt double-decker.so i decided 2 wait.haha.was super giddy den lahh.so wait wait wait.den rain lehh!!so heavy smmre.by e time 132 came.e bus stop was FLOODED.gt on 132.haha.rain rain rainn.so nice 2 sleep lohh.gt off 132.had 2 walk in e heavy rain 2 265.hai.gt off 265.walked back hm.e rain was really damn damn heavy.so by e time i reached hm.yeahh.SOAKED CHICKEN.hahaha.luo tang ji! :D

reached hm.bathed.eat dinner.watched tv all e way 2 9.den slack on com liao.goshh.damn pathetic lehh.damn tiredd.so much hw left.hai.shall list dem down or else ill 4gt X)

; mep practical
; mep performing notes
; revise mep (jap music)
; learn huiying's duet piece (piano part)
; prack piano
; 2 cle journals (leadership)
; math wks 5 (statistics)
; math wks 6A (statistics)
; geog fa 1
; physics wks (refraction)
; chemistry wks (molar mass)
; chemistry wks (chemical calculations)
; print out valency table
; revise chemistry formulas
; chi compo (hao ren hao shi -.-)
; read history notes
; physics pt (DIE.)
; reply joan's letter

hai.horrible wkn filled wif hw.damn packed lehh.im dyin here wif my runny nose.haha.okk.shall go sleep le.luckily sports fest tmr! :D or else i really die.but cant cheer tmr lahh.haiyo.oh ya.CHEER UP!yeahh you!hahaha :DDD

thank you God (:

the distance that seperates us;
it just isnt the same anymore-

# words unspoken #

`love

2008-04-01T23:33:00.003+08:00

`WARMTH

from the love of those around you (:

THANK YOU EVERY1 WHO COMFORTED N CHEERED ME ON WEN I WAS SICK! :D haha.yess.i was down wif fever.im down wif sore throat.headache.gastric :/

headache n gastric started b4 guitar.haha.was juz tellin my fav chi teacher abt it.den go guitar liao.kena fever.haha.i was wearing my jacket den still shiver lahh.lol.THANK YOU ALL GUITAR MATES! (: haha.esp jeanette; xin min; celestine; wenyan; cheryl; zhenling; magdalene; anna; liting; priya; april :D

went hm.damn high fever lahh.so went 2 sleep.thanks 4 all e calls n smses ya! (: thanks 4 all e love n care u all shower upon me! :D haha.im okk lahh.brain nt fried yt XD hahaha.sorry if i took a long time 2 reply smses :X was sleepin like a pig X) loll.was almost late 4 sch 2dae.woke up at 630.chionged 2 sch lahh.was just on time.but my watch said 730.LOL.

wahlao.kena scolded by XXXX 4 my hair again.i already pinned up my fringe lohh.lopsided ponytail = fanciful.den my belt too loose also.haha.heng head prefect say my hairstyle is allowed but highly discouraged.LOL.emoed wif homos at emo homo balcony!! :D

i love dat spot lohh! (: hahaha.HOMOS 4EVA! :D all i can say is.relax kkayes (: let nature take its course ba.dun waste ur energy on sm1 whos nt worth it! (: jiayou jiayou! stay happy kkayes! :D

subs were quite slack.had a few free blocks.haha.was damn surprised wen i received zhenlings letter! :D lol.THANKS GAL!! gt back chi results.ting xie was SHIT.nid parents signature coz i failed -.- lol.but compo was quite gd.better den i xpected :D ss was slack lahh.was replyin zhenlings letter X) hist was slack too.haha.finally finished zhenlings letter! :D

mummy picked me frm schh.den hm le lohh.slept like a pig till dinner time XD hahaha.den was doin chem infrnt of tv.now math pt thingy! :/ I NID SLEEPPP!lol.tmr is such a long dae lahh.at least gt 1 slack block tmr!shall sleepp X)

THANK YOU GALZ 4 STANDIN BY ME ALL THESE WHILE! :D

♥ thank you huiying for always being there 4 me! (: all e hugs n tears :D sorry 4 causin u 2 worry so muchh.haha.dui bu qi hor! (: thanks 4 always analysin stuff 4 me! hahaha.stay happy ya! jiayou jiayou! lol.heck care if teachers tink we r les lahh! :D nid anithin.im always here! :D haha.thank yoU!

♥ thank you zhenling for all ur encouragements!ill always rmb e quote u left me wif! (: (although i din noe dere was e frnt part till i saw ur letter 2dae :X) haha.ur words of wisdom nv fail 2 make me cry n smile at e same time :D lol.all e best! dun stress ahh! miss u loads! :D thank yoU!

♥ thank you vidya + aditi + cheryl for always cheerin me on! askin if im okk or nt (: ur nv fail 2 make me laugh! keep smilin! love our emo homo sessions tgt! n our toilet meetings too! :D haha.jiayou jiayou! dun tink too much kkayes! let nature take its course! HOMOS 4EVA! :D thank yoU!

♥ thank you kelly for all your care! (: haha.4 always askin how im.yeahh! lol.now diff class liao.nt so close liao.dun see u so often also (although we r nxt door) hahaha.muz go out smtime soon yeah! dun emo hor! :D haha.thank yoU!

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! X)

i never play ani pranks on ppl lehhh :D hahaha.aniwaes.ALL E BEST 4 UPCOMING TESTS + XAMS + SPAs + PTs!! WE SHALL OVERCOME THIS TGT YEAHH!! :D hahaha.SMILEEEEEEEEEE PPLLL :DD

when it rains down on your parade;

dont look down; look up;

for there will always be;

a RAINBOW after the rain (:

# <3 #

`fiesta

2008-03-29T18:47:00.007+08:00

`FUN

in the sun!

grace is a happy gal :D hahaha.yeahh.all thanks 2 sngs fiesta! (: loll.but damn tired lahh.i tink my leg gt blister liao.juz dat haven popped yt.both legs smmre :/ muscle ache!!ahhhhh.

lol.damn tired.so shall try 2 keep this short! (: hahaha.(shall try n recall) i saw trella; jolene; dionise; isabel; melody; rachael; theresa; minyi; michelle; janelle; dayna; shuting; yeujia; jessica; mindy; lynette (goh); low ann; sarah; cathleen; caroline; eenette; abigail; fabia; kimberly; amanda; hao yi; jeanette; ling hui; pei wei; yee kiat; xin yi; sandra; ying lin; denise; joey; tianyi n more lahh :D cannot rmb liao :X sorry if i left u out!ive poor memory X) haha.din gt 2 see charis n roslyn.dey went in e morning ):

so long den rounded everybody up lohh.went 2 eat.playy.chat yaa :D wanted 2 queue up 4 haunted house.den ite cannot go in.coz no time.lucky low ann; dayna; janelle; sarah went in!haha.so went wif jolene; dionise; isabel 2 e slide! XD my gosh lahh.we were like e oldest dere.damn fun lahh.hahaha.e small little kids were like screaming n screaming :D so was i lahh :X LOLL.den screaming is so common in sngs lahh :D trella was like screaming 4 i dunnoe wad.haha.den we both screamed cant rmb 4 wadd.haha.saw cathleen den we both also screamedd.damn funny lah :D say pei wei n ling hui.den we all screamed tgt :D LOLL.yeahh.quite a few ppl said i changed loads n loads.haha.i noe lahh.frm nerd to a total bimbo.hahaha.bimbos 2dae were me + shuting + trella! XD loll.

went 2 find joyce n ashley.buy stuff frm them.chin chow very nice :D haha.say he lao shi too!shes so nice lahh.she hasnt retired yt.haha.how i wish she was teachin me chi now (: shuting n yeu jia ran e 100m relay! haha.wen it was closing we nided 2 find stalls 2 spend our coupons! so i spent everything on 12 cans of drink :/ damn heavy lahh!i missed e closing ceremony bcoz i was buyin drinks :/ missed e cheerleadin lehh!i love sngs cheer leadin lahh! :DD haha.oh yaa.dionise is such a cute little gal! :D jolenes p1 sister.she damn cute lahh.so small wan go haunted house lehh!every1 was like u sure she wanna go?!?! haha.den she was so happy on e slide (: mrs tan is dionise p1 pe teacher now.was our (michelle; jolene; isabel; me) p1 form teacher! so we went 2 find mrs tan! (:

while we were findin her.mrs cheong started prayin.den we were like carryin all our food.standin in e middle of e field wif all e principals n teachers.goshh.so freaky.haha.said e prayer.we still rmb it! :D yeahh.den said hi 2 mrs tan.she still recognises all of us..she also like nv aged like dat.haha.wen she was speakin.michelle n i wanted 2 cry liao lohh.den dey played all e sngs songs.hai.i miss SNGS! i miss 1 GRACE! i miss 6 CHARITY! (:

so we all went hm le lohh.on e way hm.e family dance song was being played.e school song was being played.seeing all e sngs galz on e track dancing n singing tgt.hai ~~i wish i was still an sngs gal~~ (: i still rmb e sch song! haha.but nt e dance lahh :D ohh.i said hi 2 mrs huang! :D my bubbly p1 principal.she left after dat year.but ill rmb her 4 life.she was so nice n so happy.loved goin 2 sch in p1.haha.all e memories.e farewell celebration (: yupp.dats abt it ba.cant wait 4 e nxt fiesta in 2 yrs time! hope sngs shifts back by dat time (: oh ya.SNGS BROKE E RECORD! hahaha.well done sngs! (: enjoy e hol on mon! (:

im so freakin dead lahh.muz chiong all hw liao.so tired still.gt math n eng hw.physics n geog n math pt.hai.tmr gt church n dinner.lol.so only a few hrs in e afternoon 2 do.but ill hv a great time! :D im sure of dat XD haha.my little cousin gettin baptised lehh.even us older cousins also nt baptised yt :X lol.setting example 4 us :D haha.i dun wan dis wkn 2 end so fast ): lol.yiruma songs nv fail 2 make me cry/emo no matter how happy or high i was ...

i miss sngs (: ill treasure all e memories :D thank you God for all the love and care ive received from my family and friends (: please help me to stay strong and happy.following in your word (:

i just want you to be happy.

# SNGS <3 #

`break up

2008-03-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

`SHATTERED

lost in the world of darkness.

2dae was such a sucky dae -.- ~~mayb it started frm ytd~~ its gonna b a pissified post :/

missed sch bus.wth.was damn tired lohh.took bus/mrt 2 schh.cant stand it frm ppl scan u frm head 2 toe lahh.wahlao.stupid sch u mann.like u stand in e mrt.den ppl look at u.turn away.look at u -.- stupidd.haha.den went 4 toilet meetin! (: sorry.was late.had free sa block.EMOED WIF HOMOS (huiying; vidya; cheryl) AT EMO BALCONY! :D loll.we named dat nice spot in rgs.EMO HOMO BALCONY!! XD hahaha.kena scolded like twice coz we talk so loud.den sec 2s upstairs havin xams :X

yeahh.e dae was kinda boring.teachers like 2 say indirect sentences lahh.stupid.juz say straight 2 my face lahh.beat around e bush.lol.kena booked 2dae 4 sock -.- at least i lasted 1 term XD haha.laughed like siao during class wif vidya n aditi! :D hahaha.damn funny lahh.was laughin at blues clues.teletubbies (i love po XD) powerpuff galz.carebears n many many mre! :D thanks galz! (: emoed wif huiying at bus-stop at e end of e dae.haha.damn nice talkin 2 her lahh.thanks gal! love ya loads! (: dun emo so much yeah! anithin im here! we emo tgt! :D

took 132 hm. ~~emoin in e bus~~ haha.daddy picked me up opp bishan park.den chionged 2 sngs 2 run! :D omg.i miss sngs like siao lahh.~~almost cried~~ its like been so long since ive gone back.haha.saw 6C ppl! :D trella; melody; minyi; cathleen! (: hahaha.dey r as cute as eva XD i miss 6C'05! haha.aniwaes.yeahh.saw xin yi too! :D damn cute lahh.see me den hug so tight.lol.thanks 4 cheerin 4 me on! (: haha.oh ya.dere was this really cute gal.she was sayin 'hi' 2 random ppl.den like calculatin how many ppl said 'hi' back.lol.yaa.so ran 100m relay.we were all supposed 2 run slowwww.haha.so funny lahh.

den started rainin ): damn strong lahh e guy.dr tan I TINK.haha.daddy n mummy din let me run lohh.so i gt damn pissed at them.quarrelled.hai.sorry.but afterdat started 2 drizzle.so started running.LOVE RUNNIN IN E RAIN :D ~~so nice 2 emo~~ haha.den it started pourin again.so mummy tried 2 stop me lahh.like shout me 2 stop running.den i juz chionged past her.lol.so afterdat nxt round decided 2 stop le lahh.in case she gets really pissed.ran 1.6 (: haha.everytime run on sngs track.its like so fast finish 1 round ~~nt like rgs.~~ lol.yeahh.was soaked totally.haha.went hm eat dinner.den msn until now :X goshh.my pts n hw all gonna die lahh.now like so heck care heck care.haha.wkn so busy smmre! ahhh.gotta chiong liao ...

goin 4 fiesta tmr! (: cant wait :D hahaha.i miss sngs! esp 6C! :D yayy! gt reunion tmr.lol.shall go find teachers too! sadly so many left liao ): oh well.its gonna b fun tmr! :D GO 4 SNGS FIESTA! :D now still gt ppl running lehh.24hrs! GO SNGS!! JIAYOU JIAYOU! :DD

THANK YOU ALL WHO CHEERED ME UP 2DAE (: DUN WORRY YEAHH.IM OKK (: UR DUN EMO TOO KKAYES!! (: SMILEEE! TAKE CARE! :D

thank you God for everything (: Lord. I place everything into your hands.hopefully.ive made the right decision this time (:

the girl with the broken heart-

# angels #

guess its all over yeah.broke.pieced.broken yt again.sorry but im juz really disappointed in u.wads e point of hangin in dere.deludin urself wif all e lies.tryin 2 hold on 2 smth dat was long lost.wen i needed u.u were nv there.it was always my frenz who cheered my up.gave me all e love; care n encouragements.guess it was nv meant 2 b.ive held on 4 so long.gt everyone emo/angry/pissed at me.worrying 4 me 4 so long.its time 2 end it once n 4 all.hope its better 4 both of us (: u wun b tied down wif e pressure n all animre.im sorry.all e best ya (: jiayou! stay strong! take care (: ~~i still wun believe it till u say it to my face.~~